Have alot of things to blog abt but lazy to do so. I m attached. =)

Decided to blog on this date coz this is a special day for -him- and me. =) Met him late at night at ard 9pm. Supposed to go and change e size of e shirt I got him for xmas. Coz he gave me a jigsaw so I muz get him sth back. After tt, we went to esplanade there to sit and talk rubbish.

At ard 11+pm, he took out a bouquet of roses and asked me to be his gf. Erm, I cant really rmb did he kneel on the ground coz it was pretty embarrassing for both of us there. THERE ARE PPL ARD. =X But seriously, I didn't gif him any reply when he gave me the flowers. It was an unforgettable thing coz no one had ever been so sweet to me. Can u imagine? Fancy giving me flowers when he asked me to be his gf when most of the other guys I was with only gave on vdae. Well, he is different.

It started to rain quite heavily n we went to lau pat sat to eat supper. He ate coz I wasn't feeling v hungry. At ard 5.30am, I finally agreed to be his gf. I wasn't too sure if my decision was right or not, but at that moment I juz noe he is a v sweet guy and treats me well, and the most impt thing is tt I like him, so I wanted to be with him.

29th Dec 2004 is a special day for -him- and me~ Actually I didn't like him in e first place, but he stood by me when I was down and upset over certain things, thus I fell for him. Ok u may say I am dumb, but I admit I am. I jux felt that the least I could do for him is to be there for him too when he needs me. I noe it is not a good thing to be in a relationship with me, but I am willing to try my best to be nice to him.. =)

24th Dec 2004
Went out with eric. We went orchard to watch movie. First time I tried to book movie tickets online. Actually it's not too difficult! =) LoLx.. It saves the hassle of queuing up for tickets. Not only that, booking tickets can ensure we will be able to get the seats we want! So why not? Plus only $0.50 more nia, no say v ex. We watched the kung fu hustle..



Seriously I don't think it is that nice a show ba. It may be funny and lame, but there is not much storyline? Hmm, maybe I tend to take things too seriously? Lolx. My problem lah, but I think if u all want to watch it should go and watch it ok? Dun be affected by my comments abt tt show.

Before the show we went to eat. After eating we went to walk walk awhile. Time passed v slowly, and as the sun began to set, the ppl at orchard increased. =X Had a hard time trying to squeeze thru' the ppl man.. Lolx. Had nice nachos during the movie! =) *yuMmY*

After the show we went to esplanade coz orchard too many ppl liaox. Esplanade wasn't tt happening as orchard, but it doesn't matter tt much coz we aren't there with a grp of ppl. Mindy came and joined us shortly. Initially we wanted to wait for yanzhu and poonie darling to come after their work. But they keep having OT and then they didn't want to come.. so no choice loh. In the end only left with mindy, eric and me. =S

Eric also gave me sth for xmas.. this is it..



Cute isn't it?? I really think its quite cute. =) But the question is... why pig???? Lolx.. I really dun understand why pig lah. Why do all ppl like to call me pig? :'( Nvm lah, I noe they dun mean it can already..

The three of us stayed there till morning 7+am. Den we left. I went home n slp.. MerRY xmAs~ LoLX..

25th Dec 2004
Woke up at ard 3pm. Wad a pig. haix. Met up with yanzhu at kallang mrt. We went plaza singapura for movie. Lol. dun ask me why, maybe too long nv watch movie? Deprived of movie for a long time I suppose. Bought tix for "Meet The Fockers". Den went Cafe Cartel for dinner. I had pasta while he had fish n chips. I tried some of his fish n chips, this time it tasted not bad. At least not as bad as wad I ate last time. =X He paid for the dinner. Tt's nice of him.. Somemore the dinner is not tt cheap.

After dinner we went walk walk.. wanted to shop for xmas gift, but I duno wad to buy also.. So did some aimless window shopping.. =) But couldn't stand the walking, so we juz went starbucks n get a coffee. After tt we took train back to plaza sing for our movie. Had my fav popcorn !!! The movie was much better than kung fu hustle. Seriously I would recommend ppl to watch this than kung fu hustle.



After the movie we went to esplanade again. Coz when it is late at nite u would juz rather find a place where u can sit n nap? Lol. no la, juz kidding... Chatted awhile there.. went home at morning again. slept without even bathing.. =X

Now let's see wad gifts I got for my xmas..

WaNyI:


PooNiE:


YaNzHu:


Sweet right? All fo them are so sweet to me.. wy got me sth I like frm precious moments.. Poonie got me a foreva frenx cup, and yanzhu got me a puzzle.. Hmm, well, if I manage to finish the puzzle, I will definitely FRAME it up. Not like someone who dun even see the need to frame puzzle up.

To be frank, I had a VERY unforgettable xmas this yr. Better than last yr, better than any yr. Even better than the xmas spent in hongkong with mama. One thing is the company, another is the atmosphere for the festival. If u ppl know wad I am talking abt, I dun need to pay this yr!!!!!!! Not for the movie tix, not for the food, not even for popcorn.. Let's leave money aside, even the gifts I also dun need to ask for wan lor. Finally for once, I realised what they mean by being treated like a gal.. The feeling is really different.

And to tt someone (if u happen to read my blog) : if u think all e guys in e world are stingy human like u, u r wrong. There are still ppl who treat me like a gal and r willing to pay, whether in a relationship or not. If u think I am materialistic, go ahead. I nv once deny I am lidat.

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Happy bdaY racheL!!! HeHehEx.. Today's her bdae.. Lye family went out to celebrate her bdae wor.. LoLx.

Supposed to meet 2.30pm at somerset to write her bdae card b4 going to sakae for buffet. But the usual me was late again. =X I only woke up at 2pm. Kaox. Damn late. Then orchard there got terrible jam.. I was late by an hr or longer. Shit lor. Went sakae eat the buffet.. Today nv eat too much lah, coz dun feel like eating tt much either. Crapped there for abt 2 hrs n we left at 5pm.

