SAturdae. Sorry now den i update. Coz wasn't in e best of mood to update my blog. Todae.. LEt me tink, i dun really rmb wad happened todaE? lolz. :X

Ok lahz, i decided to continue my usual waes of blogging. I dun really care who's reading my blog n how they judge me anymore. Todae went out wif poonie in e afternoon. Met at 3 at dhoby ghaut. (yes i tink i got e name correct tis time) HaHaz. Anywae we went mos burger to slack. She had lemon tea while i had milk tea. We also had e ice cream also. Nice nicE. After chatting awhile, i was getting hungry, so i got ebi burger n large fries 2 eat. Still as nice. Duno wad to comment also. :D

We chatted there till abt 5.30 lidat den we left for hougang. We went to watch bball match. But duno y e bus was long n we were late. *His* match start at 6pm. Opps.. tt *hIs* is yanfen's *his* not mine. :X We watched e match, actually i cant see much. Coz i wearing skirt den haf 2 sit properly cannot move much. So some parts were blocked by e coach, or whoever he is. e coach scolded his sons.. Very funny. Hey i m not sadist, its realli v funny. Coz he scolded his sons wifout meaning it. He only did it coz he's anxious for e bball team. Oh btw i saw cHaNgr0nG there. He still din change much wor. Lolz. *hIs* team lost e match. Duno e score. :X After tt poonie n me went to hougang mall. Had delifrance. I ate pasta tt ting, forgot the name already. Lolz. Very nice also. Chatted wif poonie, had 2 comfort her ba. Coz.. :X shhXxX.. wun reveal ppl's stuff in my blog. Coz i oso duno who's reading my blog :S Nope, i m not referring to my frenz dun get offended. Nvm, i also duno wad i talking already lahz.

Anywae after dinner we went punggol park. Slacked n chatted there till 11pm den i go home. YaNfEn had 2 accompany me 2 hougang there to take train. sorRY worZ~ :) Punggol park was realli a nice place. But abit hot lah. :X Coz there is a laRgE lake there!!! I swear its larger than CChmS lake. :D Lolz. Its realli nice n there's a nice cafe there also. HeHez.. Nxt time muz go there again, though i prefer ECP. :)

After tt den came home le lor.. nth much liaoz. Tt's e end of e dae le wor.. Quite tired..

Oh well. I wanted to update last nite, but den e stupid IE hangeD!!! Ha|x. Duno wad to sae.. -.-''' All my efforts wasted. Nvm, tink will type out when i got time n energy.

Last nite was scolded insensible by SOMEONE. I clearly declare here i m insensible. So wad? Tis is my blog, so if u tink i m insensible den dun read it k? Was really depressed last nite. But den, i m lidat. Neither r u any better than me i suppose. If i was so insensible den why e hell u stuck wif me for 5+ mths? Being said lidat can drive me to death. But den again, it doesn't makes any diff whether m i ard in this world or not. Last nite was one of e most lousy nite. But i tink i got over it. Perhaps i was being blind. Sux. Dun tell me coz i like some1 else before u tt's y u wanted 2 sae all those. Yes i m being insensible here again. But den again, some ppl r not as angelic as they seem.

Anywae i tink in future i will onli blog abt my dae, not my thoughts nor feelings. Blogging is no longer fun. I wanted 2 shut down e blog, but decided 2 continue blogging since tt's wad ppl hope i wun do. I m rebellious. e more u dun wan me to do sth, e more i wan 2 do.

Todae i had a fun dae. Todae is huilan's bdae. Went sch at 9am for maths tutorial. Hahaz.. Mr ho was so funny. After tt 10 ppl (zhengang, yexian, allan, chen yu, loo kit, shiyun, rebecca, rachel, yilin n me) went out wif huilan 2 celebrate her bdae. We bought a bdae cake for her. She was so happy.. when sth happened. Shall not write it down here in case ppl tink i m insensible AGAIN.

After we finished e cake we went to tampines mall to eat seoul garden. Many nv brought enuf money n those who haf xtra lent money out. e whole ting cost abt $17 per person. Oh man, ex. Sorry i said i wun blog abt my own thoughts. Anywae we went in to eat and ate quite alot. We finished eating at 4+pm. We crapped alot in seoul garden. Found out some little secret also. :X Sorry i said i wun blog abt my own thoughts.

