Still Alive

Like the title implies, I am still alive. Just lack of updates. Couldn't really find the motivation to update abt things in my life.

Probably Mr TT is going to say, "What's there for u to update? Except living in your own world n time."

Yep, I am awake when others sleep, sleep when others awake. BUT I still attend my very-expensive lectures and do my projects with my mates. The only thing I did not do is to read my lectures beforehand. Well, just not that diligent yet.

I do NOT want to be like this either. But the bio clock refuses to tune back to Singapore +8:00 timing. I wanted to consult a doctor about it, but well, the clinic opens only for that several hours while I am away in class or dreamland.

Everytime Mr TT wakes up, he'll scold me for playing games/watching dvds. But the game part was only during the CNY period. Now mostly I do my readings / rushing projects while keeping the dvd playing.

I know he does not like me to be awake while he is asleep, but I cannot help it either. I am trying to tune back, only to make it worst. All he did was to be angry with me and angrier and angrier everytime he realises I am awake at wee hours.

It makes me helpless and frustrated when I toss n turn in the bed without feeling a tiny bit of sleepiness. Thus, I turned to other activities to pass my time instead.

Try putting yourself in my shoes the next time you want to scream at me. Try downing a jug of caffine and sleep in an hour's time. Try waking in the late afternoon and tell yourself to sleep at midnight. With only that few hours of mild activities, how will the body ever feel like resting?! I know you can sleep definitely even in those situations, but I am not you. Not yet.

All I need is a little more encouragement and medical help, not constant anger and frustrations vented on me. If these still carry on, you're only pushing me to move back home, to my home sweet home. Maybe it'll be better for all.

Why?!

Sometimes I wish my mum will grow up, mentally I mean.

I am already turning 22 soon, yet she still treats me like a kid. On top of that, she also does not register the fact that I am married and not staying with her anymore.

Before my officical ROM, we had a fight over a dinner. She insisted that I go back home for dinner 1 day before my ROM to celebrate some kind of festival. Obviously I had many things to prepare and do before ROM, instead of trying to listen to me and understand, she just barked at me for being anxious about my ROM event. ......... Thanks huh, who in the world will not be anxious over his/her own wedding?!?!?!

Not only that, she also behaved weirdly on my ROM day itself. She asked irrelevant questions and wanted me to move back home during CNY 2009. Seriously she knows bloody well I have bigger issues to deal with that time.

Ever since then, she only became more grumpy and flare up at me if I disobey her wishes. Sometimes I feel that she treats me like her little doggy and she is unhappy that her little doggy is no longer that obedient like before.

Whenever she calls me on my mobile, she EXPECTS me to answer. Else she will call Mr TT, a.k.a. my hubby and demand to know where am I. ???????? Get a life! I needs to go for classes and I needs to sleep, and Mr TT needs to work in the daytime. I do not stand by my phone 24/7. I have things to do too. When she don't answer my phone call, it is normal as she is working. When I don't answer her phone call, it is a criminal act and I am definitely outside playing.

Just yesterday, she wanted me to go back to help her with CNY shopping at the supermarket. However I was out with the lyes and did not know my phone rang. She rang Mr TT up and asked irrelevant questions like have I bought my CNY clothes or not. When was she ever concerned about whether I bought any clothes for CNY? She only wanted to know where was I and why I did not answer her calls.

And when I called her today, she demands me to go back home to buy CNY goods with her tomorrow BECAUSE SHE IS FREE TOMORROW NIGHT after her opera friends flew home. When I said I am not free, she barked at me and said I don't bother to help her. This is totally childish as I already booked an appointment for pedicure and it is almost impossible to change my appointment when it is so near to CNY. Why doesn't she barks at her son for flying to Thailand and not helping her? WTF. If she had informed me earlier that she wants to go buy CNY goods I can plan my time properly, but she did not.

I may appear to be a bad daughter, but the way she is treating me is making me breathless. She doesn't give me enough space to grow and learn to be a wife. She only wants me to remain in that broken family being her dog and facing her rotten son do stupid things. What future will I get from that?

I just hope that things will get better after CNY and she will stop being so pessimistic about every single thing.

Update

Haven't been updating my blog for some months.

Was busy with school work and temp job assignment. Definitely will update soon!

25th

It's time of the month again! I mean Mr TT and mine month-niversary. =)

Not sure how many months already. Perhaps it did not quite matter either, the yearly thing is more worth celebrating. -.-'''

Spent the day cleaning the hamster cages in his room and bathing my hamsters. After which, it was cleaning for his room as I could not stand the dirty sheet of plastic on the floor. I guess it was a fruitful afternoon though not much revision was done for myself.

Another pair of hamsters died. Sigh. Probably Mr TT was right, with too many hamsters at his place there are no time to play with all of them everyday. As a result, some get neglected and fought to death without anyone's notice.

But I really hope to have one more hamster as a companion for bubble?!?! The question is, where is bubble's mum going to stay?!?!? Sighx..

The evening was spent at East Point Mall cos I wanted to eat curry chicken noodle. But it was sold out by then. =( Went to the pet shop and look at pets. Bought some food stuff and the day ended. That's how the 25th was spent this month.

Anyway, Happy month-niversary Mr TT! =D Shall have a celebration next month after my exams. Exams fall on the next two weeks. Hopefully I will do well.

Updates

Updated entry for Sep 14 below. More to come...

Pretty Donuts

Though I do not really like donuts, but Mr TT failed to bring Krispy Kreme back from HK on his business trip. So he bought some donuts to make up for it. *I am not spoilt brat*

The donuts were from Donut Empire and the donuts looked very pretty!

Durian


Cinnamon chocolate


Set of donuts




I don't remember all the names, just that they looked pretty! But not all flavors are nice though. I liked the durian one cos it really tasted great! There is a center filled with durian puree (I think that's what it's called) and the amount of durian puree is sufficient without overdoing it. =)

The donuts were rather nice on the overall but some flavors are a little too sweet for my liking~

Took some photos of my hamster the other day. He is puipui jr. In actual fact, those photos were taken with food on my hand, so that he will stay still for me to take photo! =D

Almost Done

All the projects and assignments for this semester is almost finished. Finally there's a chance to breathe!

TVB drama moonlight resonance ended tonight. I managed to catch the last episode. Haha, missed out the middle part cos the rental discs will be here very soon. =D Hopefully there will not be much unhappiness over the dvds.

There had been some minor unhappiness these days. I suppose the feelings will go away. Just pretend I am deaf and blind!

Even though I am more free cos of the end of assignments, but still got some folders of pictures that I am simply too lazy to bother about. =D

Here are some pictures taken of hamster puipui number 2 some days ago.

Timid puipui vs. Shifu (from kungfu panda)




Smelling shifu first..


Taller & stronger puipui ..


Tada~ Shifu is defeated~


Those are the things which I do to destress when I am too busy to even go out.

Shall go edit report now.