Walk walk ard first and we went to buy ice cream to eat. =D I bought 3 flavors, green tea, choco mint and mango. Not bad, but then too much for my stomach to take. I almost puke out my food.. =X

After tt we gave rachel's her present.. which is $20 kino voucher. =) She's v happy.. hehex.. Den went to kino to walk walk see see. Lao pa and san ma (leonard) went off before the rest finish paying at kino. They wanted to go home already. BUT... as usual the blur lao pa took eggie's xmas present with him. Trust me, only him will do such blur things. So eggie went to taka basment there to meet lao pa to take back her things. While waiting for him, we went in to... pei me see the cute cute care bear...

Unexpectedly, the lyes juz shared money to buy me the jumbo wishbeaR!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG.. I was so damn surprised n happy.. I didn't noe they will buy me that!!!! REally v touched... to all lyes reading my blog: THanK u very very very much! Er jie loves u all ok.. =) Let me show u the cutie..


It's v cute rite? If u look closer, u will realise that there r two wishbears. One is the small one and one is the jumbo one! Alot of difference right??? LoLx..

After tt we went home.. or rather they went home. I went city hall n meet my darling poonie! =) Walk walk ard first while waiting for her. Bought her a 2005 calendar.. hehe.. its v cute wor.. Hope she will like it leh! Talk rubbish at pacific coffee company there and chatted till 1040 lidat den we go home le.. Its really a fun day todae..

Anyway, yesterday I bought my 2005 schedule book and a new sling bag! =) Spending money is fun! I love spending money... I love spending money wor. =)

Didn't blog for several days. Nth much to blog also mahx. Went out today with yanfen n mindy. Went cartel to eat first. Had pasta. It tastes good! Not like that time I ate e fish n chips which tasted not so good and bland.

After that walk walk ard and wanted to watch movie. Too bad e movie we wanted to watch was sold out. LoLx. In e end we walked over to cine and watched another movie lor. But there wasnt any movie we wanted to watch.. So .. we settled on...
ThiS


Haha, typical korean romance show. Full of tears and S-L-O-W... I nearly fell aslp in the cinema!!!! Dun ever watch this show ok??? It is not worth ur money. But wad's impt is not only the show, the company matters alot too wor. =) Moreover, I dun like 2 see guys cry. Which is just what the guy in the movie does. Disgusting. =X

Anyway, a joke abt working yesterday. I broke 2 plates. Breaking plates is nth lah, but then I cut myself yar? And there's shattered pieces of glass stuck in my uniform which hurt me. Shit.

Something bad happened to me yesterday too. But not worth mentioning. I am sad enough over it. But thanx to yanfen for being there for me.. standing by me and letting me see the truth. =) Perhaps I am too serious abt life. I take everything too seriously.. hence i end up hurting myself also lah. Maybe I shall try not to think too much in future. I should also learn not to be too trusting anymore. Hai, life is just so weird. When ur life is too normal, sth will happen 2 spoil things again.

The year is coming to an end. I should come up with an overview of what happened this yr. But I still didn't come up with it till now coz there is nth much that happened in my yr. No big event happened to me. Frenx r still frenx. I was single and I am still single. New frenx made haven really made an impact to my life yet. Sorry to say this but I am just speaking the fact. I didn't even celebrate my bdae this year, so how great my yr can be? Frenx closer to me should noe that bdae is v impt to me, so if nth happened on my bdae, can expect my yr wasn't tt grt.

*How I wish I can turn back time.. n I wun be so stupid again..* All I can do now is pretend nth had happened..

This post is supposed to be for sunday. But I was late lah, so it turned out to be posted on monday.

Start with working. Well, today was kinda slack for me, or rather I was in a good mood. My partner was v pro. She got 3 bottles of soft drinks juz behind to fill up e jar. HaHa, all I can sae is she is a v pro person.. know how to make life easier for herself. I looks like a hardworking cow in front of her.. Lolx. She even tell me no need tensed up, can juz relax n take my time. -.-''' See how life can be great for her? HaHax =D

Now for my thought of the day. Like I always said, it's not the truth that hurts, it is just our thoughts that hurt us. It's abit impossible for us not to think lah. But then, have any of u wondered.. Why is it sometimes when u hope for sth to happen it just won't? And unexpected things will happen when u doesn't want it to.

It's not that sth happened to me, it's just that I believe in fate and destiny. Some of u may not believe in it and think that one should fight for own happiness and decide ur own fate. But aren't these all predestined? I'm not sure. I always wanted to take the initiative in the past, but then I end up hurting myself and looking like a fool. So perhaps I think that taking initiative isn't really that great after all. Call me coward or useless, but I had given up on believing that I can decide my own fate...

Yep, this was the movie poonie and I watched on thursday. It's really a movie worth watching ba. I shall not reveal the plot of the movie coz some of u may be intending to watch. =)





After a friend’s wedding one evening, Tun, a photographer and his girlfriend get involved in a road accident. They freak out and run from the scene. The next day, strange lights begin appearing in his photographs. The pair begins an investigation as to the cause of the strange lights, only to discover that the lights are sometimes spirits caught on camera. Spirits that have unfinished business…

Wah.. this is not a bad picture right? =X I can sense that those who doesn't like horror wanting to beat me already? LoLx. Anyway, I finally found someone to pei me go watch shutter. Went to watch shutter with my colleague from marina mandarin. Finally one horror movie that is not plot-less (if there is even such a word).
I think most ppl who wanted to watch tt movie would have watched it already, so I can post the plot up den. =) If u all don't want to read can leave my blog~

It's abt a female ghost and she is back to seek revenge. She kept appearing in photos that the couple took. When the couple went into investigation, they found out that the gal was actually ex-girlfren of Tun (lead actor).
They were once together and when Tun wanted to break up with the gal, she threatened to slit her wrist and kill herself. Although Tun managed to stop her, but it didn't end there. Tun wanted to get rid of the gal from his sight, so he asked help from his frenx. Who noes his frens will gang rape the gal? Maybe it isn't gang rape I am not v sure. Tun was asked to take pics of the gal being raped. How cruel? Hence, the ghost came back to seek revenge and caused Tun's frenx who were involved in the gang rape to commit suicide.
The gal's body was found decomposing at her own hse. For some reason her mum didn't want to cremate her body after she committed suicide. Tun and his gf tot all was over. But it wasn't. The gal ghost wanted to be with Tun forever, even though Tun didn't really love her at all. (Tun do deserves it doesn't he? Toying gal's feelings)
At the end, it turned out that the ghost was riding on Tun's neck all the while.. Thus, they will be together forever.. till death do them part.. just like what Tun promised in the past...