Went out of seoul garden to shop ard wif shiyun. Ard 5+pm we decide to go ECP. We took bus there but yilin n allan went home already. Saw a car accident by e roadside. I fell aslp on e bus. By time we reach, its abt 6.30pm le. We walked into ECP n sat by one of the breakwaters. Fun. Chatted as well. Den yexian, rachel, huilan, chen yu n me took off our shoes to walk on e beach. Walked awhile den we stop le, wore back our shoes. Went mac. Had a cup of iced milo. Some of the others ate some food. Esther came and huilan went off wif them.

e rest of us went off at ard 8pm. Took bus 31 home. Reached home at ard 9pm den i went bathe le. Den come online 2 update. Oh well, tt's abt all. How grt is my blogging? vErY nArrAtivE yeA? sHaLL keEp iT tiS wAe uNtiL i LEaRnT 2 b sEnsIbLe. bYe

Thursdae. One more dae nearer to JCT, but i m stoning at home. :X Woke up at 2+pm. Slept at 4+am last nite. So i m not considered a pig wor. :X Anywae i juz dun feel nice. HaHax. I m sooo sianZ.. can some1 pls ask me out? Haix. I got a urge to eat seoul garden again. -.-''' Duno y got hols i alwaes feel like eating tt? Lolz. But now i feel more like going out, life is soooo sianz..

Ok lah, shall not sae more le, mayb later den update. Me hungry now le, gtg eat liao. Bye

Todae is not happy dae. REally tiring. Morning woke up at 10am to do pw. Went TJC first to get stuffs frm lookit n pass him some surveys. After tt went bedok mac there n met up wif rebecca n yubo. Yubo reached already. We were waiting for rebecca n she arrvied quite late. Duno y nowadaes i m less anti her already. Perhaps e camp made me grown up. N it made me understand her more? I no longer feel so irritated by her le.

She arrived at ard 12. -.-''' HaHa.. Den we start coming up wif qns to ask for our interview. Came up wif several lame qns. But decided 2 settle wif it. After tt i bought food to eat. Hungry le ma. Den lookit also haven come so gotta wait for him. Yubo went off earlier at 1+pm. Lookit still haven reach. Rebecca n i were sitting there ready to stone le. :D Coz i tink both of us oso quite tired..she got her camp while i not enuf slp. Lolz. Finally we see a blackish figurE... :D lolz.. we wave out 2 tt figure.. heNg aR.. is lookit. !!! If not sure so damn paiseh, reb n me like some idiot waving lidat :X

After lookit came we wait for rain to smaller abit before going to VJ outside to do. Actually i hate to go vj do, coz its realli realli stupid i tink. Somehow i duno y but i feel vj ppl dun like us? So i dare not ask much also. But since they wan go there i follow suit lor. It was raining n we were still stopping ppl 2 do survey for us. LAME!!!!! I feel sorry for those ppl, though reb will hold umbrella for them. -.-''' But its like.. so mean lidat. I also got bitten by mosquitos along e wae!!!!!

Finally we decide to go parkwae to do survey. But we went there n found v little ppl 2 do for us. Coz we can hardly see any ppl in uniform there~ Den we went tampines lor. Sianz!!! At there at least got more ppl.. Though not v smooth, rejected by some. Mostly is lookit asking lor.. Reb n i almost stoning le. HaHaz.. Coz realli feel v tired n den too many ppl walking. We see until eyes also blur lah. Duno lehz. Ha|X.

We went home at ard 7pm. When lookit gotta leave for his zr practice i tink. Not v sure wad instrument izzit. I was so damn tired tt i fell aslp on e bus. I was so scared i will miss my stop, coz e journey usually v fast. Dun wan miss my stop coz i m real tired n leg aching. Ha|x. Came home had a quick dinner den watched tv. Supposed 2 study but i stone at home. Juz cant bring myself to study.. unless i settle sth first..

Deleted awae tis paragraph i typed previously. Coz i juz wan 2 keep sth 2 myself. Juz replaced tis wif sth else. *I noe my dream is smashed. Everyting is juz my imagination. But i will keep those memories wif me, inside me. Coz i read it b4 frm somewhere tt no one can tk awae ur memories. Even if u do not belong to me but those sweet memories belong to me. I woken up frm my dream juz now, still not wanting to accept tings. I noe its not possible, i haf 2 grow up, i haf 2 heal. But i haf chosen 2 like u still, mayb ppl will sae i m stupid or wad, but i juz wan 2 like u.. till e dae my feelings r all gone.. Ppl sae i will 4get u v fast, mayb, mayb not. But i chose not 2 forget u yet, its not easy.. Wif so much interactions.. I only noe its gonna b more sad.. Ha|x.. But i wun disrupt ur life, i will onli admire u frm afar.. I m not hoping for a miracle, coz i noe u wun change ur mind. I juz hope u wun avoid me or hate mE..*

Todae went out wif poonie and mindy. Slept only at ard 7am in e morning. Was on e fone wif mindy. Lolz.. how tired i m! Woke up at 10+am n rushed to bathe n go out meet poonie. Met at orchard mrt there. Went eat ajisen!!! VerY vERy nicE!!! Hehez.. Their standard increase liao wor.. Really v nice. HaHax.

