What is the meaning of love? How does one display love?
Making your loved one happy?
Sacrificing yourself to make your loved one happy?
Giving sweet love? Giving unconditionally?
Standing beside your loved one through thick and thin?
Even when your loved one love someone else, you still give your love?
Willingness to accomodate any wrongdoings of your loved one? Always ready to forgive and forget your loved one?
There are many ways of displaying love, am I displaying it?
Towards my family, my friends, him...
Have I done anything for anyone?
Compared to many others out there, I am worthless.
Yes I am worthless and useless.
Then what's the point of typing all these out?
I suppose I need somewhere to vent my frustrations out. Too many things running through my mind. Things happened too suddenly that I need time to accept.
I want to be optimistic.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Fever.
Sick.
Burning.
Had a bad night yesterday.
Was so sick that I don't even have energy to watch tv.
=(
I don't like this feeling.
Got better today but my body still aches.
It's a long weekend in front of me, yet I doubt I can enjoy much.
I hate this feeling.
The burning feeling disturbs my sleep and makes me think too much.
=(
I want to get well soon.
This is really such a bad week.
Sick.
Burning.
Had a bad night yesterday.
Was so sick that I don't even have energy to watch tv.
=(
I don't like this feeling.
Got better today but my body still aches.
It's a long weekend in front of me, yet I doubt I can enjoy much.
I hate this feeling.
The burning feeling disturbs my sleep and makes me think too much.
=(
I want to get well soon.
This is really such a bad week.
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
This week had been unlucky for me though it's only tuesday today.
Overslept for morning lecture yesterday. Alarm clock rang but my phone was on silent mode. In the end I didn't hear the alarms and morning calls from dear.
Dear was fed up with me... =(
Went back to school in the afternoon to hand in my assignment. On the way, I suddenly remembered that I didn't bring the assignment cover along. I didn't turn back home to get it as I will be late in handing in my assignment.
Decided to head to school to print the cover sheet.
Met my classmates at computer lab. Was told that they ran out of papers at the lab. *OMG* Went to library to get my cover sheet printed. Long wait and some hiccups in the process.
When I finally printed the cover sheet, I realised I didn't bring any pen along!!! What a great way to begin my week.
Bought a new pen. Handed in my assignment and my adventure to school ended peacefully. Or so I thought.
While waiting for transport, some bird decided to relieve itself and it got onto my leg. *ARGH* I nearly screamed my lungs out. I still wanted to head to dear's house from school and this had to happen. =(
Luckily the journey to Tampines was smooth. Headed to his house cos he was sick. Watched VCDs, do computing homework, eat dinner there.
Took a cab home. The cabby driver decided to drive at a speed of 120km/h. To make things worse he had to brake several times along the expressway. OMG. I nearly puke my dinner out. *puke*
Was feeling giddy at night. Went to sleep earlier than usual.
Started tuesday pretty normal.
Headed to school early in the morning.
Was late for class.
Class ended.
When I was waiting for bus home, I couldn't find my ez-link card. Ran all the way back to my class venue to search for my card, but still could not find it. Along the way I missed a step on the staircase and fell down. =( Luckily nobody was around to see how pathetic I was.
Finally reached home in one piece to blog about all these incidents. Hopefully no more unlucky events will happen.
Overslept for morning lecture yesterday. Alarm clock rang but my phone was on silent mode. In the end I didn't hear the alarms and morning calls from dear.
Dear was fed up with me... =(
Went back to school in the afternoon to hand in my assignment. On the way, I suddenly remembered that I didn't bring the assignment cover along. I didn't turn back home to get it as I will be late in handing in my assignment.
Decided to head to school to print the cover sheet.
Met my classmates at computer lab. Was told that they ran out of papers at the lab. *OMG* Went to library to get my cover sheet printed. Long wait and some hiccups in the process.
When I finally printed the cover sheet, I realised I didn't bring any pen along!!! What a great way to begin my week.
Bought a new pen. Handed in my assignment and my adventure to school ended peacefully. Or so I thought.
While waiting for transport, some bird decided to relieve itself and it got onto my leg. *ARGH* I nearly screamed my lungs out. I still wanted to head to dear's house from school and this had to happen. =(
Luckily the journey to Tampines was smooth. Headed to his house cos he was sick. Watched VCDs, do computing homework, eat dinner there.
Took a cab home. The cabby driver decided to drive at a speed of 120km/h. To make things worse he had to brake several times along the expressway. OMG. I nearly puke my dinner out. *puke*
Was feeling giddy at night. Went to sleep earlier than usual.
Started tuesday pretty normal.
Headed to school early in the morning.
Was late for class.
Class ended.
When I was waiting for bus home, I couldn't find my ez-link card. Ran all the way back to my class venue to search for my card, but still could not find it. Along the way I missed a step on the staircase and fell down. =( Luckily nobody was around to see how pathetic I was.