After the movie went to eat at ps. Den went home coz my fren gotta work today. Nth much to walk also lah. HahAx.. So happy, I finally got to watch shutter, and it really is not a silly horror show with no plot! =)

So happy. Went out with my darling poonie todAE!!!!! Met her at 4pm at somerset mrt.

Walked over to marche to eat lunch/dinner. Had my all time favourite rosti. It still tasted VERY nice. After tt we had waffles which tasted grt but not as nice as gelare's one.

LAter we went to take neoprint at heeren. But there were a mountain of ppl there. So we walked over to cine lor. Saw my "kor" at heeren. He called out to me, if not I also can't recognise him liao. well, paiseh la. I alwaes sae I have a good memory of recognising ppl's face, but this time har.. I think my memory is failing. LoLx.

Took two neoprints at cine. Saw mablerine and frenx there!!!!! Hahax, I only noe they were there coz I heard albert's voice!! Isn't that funny? Haha, nvm lah. No offence. We took a v funny pic, but no scanner lah, so no choice la, cant see tt pic. Realy damn funny lor. HAhax.

After tt we went to buy tix for national treasure. It was a damn nice show! =) Really v nice lor. Nv regret watching it. Somemore I watch it with poonie!! HeHehEhEx.. But I still haven watch shutter. Hai, tt show is ending soon but I didn't even haf the chance. Why.. some kind soul pls ask me go watch ok..

After tt we walked to ps and sat there talk awhile before going home. So happy todae. LoLz.. Thanx poonie.. Enjoy ur stay at the chalet ok. =)

Been working these few days with poonie, her frenz joyce and yanzhu. Very happy workin with them. =)

Yest was v slack as they put us 1 person to 1 table. HaHAhAx.. But then todae I tio two tables. WAd tHe..... Somemore there are alot of kids in one of my table and they kept drinking waTER...... Fuck. Drink so much water for wAD???????????? Make me have to keep topping up their drinks. wad the.

Tt's abt all for todae. I am tired le, dun feel like typing anymore. Tata.

Didn't blog for several days already. Let's see, ALOT of things happened these few days.

Firstly, I started working. Yep, it isn't as scary as I tot it would be. Only got scolded by one senior manager for not knowing how to cut fish. The rest of the working experience was still quite ok. The ppl there are quite friendly and willing to help. =) But eggie and rachel decided to quit coz they dun like the manager there.

I wanted to quit with them but I started to like working, so I asked yanfen help me book for next week. Not sure if I will still be scheduled to work nxt week not, either way also ok with me. =) Duno why time seem to pass VERY fast while I was working. I worked in suntec before but it wasn't the same as in marina mandarin. In suntec I kept looking at my watch and hoping tt time will pass. In suntec I work purely for money. Now, I work coz I start to enjoy serving but also coz I wan money~

One thing I muz say is working is sure not easy. Having to bear with troublesome customers and being scolded by manager at the same time. Not only that, the body will ache for days, but I still like it! Dotx, I muz be crazy. Nvm.

My babysitter's husband passed away. Someone who watched me grow, dote on me, bear with my wilfulness, taught me how to love chinese.. I dare not say he is closer to me than my mum, but he is still someone whom I love and respect alot, more than I love and respect my dad. It wasn't too long ago when my babysitter passed away and yet now her husband passed away too.

All I'm left with is only memories. Heaven can take them away, but the memories will always remain with me.

Shall not blog abt yesterday already. Starting work later.TAtA

Starting work in less than 24hrs time. Getting abit tensed up already. =X Don't really have much to blog today.

Went to buy stuffs for my work this evening. Had kfc for dinner. Watched sg idols, and it turns out to be taufik. ErM.. well. no comments.

Tt's all for today. TAta.

Above is a picture of the orion constellation which I saw on my way home just now. Nono, that pic is not taken by my lousy hp, of coz my hp can't shoot anything lidat! (Common sense) I juz dl tt pic frm the net.

I see the orion constellation in the sky almost everynite when the sky is clear. It is something that does not change, or at least not yet.

How I wish that life can be like that, without changes too. =) But too bad life is nothing like the stars in the sky.

From a gal who fear working and hoping to lead the life of a tai tai to a gal who look for job at 4 diff places.
From a gal who hides everything to herself to a gal who post everything online.
From a gal who loves movies to watching a movie once every 2 mths? or longer?
From a fussy gal to an "anything" gal.

The list goes on. But it's pointless to list everything out, it only bore readers. Is there anyway to prevent changes? I know I am asking the obvious. If the change is for the better, I don't mind. But some changes are not for the better..

Perhaps it is just my fussy characteristic that makes me write this entry. But sometimes, I really wonder, will my life be better without changes?

A major change I am facing now is that I finally found a job at marina mandarin hotel. Working on thursday, friday, saturday, sunday. Wah.. Isn't that alot???? When was I ever so hardworking? Somemore this is labour work, real labour. A dinner will not be considered a dinner without me getting muscle aches ALL OVER my body. Maybe the money will keep me going on I suppose???