After eating we went toilet. Mindy came n find us there. -.-''' Haha, fancy meeting in toilet. :D REally siao siao lidat. Anywae we went take photos at cine!!!!! Long time nv take liao lor.. so dying to take lor. I tink got mths i nv take le. Until last weekend took wif yilin~ Wad to do? Not many ppl like to take wor. Den we take the photos v nice lehz.. HaHaz. I really so happy, coz it's so nice!! Not me nice but poonie n mindy nice.

We wanted 2 take another photo but we got some harry porter ride 2 catch. Kinda lame, coz i dun like harry porter. Not dun like but neutral. Den i duno much den quite of stupid coz i duno how 2 appreciate. :S Sianz.. After e 15 mins ride, we went back cine take 2nd photo!!! hehez... REally v fun leh! But den we waited for sooooooo long lor, we wait till wanna slp while standing le lAH!!! HaHax.. Heng e pic turn out quite ok, if not waste our time waiting lor!!!

Anywae, after tt we went mos burger to drink milkshake. Nice but den its cold! hahaz.. I tink i drank almost everyting in 10mins. :P thirsty mah, after tt still not enuf lor. Still v thirsty. So i went buy lemon tea to share wif them. HaHa.. chatted alot.. n crapped as well lor. Wad to expect? 3 gals together = crapped!!!!! :) Enjoyed myself wif them alot lehz!!

Abt 5pm poonie gotta go.. do facial! :X So mindy n i went off lor. She went novena pay tuition fees while i go home ... Too tired le mahz.. Wan go home n slp. Juz feel so tired. Went home n slp n watch tv. Sianz..

Den come home den watch tv, den lidat lor.. sianz.. tired le lor. i jux wan 2 slp..ByEbYe.

Todae made some changes to my blog. Nth much, juz changed some "luvs" of mine. Added extra wishes on e wishlist. Most of them wun come true i noe, but juz hoping for sth? HaHaZ~

Did nth todae. Only slacked at home. Was intendin 2 go swimming wif poonie, but last min mummy called n ask me help her record 7pm show. There goes my swimming outing. DotZ!!! Ha|x. i tot can go, but den walao lor.. my mama last min call me. :S JCT is nearing, but i haven done anything. Oh woah.. Nth 2 b proud abt. But i m trying my v best to do my work.. Let me enjoy first lahz.. Den i will work hard. Yes i will, i definitely will. *GrInZ* Like i will lidat. :P

Ok le lah, todae nth much 2 talk abt. I dun tink i shld keep typing out my feelings on my blog too. I tink i haf changed. Changed since sec3. Nvm, i m not talking sense. MAyb my sec sch frenz noe me.. MAyb.. Ha|x. Dun wish 2 update. Bye

HeRe again. S|anz hor. Dun understand y i like 2 blog so much. Perhaps i m slacking la, tt's y. Recently, i tink i m lack of confidence. I dun seem 2 b able to do tings wifout worrying abt many tings. Ha|X. Yes, i noe u might tink i m referring 2 bgr matters. But no, i m not referring to bgr matters. I m referring to all aspects of my life. For example during e LEP camp, when we haf discussions i dare not voice out my opinions. I also duno y izzit lidat. But i juz dare not. When writing my compo, i also lack confidence. Ha|x. Even when wif my classmates, i also dare not sae everythin on my mind for fear of saying wrong tingz.. Lidat how to survive? All i can do is sigh. I seriously need to regain my confidence. But how to? Tt is a good qn. Haix, i tink i m hopeless liao. I need to reflect on myself again.

My frenz who knew me for a long time noe tt i m a frank person who usually speaks wad's on my mind. Poonie and Mindy noe tt once i like some1, i will tell him v soon, regardless of e consequences. But i shld try to control myself lor. If i do tt all e time i m only going to b rejected by other ppl so many times. Den its gonna b so paiseh. Ha|x.. poonie help me.. i muz control myself.. i muz not let *him* noe.. Ha|x..

Duno wad else to update.. todae din do much. now also dun feel like updating. Cya.. hope to go out wif poonie 2 take photo soon.. :D