Finally reached home in one piece to blog about all these incidents. Hopefully no more unlucky events will happen.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Update for the weekend.
Met dear on saturday afternoon for movie. Watched "The Number 23". Ultimate s-l-o-w show. Nearly fell asleep at the middle of the show. =X
Anyway, there's this new combo called Cheezy Pasta at GV now. It tastes nice!! Maybe cos I like pasta and cheese. =)
Before the movie saw an ex-colleague. Didn't quite expect to see her there. Let go of dear's hand cos I didn't want to embarrass him. Well, end up she didn't see me.
Saw more ex-colleagues after the movie. They pretended not to see me. So be it. I don't like people who stabbed me too.
After the movie we went to Best Denki to ... BUY LAPTOP. MinE!!!!
So excited for the whole week. Cos I am going to pay for it myself! It's going to be mine~ No more fighting of PC. Cos this is mine.
Bought it and went his house.
Pictures time!!
The new laptop..
Cover
Screen
After waiting for half an hour, the system finally starts.
Startup
While waiting for dear to get my laptop up, I suddenly thought of taking pictures.
Me
Of cos my dear wasn't forgotten though he's busy installing my laptop! =)
Setting up my laptop
Forced to take pic with me
Smile~
Better!
Finally he decided to let me take pics together. =P
Us
Again
My new toy again.
In use
Dear + his laptop
This pic is taken by dear. He said I look like a ghost. =(
Me + my laptop
Dear flared up on saturday. Wow, fierce. =X Luckily not at me. Though I did make him angry on friday and he did flare up at me. =X
Been watching "My Date With A Vampire 3". Nice show!!! I like!!! =)
Was talking to mum just now.
Laptop, school fees, boyfriend, etc.
I have to admit she is nice when she is not naggy. We are on the same frequency. Maybe I likes mum because she is spoiling me badly.
I am glad mum finally tells me that she doesn't dislike Terrence. We had a long talk and we clarified things out.
I think I am growing up, at least learning to grow up.
Felt so much like giving her a big bear hug, but didn't cos it's too mushy. =X
By the way, it's not mummy who's paying for my laptop.
I guess the next time I want to argue with mum, I should try to talk to her and reason things out first. She needs to know I am growing up and thinking for her too.
New thought for the week: We should try to learn not to let anger blind us and say hurtful things to spite our loved ones, we should always listen to our heart and speak from the heart. =)
Met dear on saturday afternoon for movie. Watched "The Number 23". Ultimate s-l-o-w show. Nearly fell asleep at the middle of the show. =X
Anyway, there's this new combo called Cheezy Pasta at GV now. It tastes nice!! Maybe cos I like pasta and cheese. =)
Before the movie saw an ex-colleague. Didn't quite expect to see her there. Let go of dear's hand cos I didn't want to embarrass him. Well, end up she didn't see me.
Saw more ex-colleagues after the movie. They pretended not to see me. So be it. I don't like people who stabbed me too.
After the movie we went to Best Denki to ... BUY LAPTOP. MinE!!!!
So excited for the whole week. Cos I am going to pay for it myself! It's going to be mine~ No more fighting of PC. Cos this is mine.
Bought it and went his house.
Pictures time!!
The new laptop..
Cover
Screen
After waiting for half an hour, the system finally starts.
Startup
While waiting for dear to get my laptop up, I suddenly thought of taking pictures.
Me
Of cos my dear wasn't forgotten though he's busy installing my laptop! =)
Setting up my laptop
Forced to take pic with me
Smile~
Better!
Finally he decided to let me take pics together. =P
Us
Again
My new toy again.
In use
Dear + his laptop
This pic is taken by dear. He said I look like a ghost. =(
Me + my laptop
Dear flared up on saturday. Wow, fierce. =X Luckily not at me. Though I did make him angry on friday and he did flare up at me. =X
Been watching "My Date With A Vampire 3". Nice show!!! I like!!! =)
Was talking to mum just now.
Laptop, school fees, boyfriend, etc.
I have to admit she is nice when she is not naggy. We are on the same frequency. Maybe I likes mum because she is spoiling me badly.
I am glad mum finally tells me that she doesn't dislike Terrence. We had a long talk and we clarified things out.
I think I am growing up, at least learning to grow up.
Felt so much like giving her a big bear hug, but didn't cos it's too mushy. =X
By the way, it's not mummy who's paying for my laptop.
I guess the next time I want to argue with mum, I should try to talk to her and reason things out first. She needs to know I am growing up and thinking for her too.
New thought for the week: We should try to learn not to let anger blind us and say hurtful things to spite our loved ones, we should always listen to our heart and speak from the heart. =)