Speaking of working, the guy who trained us today told us to keep smiling, oh wow, how demanding?? Smile! How to smile when you are tensed up? I can nv smile when I am tensed up and working, no reason. Just coz I am scared I suppose. Nvm, I shall try to change myself to suit the job, to make people comfortable. =)

Boring saturday again. Time seems to pass very fast when I am idling. Tried to do some maths yesterday. =) Oh well, one month of holiday is almost over already, so I shld start to boot my brain to do holiday hw yeaH?

I accompanied my mum to take her specs today. Had kfc for breakfast/lunch. The popcorn shake is ok ba, doesn't taste that bad. It is just popcorn chicken with some flavor.

Anyone wanna watch the shutter? It's been showing in cinemas for several weeks and I promised myself to watch it. If I don't watch it I think I might missed this movie just like other horror movies. What is going on? My lifestyle is changing.. Why isn't I watching horror anymore??? Haix.

Finally there's news of employment for me. Marina Mandarin called this afternoon informing Yilin, Rachel and me to go for training next week. =) *hOOrAy*

WEnt out with yilin and rachel to fill in another form again today. Guess where did we go??? No prize for getting it right, we went Ritz Carlton. They asked us to go back and wait for call again. Duhx. But nvm, marina mandarin called us, tt's the impt thing. HaHAx.

Called xiao di to come out and gossip with us as well. We went to orchard mos burger again. It's nice mahx, can drink ice milk tea and eat. =) Anyway, rachel's mum called her to go home earlier so she went off at ard 6pm lidat. The three of us (chen yu, yilin and me) walked ard taka and went kino. But can't find any nice schedule book for me. =( I went to look at the jumbo wishbear at taka basement.. It wun be mine.

Took a train home and watch tv. Tt's abt all for today. I spent money on food today again, tt's bad. I m broke.

ApOlOgEtIc pOsT

As can see from the title, I am here to apologize to all those who view my blog.

Previously, I put songs from IWEBMUSIC on my blog, never did I realise that it was going to invite ad popups to my computer AND my viewers computer. Even my classmates got weird popups when they visit my blog.

So I removed them asap when I knew the harm it brought. Still gotta apologize to those whose computer lag or got popups when they view my blog.

This also goes out to those who put songs from "IWEBMUSIC" in their blog, it really do create popups in other's computer, pls do others a favor by not putting songs frm tt site already. THaNx =)

*yAwNx* sO tiring. Just came back from my class chalet.!!! =) It's so fun! HeHEx..

Several Lyes met up at 11am yesterday morning at bedok giant~ In fact, only darLing, zhen gang, cy and me appeared first. Eggie was gonna b late (she's still in Jurong East while I was at Ajunied at 10.55am) and allan too. So we went into giant to buy some food for ourselves. Inside giant, we found out that our DEAR ER MA is NOT going!!!!! *HooRaY* The lyes were jumping with joy.. except shaky gang maybe. I called Mr Ho and found out the venue of our chalet and that we had to get our own dinner.. Oh well..

So we decided to have a BBQ~ YeP~ So happy. We bought the food for bbq. Initially I didn't want chicken wings as I am still suffering from the chicken wings nightmare frm my last class bbq, but later I decided I can't be selfish ma. I don't wan 2 eat others also must eat. =)

Anyway, we bought some stuffs at giant first before going to KFC for breakfast/lunch. DarlinG went home to get her clothes while we waited for da ge to arrive. We went to the chalet ourselves with the help from allan. HeHe. Allan is so pro~ =) But we missed the shutter bus and we have to walked into Aloha loyang ourselves. It's really very far inside and its noon wor.. Those who went: Yexian pa, yu bo da ge, me, darling wanyi, yilin si mei, zhen gang, chen yu xiao di, allan didi, jodi, sze lang, min joo, luther and loo kit.

Upon reaching the chalet, we marinate the chicken wings first and we left to cycle already. I shared a double bike with eggie and cycled somewhere. But pasir ris park got alot of dead ends haha. Anyway we were cycling in a little maze when shaky gang and yubo were right behind us. They cycled beside us down a slope and we yelled at them to get lost. But.. of coz having the lye spirit of playfulness, they didn't leave. =X So.......... down the slope, we kind of lost control and I fell off the bicycle. Wahaha. I caused eggie to hurt her leg too. So guilty. As a result, our bike was spoilt. Then shaky helped us check the bike and the two of them rode our bike while we took over their bike back to the rental shop. It was a comical scene. Shaky and yb were sooo funny on our bike, coz they cannot speed anymore. They kept telling each other: "Use more strength, faster leh." =D

After the adventurous cycling trip, we went to buy drinks and da ge bought a kite. The guys began flying kite. The rest of us just played on the beach and darling, eggie and me sat on the grass. DarLing called lao pa to come and he finally agreed after much persuasion!! ThAnX DaRLiNG!! On our way back to the chalet, lao pa came as well. We greeted him happily while he was getting down his cab. We went back to set up fire for bbq and loo kit was trying v hard to set up the fire. However, we did not succeed. Mr Ho came and the fire started shortly. BBq-iNg starts~ =) I had a fun time bbq-ing chicken wings. Yes, I am proud of them! (although lao pa said one wasn't too cooked. =X)

Mr Ho's family also arrived already. His daughter is cute~ We couldn't finish the chicken wings and I pulled eggie to pei me go gif away those chicken wings. Luckily we found one family with alot of kids. =) The bbq ended at ard 10pm. All of us went to play pool, but coz it was too ex at $9 per hr, they didn't play anymore. So eggie, darling and me went mac n bought food. After that we met up with laopa, wu di, liu di, qi di and lk. We went cheers and bought instant noodles b4 heading back. The walk back into the chalet wasn't a pleasant one, so I shall not mention anymore.

