Second post fot the nite. Shall go sleep after this. =X

Heard something from a fren the other day. Gave me quite a shock. =X Its just show tt we should not judge a book by its cover. =X

When I was in my younger days, not that I am very old now. But when I was still in sec 1 or 2, when IRC was very popular , I heard my frenz said before CERTAIN guys/gals are.. a little scheming. These people, who thinks they are good-looking, ok, they are good-looking, they tend to "flirt" alot with people of the oppostie sex.

These people will send out signals that they like u, or might even tell u that they like u. But, actually, they have no intention of being together with u. Or rather I should put it in another way, they are just lying when they say they like u. =X

I don't really understand the intentions of such people, what do they actually want?

Just because they are good-looking they have the right to play around with other people's feelings?

Yes, perhaps they have the rights.

Why do I say so? Well, it takes two hands to clap. There will definitely be one willing party that is more naive and too trusting that allows such good-looking people to succeed. It is these "willing party" who gave the right to good-looking people after all. So, what can I say?

Another kind of people is even more scary.

They are attached, but, someone else better come along their way. So, they like the other person. They will woo the other person AS WELL AS stay attached with the original partner telling the original partner how deep their love is. *yUcKz*

If they succeed in wooing the other person, they will, break up with their original partner.

If they don't succeed, they will just stay with the original partner till they find someone better.

It just scares me. How human beings can be like that.

Yes, my thinking is that in a relationship, all that matters is that both parties are in love and are happy together. But, it doesn't mean sacrificing someone else.

I've really seen people behaving this way, its not something that I created.

Somehow I just hope that there will be lesser such people around, so that lesser people will get hurt? *Think too much*

One quite important thing is: there really is retribution. One won't get away with hurting someone else emotionally. One day, he/she will still be hurt by another. One day. It's what I've observed in life.

And some things in life, there is no second chance. I think I said this for .. who-knows-how-many-times. I am just tryint to remind myself the importance of cherishing things before I lose it. Simply because I am one who often take things for granted. =X Bad habit.

I am learning, learning to be a better person.

There are just so many things to do when one doesn't have the time. !! =(

I haven study finish, haven cut hair, haven watch enough movies, haven enjoy, haven.. I haven't got time to do alot of things! Yet there is only .. 2 weeks left before I face my doom. =S

Perhaps I should learn to let go. If I really can't survive in JC, den I should.. get out instead of wasting everybody's time.

Trying my best.. I am really trying my best to make full use of time le!! But.. my determination just isn't strong enough to rejects tv, internet. *sighx*

And at this june, there are ALOT of nice movies showing or about to be released soon... *double sighz* When can I find enough time for everyting and make sure I don't flunk JCT ??

*Sighx*

Today is just another -down- day for me I suppose.

Tomorrow will be a better day. =)

Movie outing today!! =) Went to watch "Cursed" with wAnYi DarliNg n aLLan.

Met at 12pm at ps. Had nachos combo today~

Even though we entered e cinema rather laTe, the show .. haven started! Oh my, it juz showed how many commercials GV contained! Bth bth bth. Hahah~ =X

I think uob finally decided to credit the money I banked in e other day to my account. I went to check my account balance and... tada! My money is inside liao!! =) No need to eat shit le!! Plus the money is not all mine, part of it belongs to mummy. If she knew abt it, most probably I will get killed. =X

The movie was not bad! Not so much of a horror. =) Its more of suspense type of movie. And towards the end of the movie, there was a twist in the story. HeHe, had me cheated. =X

I still watch this movie though I don't really have much money left. Its ok de, I will save money again~ I will eat white bread for the rest of this week.. Hiak hiakx..

Dui bu qi pooniEee daR.. Today made u waste ur time le. T_T.. Didn't mean it de wor~ Shall make it up to u one day ok .. Dui bu qi..!!!!

Didn't do any studying today. Was too busy watching tV..=X Ok le, think today shall slp early.

WHAT AN UNLUCKY DAY.

Ever since holidays started, I have this uneasy feeling in me that something big is going to happen this june hols. I am not sure if it's good or bad, but it made me very uneasy for these few days. I pray hard hard that nth bad will happen !! I don't think I am ready for any blow at this point of time.

My day started out fine. Went tampines study with poonie. We went subway and stayed there for the whole afternoon. At least I think I completed 3 chaps of maths. =|

After studying, I went to deposit money into my account. But..... OMG OMG, the money seem to be stuck and MY MONEY GOT LOST. It isn't bank in to my account, neither did the machine return my money to me. The machine was spoilt!

*SCREAMZ*

My money my money my money, I need it to survive thru my june hols. ArH... ArH... ArH...

Could the uneasy feeling of mine be referring to the money? Pls dun let my money be lost, pls return my money to me. Pls Pls Pls.. T_T

I don't know why but memories kept flashing through my mind once I close my eyes. Those happy times. Strange isn't it? Even though I am stressed about studies and many other things, my brain actually prefers to remember those happy times. =|

Those were my childhood days.

I felt that I have two set of parents.

I felt that I gained 3 more brothers.

I felt like I was the luckiest child on earth.