When we went into the room, we realised we shld start to bathe. The guys suggested that they bathe first coz gals take a longer time. I am ok with it since I am long also. I don't like to bathe that much either. HahAhAhaX.. But no one was moving butt. So I say we gals bathe first since our hair longer and will take longer to dry. So, having long hair, I volunteer to bathe first. It was quite scary in the bathroom. I bathed vvv fast and went out quickly. Although my darling n eggie were just outside the door, I still felt scared. =X

After every1 finish bathing, I started to say a ghost story abt chalet one. Den we played daidEE and uno throughout the night. Shaky wore a bumble bee lookalike shirt and wanted to sleep. After being chased by the rest, he finally got a nice spot by the wall on the bed to sleep. He was the first and only one who slept last night. See la, bumble bee not hardworking anymore.

At ard 5am, darling, lao pa, eggie, cy, allan and me went to the beach to watch sunrise. We waited for an hr and a half but we still didn't see anything. The sky gradually brighten and we realised we cant see the sunrise anymore. Heng we still saw alot of stars and they saw shooting stars. Unfortunately, I missed the shooting stars. HaIx. Did anyone of u made a wish? =)

We made our way back to the chalet and rest on the bed. Cy and darling slept for awhile before we make our way out, out of aloha loyang. =( The day ended so fast. We had our breakfast at mac before we headed home separately. Shaky, eggie and me fell aslp in the train. I took cab home frm kallang mrt as I was really too tired. Home swEEt home~ Finally! I took a shower and slept on my nice nice bed.. sweEt dREaMx =)

Bad day todae. It was raining in the morning. I watched the last episode of "meteor garden" on tv. Nth to do mah. Tt's why.

Went out with mama to toa payoh in the afternoon. She went to make a new pair of specs. Wah, waiting for her to make specs is sure long. I almost grew roots at the optical shop. Hohox. After tt went to orchard with mama to eat. Ate ajisen ramen. I can't think of anything to eat liao. She had mushroom ramen while I ate my usual paiku ramen. Haha.

I took her to see the jumbo carebear at taka basement 2. She only said: "Your bed got alot of bears already la, somemore this is so big." Ok I get her meaning. She just told me not to buy tt's all. But it's really cheap!! It's going at $19.90. And its big!!! *dRooLinG* Maybe I shall pray that mama will give me tt bear for xmas gift. But I know she won't give me lah. She stated it so clearly liaOz.

Had a bad headache the whole day. Spoilt my day and I didn't have mood to shop around. Not only that, while I was taking MRT at orchard station, this THIN gal squeezed right in front of me to enter the train and I was almost stuck at the train door. Oh thanks to her ar, I never realise that being stuck at the door does hurt. Ever since Leonard's bag incident, I believe the most of the lyes noe wad I am talking abt, I tot that as long as there is sth stuck at the door, the train door will re-open. BUT I was totally wrong. I was stuck at the door but the door didn't open, luckily my mama pull me in. If not the dumb and slow me would have been crushed to bones. =) Both my arms have little blue blacks already. Heng heng my arms still got alot of fats, if not I think it will hurt more. Perhaps it is a fortunate thing that I was the one stuck, not the THIN gal in front of me, else she would really have drop dead right at that spot. =) *mAy sHe HaVe A NICE dReAm oF mE hAuNTiNg hEr tOnItE..*

Went hunting for jobs these two days. Filled in a total of 3 forms. Went to Pan Pacific Hotel and Marina Mandarin Hotel to apply for banquet waitress job. Also went to Pacific Coffee Company to apply for job. However, I don't think it is v possible for us to get a job. Eggie asked what if we don't get any job, well, I suppose we can continue to look for job ba. Hopefully someone hires us. I am bored to death at home. Hope to get a job soon else I will rot away at home.

Went orchard to look for schedule book. But can't find the one that I saw last time so I didn't buy anything at all. SianX. Didn't spend money to buy anything today. Really feel like spending already. But I can't find anything I like to buy. WHAT is going on????? Fancy me finding nth to interest me to buy. Wad a joke.

The night view at orchard wasn't really that nice after all. It was just simple stuffs. Hmm, nth much to comment abt today. I am bored.. Perhaps I should juz post a picture of nightview taken from pan pacific hotel. Not using my hp camera though, juz taken from pan pac's website. =)

Lye family outing =)
Yesh, had our lye outing today again wor~ We met at 1pm at orchard mrt station. I tot I was late but when I reach, only my daRLing was there~ HeHEx. Finally I am not latE!! After awhile, Allan reach. Den yilin, den rachel, den yx lao pa. Finally is CY! haha, today i earlier than u leh =P. But the latest is still shaky gang~ Must be shake too much at home tt's y late. HohOx..

I suggested going to eat the fried noodles at taka. They accepted and we went for our lunch. We bought the noodles and sat at stairs to eat. =) Den shaky came. He wore black! same as me, coz we tot others will wear the same also. But too bad we ended up the only ones who wore black. DotX..

After that went to heeren to walk walk. Then I tot of watching "the forgotten". As expected, xiao mei n si mei of coz don't wan to watch. So I had to "beg" and pull si mei hands to make her agree to watch. LoLx. Why I become lidaT? Why I pull her to watch the show? Don't know leh, juz feel like pulling. Perhaps toooo long nv go out liaox lah. tt's y. After that si mei finally agreE!!!!!! HaHA.

WEnt buy tix. Den went take pic. Below is our pic.



Nice right? Lao pa's hair I decorate wan wor!!! The blonde lao pa.!!!!! HeHEHEx. He is going to kill me lia0x. But it looks nice ma. =) See i so good dye hair for lao pa.

When we buy food for movie, darling saw MR DANIEL CHUNG. HAHAHAHAX. Did he go there alone or with gal? OR worst still with guy. WAhhhahahaha. But then when we saw him he was alone. U shld have seen the expression on his face when he saw rachel's expression. Lolx. He gave a disgusted look. =X

The movie was ok ba. Quite weird. But if u all wan 2 watch, go ahead. For horror movie lovers, don't be fooled. IT IS NOT HORROR MOVIE. HahAx.

After movie walk walk abit at far east then go dinner le. Too bad lao pa went home liaox. Had pasta for dinner. Not bad, quite nice. Aiyo, i tired to type le. Tt's abt all for today. Refer to wanyi's blog for more pictures~ =)

Its saturday again. So fast one week had past. =X Spent the whole day at home again. Don't I sound like someone who doesn't have a life anymore? HaHa. How interesting my life is ar.

Found this game which is quite entertaining and can takes up my time as well. =) The picture is below. Very cute right? HeHEx.



Insaneaquarium

But playing the game is tiring, I have to constantly click on the mouse until my fingers are numb. HoHox. My retribution lah, for playing game. =P

Oh ya, I found out that I have been blogging for abt a year already. I started somewhere last yr. It's rather surprising that a year had passed. Although I feel that time do pass quickly, but I didn't realise I had been blogging for so long. Maybe I should wish my blog happy bdae in advance~ LoLx. Coz I most probably will forget when it was first started, so no point also. I might as well wish my blog happy bdae first. HaHa. Getting really v lame already. Due to boredom. Soon u will find me sitting at home on the sofa and talking to myself. =X I seriously think that if I don't step out of the hse soon, I will eventually go crazy. =S Lye familY!! Heard tt? Muz go out soon k. =)

Anywae, I found two old books in my cupboard. (Is that how u spell tt word?) They are titled: "The Teenage Textbook" and "The Teenage Workbook". I actually finished reading those two books in one day. Not much of a surprise though, coz they are not those chim books filled with words tt are smaller than 1mm. Call me a dummy or wadeva u like, but it's really getting v bored that I started reading those two books. If u ask me to read the book that rachel was reading abt M.T, I might die before I finish reading it. Coz the words too small liaox, somemore I don't know who's that. Ok, I admit I am just a country pumpkin. Anyway, M.T. is just short form of that person's name coz I don't know how to spell her name.

Ok le, I shall get back to my game. TaTa.

Life is getting more and more boring for me. There's basically nth to do at home. And I am not doing my holiday homework. Well, I don't wan to care abt those first. I wan to rest first. But then life is boring. Everyday is a routine for me. Wake up, eat, watch tv/vcd, bathe, dinner, watch more tv, online to blog/chat, more tv, slp. Doesn't that sounds more like what a pig would do? Hahax. I tried a new game that day on msn. It's quite fun although I played that years ago. And now I am getting bored of it too.

I watched MVP valentine vcd again. That's because I finished watching "The Champion" vcd. Yep, I know the ending already, so it's quite meaningless to watch it on tv. Anyway, its ending next tuesday. If anyone of u all wan to noe the ending, can ask me. Although the ending contains no surprise. Ya, MVP valentine is a show I kept watching again and again. Don't ask me why, coz I really don't have anything else to watch. I finished watching all the vcds I have at home, though they were not in great amt. Haix.

I realised a similarity between MVP and Champion show. Both show have lead actress which are surrounded by two guys. Obviously the lead actress will only like one guy, but there will always be a third gal party who will do ANYTHING evil and mean in order to get the guy she want. Oh well, how creative and imaginative scriptwriters we have in sg ar.. Fancy coming up with a 95% identical drama serial as compared to those taiwan idol drama serials. Nevertheless, it managed to captivate the attention of some teenagers to watch lah, and that includes me. =X Like I said before, I simply love to watch evil gals doing evil deeds.

I also watched "The Singapore Idol" tonight. Nope, the singing took place yesterday but the results were shown today. I don't really like sg idol. Not that, jus doesn't like the way the show is. When they want to announce the result, they always have ALOT of commercial breaks b4 they do so. That is seriously very irritating. If they wan to announce the results, go ahead. Why bother to stretch a program to 30 min when it can finish in like.. 5-10 mins???? It doesn't attract more viewers, it is only being irritating. Or at least to me. So, I learnt my lesson, I will remember to watch the results in the last 5 mins, not stayed glued to the tv right from the start. =S Daphne got out today. Not much of a surprise. Not that I am critcising her singing or wad, but just that.. Aiya, nvm. Shld not criticise them at all. At least they have the courage! It must have been tough for her anyway. After going into the final 4 and being "kicked out".



Sorry peepz I know I posted that picture before, but I am just trying out my hello thing. I re-dl it again coz it always hang last time. So I am just testing the program.

Wah, suddenly type so much things. Think I gtg liaOx. TaTax.

Finally blogging again. I am so pissed off by my computer. It seems like it got spyware in the whole system!!!!! Wad the. I am so mad now. Being a computer idiot, I can't really do much to save my computer except to stare at those irritating popups which comes up EVERY 5 mins. Wad the hell is going on with my computer? I seriously have an urge to reformat the whole com once again. But this means that all my info will be lost, I certainly do not wish for that to happen. Haix.

Actually, to be more exact, my computer have PORN SITES popping up every 5 mins. And I have to say this once and for all, I DID NOT VISIT PORN SITES. Of coz I know who has been visiting porn sites using my computer. Especially when I woke up this morning and my brother had already woken up long ago. Oh well, how do I know he's been using my computer? Simply coz he didn't switch off my speakers. I remembered switching it off last night before I slp. So now the answer is obvious: HE HAS BEEN SURFING PORN SITES USING MY COMPUTER. Wad a F**KER. If he wan to see porn, he jolly well watch his VCDS, not using my computer and internet. And now my whole computer is on the verge of dying.

I don't wish to express my hatred for my brother openly in my blog, but his behavior is seriously very irritating. Why doesn't he learn to behave himself? After all of wadeva he has done, why doesn't he learn from all those??? Does he really want me to support him in future when my parents are gone? Seriously I can be sure I won't do that. Perhaps I might gif him a sum of money and sever all ties with him. I WILL. I won't be stupid like my mum who keeps giving him money and paying all his fone bills. Nor will I tolerate his nonsense. IF he were my son I would have killed him years ago, if I din, I would have chased him out of the hse with a broom. Yes I know I sound sadistic but he is not someone who deserves sympathy.