The 2 sets of parents were my own parents and .. my babysitter and her husband.

I used to call my babysitter "mama" and her husband uncle. =)

I was very naughty in the past and many babysitters refused to look after me, but "mama" was the only one who agreed to babysit me.

On special ocassions, mama would buy me presents, presents that my mum refused to buy. During lantern festivals, I would get 2 lanterns, one from my own mummy and one from "mama". =)

It was with "mama" and uncle where I learnt how a real family should behave. A real happy family should consist of parents sleeping together, loving their children, siblings caring for each other as well. It was completely different from what I saw at home.

With "mama" and uncle, they would bring me to visit relatives, shopping, eating, or simply spend time together. During weekends when I go back to my own home, life was quite different. My real mummy would still bring my kor and me out, but, photos showed that there were only 3 people in my family. My dad isn't dead or working, but he just didn't want to spend time with us.

Whenever I was sick, my real mum would stay by my side and take care of me. But "mama" would cook food for me.

I still think that a dad should teach his children the right moral values and guide them the right path instead on using violence all the time. My real dad didn't fulfil that. Uncle fulfilled that instead. Uncle was the one who cultivated my interest in chinese, he was the one who guided me along the way. If it wasn't for uncle's presence, I might have already followed my kor's footsteps long ago.

"Mama" and uncle have 3 sons, and naturally they treated me very well. Unlike my own kor, they treated me like their sister.

I never had to worry about chicken bones, fish bones, etc. There would always be someone around to remove those bones for me.

I don't remember crying at "mama"'s house.

But one fine morning, "mama" had a stroke.

Her son's girlfriend blamed me for agitating her. Sometimes I questioned myself, was it really me who caused her death?

After "mama" suffered from the stroke, she went into coma.

Several months later, she could open her eyes. The way she looked at me was different from the way she looked at others. I knew she remembered me, I knew she wanted to tell me something, but I never got to know what she wanted to tell me.

Being young and stupid, I thought that "mama" was going to be alright and she would be there to take care of me again. How wrong I was. She didn't wake up anymore.

When she passed away, I cried like mad. =X My real mummy hid the truth that "mama" passed away because she was superstitious.

After uncle passed away last year, I had a strange dream. I dreamt about us 3 spending time like a family in their house. I knew they wanted to tell me not to worry for them anymore.

If only I could turn back time, I want to tell "mama" and uncle that I love them. I will miss them no matter where they are now.

Maybe it was because of the way they treated me that made me a spoilt brat now. But they gave me family warmth.

I've always been self-centered. But for once, I am going to do something good. I just want people around me to be happy. I also have closed ones I want to protect. Maybe nobody will understand what I mean, but it's ok. Maybe pOoNie will understand me.. =)

After typing out all those happy childhood times, I guess my mood is not that bad anymore. =)

Haha, fancy blogging at 8.45am in the morning. Hmm, don't know why I can't sleep ?? =X Nvm, maybe later shall go and get some sleep. =)

Anyway, anyone wanna go airport study? I seriously need to study..at a place where I can't see my bed nor feel my bed, somewhere with no tV.. LoLZ.. If wan sms me k..

Can't wait for saturday to come.. Miss yaH pOOnIE.. =X

Been a pig today. Slept like there's no tomorrow. =X

Fell aslp on the floor last nite while studying. This morning suffering from a bad backache. =P The results of slping on the floor. Don't have much of a choice, the air-con is spoilt and my bed is hot! HaHa..

Missed the trip to sentosa with my mummy n frenz today. Glad tt I didn't go, they didn't really had much fun at sentosa after all. =X

Bad headache todaY. Woke up at 8am from the floor and went to slp on my bed. Woke again at 3pm and had my brunch, before going back to slp at 4pm. Woke up by the noise my kor was producing at 5.30pm. The moment I saw him I also sian diao so I went back to slp.. only to wake up at 7.30pm. Oh man, what a PIG. If only I have the chance to slp lidat everyday. =X But nono, muz study liaoz.. =X

K le, muz get my butt off the computer chair le. Must study must study must study.. Nothing on my to-do list is completed.. not even onE..

A Lot Like Love

It takes some people years to fall in love at first sight... A LOT LIKE LOVE is a romantic comedy about destiny, connection and the frequently fuzzy line between chance friendships and happily ever after.

A LOT LIKE LOVE traces the relationship of Oliver (ASHTON KUTCHER) and Emily (AMANDA PEET) who meet on a flight from Los Angeles to New York seven years ago – each of them declaring that they couldn't be more wrong for each other. Life keeps bringing them back together over the next seven years, but the timing never seems right. As they struggle with their different partners, careers and breakups, they turn from casual acquaintances into trusted friends who can say anything to one another.

As they each search for love and a relationship that's not fated for disaster, it takes seven years for Oliver and Emily to figure out that maybe what they really have is something...a lot like love.

One quote from the movie: "Just when I am starting to like u, u are moving away". Doesn't that sound interesting? =) My next targetted movie. Hoho, but then it only release on 23rd June. Hai, still got so many weeks away. =X

Maybe I can start saving up for this movie. =P

Didn't do much today. Stayed home and slack my day off. Must study already. =)