Kids are getting out of hand nowadays, especially guys. But both sex are as troublesome. How come I can say so? Oh well, I can show some evidence.

Firstly, primary school gals always have little quarrels with each other. One day A, B and C don't friend D. The next day maybe A, C, D don't fren B. Haha, I really don't remember me being like that when I was young. Now, thinking back, it is really a bliss that I don't have to go thru these wor~ I will go crazy if I have to constantly remember who are my frens and who are not.

Last week my mentee was still happily playing with two other gals, but today, she quietly sat beside me learning how to make paper crane. It somehow makes me feel sad for her. ALthough I know this arrangement won't last long, but I still wished that she can play with her frens. No wonder she was so obedient today and sat beside me the whole 2 hrs. Such a rare sight. But then again, she is quite a snob at times, so its not really surprising that she doesn't have much frens. Ok I know its wrong to criticise her but then I am just stating what I feel.

Now let's move on to the guys. I am not talking abt all the guys. I am only speaking about some of primary school guys. This particular guy, took a lot of chocolate waffles and food stuffs home. Well, the mentoring program doesn't involve him only. How greedy can a kid be? Moreover, while on the bus, he kept disturbing three malay kids on the bus. Even though those three malay kids ignored him, he continued to call out to them. He even said: "hey he say u three are gangsters." OH well, I can be sure he said that himself, not anyone else. I must say he is a smart chap to noe how to push the blame to his fren. I worry for rachel's mentee, hanging out with that chap isn't v good for him. Maybe I am just too paranoid, but I just don't think hanging out with a chap who scold "fuck" is anything good. =X

I really wonder what kids are becoming nowadays.

wEE.. Its another nice and beautiful day again. =) Had chemistry SPA skill A early morning. I woke up late today cos I had insomia last night. I slept only at 4am. DotX. So I overslept. I thought the SPA starts at 8.30am so I took a cab down, but then I realised I wasn't late after all as the thing only start at 9am. DOtX.. Anyway the SPA thing looks ok, but then I think I got my answers wrong again. Oh my, simple things I also don't know. I wonder if I did bring my brain along to school or not.

After SPA, the lye family went over to Mac to have breakfast. Not all, only got me, wy, eggie, shaky gang, chenyu and allan. All of us bought the big breakfast meal. WahahAx.. The lye family spirit sure exist!! =) As usual, we crapped at mac lo. Rachel was reading through The Straits Times newspaper and we were flipping the "life" section. Well, wu di mentioned that he like Jeanette Aw who is currently starring in "the champion". Wy saw that there was a picture of her in the papers so she cut out that pic and gif it to zhengang. He kept that picture and wy cut out a bigger picture of Jeanette Aw. However, the lye members started to play with the picture.. This was the picture that wy cut out.. They look great yeA??? =X



Too bad we managed to cut them out separately and disfigured them totally. One look like living dead dolls and one looks like zombie .. LoLx. Sorry we didn't mean to disfigure them lah, but then we just wanted to play mahx.


This pic is our beloved zhengang wor~ Doesn't he look like a pervert here? Like some rapist lidat hor? ShHHHxxX.. Think he will kill me ar, but he really do look v pervert here.


TaTa. This is my lovely darling wor~ hEhEeEhEe.. Cute hor? =)


Sorry peeps, didn't mean to scare all of u with this pic. =P ChEnYU, feel like killing me? well u can't! hMmMm.. CHEnYu if u ever need this pic do tell me.. I will gladly gif u.. =X

Enough of pictures, Wanyi left at 12.45pm and the rest of us left at 1pm lidat. We wanted to go hunt for job but rachel went home and I wanted to go find schedule book for yr 2005. So I pulled eggie out at bugis while the rest of the guys went for a movie at sOmEwHErE. HaHax. Can't find anything nice leh, there isn't any new design at bugis so I didn't buy anything. After that I went to salon and mess up my hair again. HaHAx. I went to dye hair. Yep, dye again. This time I did highlight as well but it looks very weird. hMMmm.. Nvm, duno how to describe also.

Anyway, there is mentoring tml. YAwNx.. I am feeling tired already. I think I better rest early todae or else I might not have enuf energy to battle with those kids tml. =) tAtax..

It's a beautiful sunday. CraPx. But it didn't rain today so I presume its a beautiful sunday. But the school is spoiling my sunday with a stupid chem SPA tml. Oh well, I am stuck at home trying my best to study the chem notes. But I was watching tv more than I studied the notes. =X

I feel very fed up today. My family is giving me problems. I know very well it is due to my own thoughts that is making me fed up. But being a weakling, I can't help but keep on thinking. Seriously, I think there is a problem with my brains. I want to brainwash myself. Ya, as if I can. So I can't stop myself from thinking. But utimately my mood got better after an afternoon nap. HaHax. Sleeping helps sometimes.

I also don't know wad else to blog already. I didn't blog for the sake of blogging, I just don't know how to express myself. Good luck to lye fmaily for spa tml. Good luck to everyone and myself. =)

Had a real fun day today. =) Met my family at 2pm at somerset mrt. I took bus down and nearly walked in the wrong direction. Hahax, how dumb can I be? =P Anyway, I was late and saw cy, wy, eggie there. Allan haven reach yet and lao pa is going to be late. So we waited for allan and we went for lunch at yoshi. Had the new seafood sth meal. Our dear daddy reach after we finish our food. HaHax. He ate the same meal as well. Oh well, the new meal doesn't taste nice at all. =X

After we finish our food, we planned to go and buy movie tickets, but then we could not get any tickets as all timeslot for princess diaries 2 are sold out. OH well, many other movies are sold out or selling fast too. The time slot that those movies are available are either too late or midnite. =D So we decided to go take neoprints. But we waited for rachel to reach first. hMm.. den we go and take neoprints liao lo. Let me post those pics up wor. These neoprints all scanned by waNyi woR.. Million thanx~ =)



After taking the first neoprint, wy and me didn't have enuf. So we went to take the second time. I think the rest of the lyes are abt to kill us already. Ha, heng they didn't ok. =)



I duno how to name them one by one. But basically there are yexian (lao pa), wanyi, rachel, chen yu, allan, eggie and me. REalised who is missing??? Yes, our beloved zhen gang (wu di). He said he must stay home wor.. how guai? =P Act guai only lah, tt wu di where got so guai? bLEaHx. Anyway, once again our da ge (yu bo) wasn't here with us, wad to do? Cy called yb, but then da ge asked cy to go and die as he is playing game I think. LoLx. Poor cy. Nvm lah, he is used to it already.

After taking pics, we went to eat dinner at mos le. There was again aloot of ppl there. SiaNx. So we had to sit separately lor. After eating and crapping, lao pa wan to go and buy jeans. LoLX. TT fat lao pa, keep growing fat so fast that his jeans can't be worn already. =D Den we made him try a pink polo tee as well along with his jeans. He went to change.. n...



TaTa! There he comes! It was taken the sec he open the door of the changing room. But then my hp foto quality too lousy lah, so can't see his face clearly. But I describe can already mah~ =)



This one is he pose wan lah. Wanyi also got take pics of him. For more info and clearer pictures of daddy wearing a PINK polo tee, pls refer to wanyi's blog. HaHa, its realli v funny at that time.

After daddy bought his jeans, he left to give tuition at some other place. So allan, wy, eggie, rachel, cy n I went to kino to see see. I saw this really nice schedule book that I wanted to buy, but I didn't cos I am not sure if I can face it for a year without feeling bored. Somemore it is abit too cute. Anyway, we also went to read chinese books on horoscope and was having a fun time crapping there. Abt 8pm, we left kino and went to retrieve lao pa's jeans at Giordano. He had to get them altered to a shorter length.. So it means.. *I shall not say ok..* =X HaHa.

Finally our day is over and we went home. Although it was abit early but there was nth we can do already, so we left lor. Anyway, saw wilson at kino there. Other than wilson and this couple frm tjc, I didn't get to see anyone I know le. It seems weird that there isn't many ppl I know that are at town on saturday. Ok lah, I don't make sense I know. HaHa

Ok le, I am tired from all these blogging already. I shall take my leave now and go watch tV!!! HeHEx. OH ya, monday I have chem spa, skill A. Wish me luck! =)

Just finished watching "The Champions" on channel 8. I have grew to like to show already.

WhY? I also don't know. Initially I thought I was attracted to the show as it is related to swimming, another favourite sport of mine. But now I can't be sure of what really attracted me to it. Although the show is about swimming, but there isn't much scenes on swimming, its more about bgr relationships between the several lead actors and actresses. I can't criticise the show as it is a drama serial and not a swimming competition. HaHax.

Actually I quite of like the bgr in the show. WhY? Cos .. simply cos I like to see? Lame reason. But I also don't know how to describe that kind of feeling, I just like to see the relation between Fiona, Toro and Xiao Qiao. It's just so exciting. Xiao Qiao is the third party while Fiona and Toro are supposed to be together. Its funny how come one can do mean things to her own best fren in order to fight for some guy. In most drama serials, there is bound to be a third party who will do anything to break up the "couple". Does such a kind of person really exist? I am not sure, I haven't met one neither do I want to meet one. =X

After staying home for so many days in a row, I think that I am getting old, really old. In two months time I am turning 18. Haix, how does that sound? Yes, I can watch M18 movies and there are alot of things I can do already, but wad does that mean? I also not sure. Wad's the pt of turning 18 when most of ur frenx haven? Haix. I also duno what craps am I talking about. I better stop typing. Bye

Boring day at home. Looks like most of my frenz are going to get a job this holiday. I wished I can go too, but stubborn me just dun wan to go as I dun wan to tie my hair up to be a waitress. Wad logic. Maybe I will go get a job in dec ba, now should start to work on my holiday homework before I had to do last minute work.

I am really getting v bored nowadays. Someone save me. Good luck to rachel if u going for e job tml.. =)

Had pw op today. Went super early to school and waited for the rest of my grp members. Saw the earlier grps and they told me that the lady teacher is v mean. Haix. Anywae, I am the earliest in my grp today. =) I seldom so early wan k, heEx..

PW op went by swiftly. To prepare for it, I borrowed skirt frm Rachel (as miss ho thinks my skirt is not long enuf), I pinned up my hair and looked really stupid. But nvm, for pw I am willing to sacrifice abit. =D Anyway, I didn't noe what to answer for the Question and Answer session. Die. I just stood there and think of the answer coz the Mrs Lam dun accept my answer. Walaox, I thought my answer can answer her question liao, she keep insisting I answer more. Haix, die lo. Where got ppl op can stand there and not respond wan????

Anyway, the whole thing is over already. =) Finally PW is officially over!!!! YeAHz. Who cares abt what grade will I get, after all, I know I got put in effort and that's all I need to noe. (At least for now) Anywae, I just wan to wish those who haven finish op all the best ok. =) It really will be over before u noe it.

After pw, I went out with lookit and sze lang's grp to bugis. I went over to Jean Yip to cut my hair. I was really v tempted to rebond my hair. And so I did. And I cut my hair damn short now. Oh shit lor, I didn't noe that the hairdresser cut my hair so damnnn short. There goes my long hair. SigHx. The new hairstyle sux to the core.!!!!! Y the stupid hairdresser cut so short. I didnt realise it was soooooo short until I reach home and comb my hair in front of the mirror. Haix, it will take a looooooooong time before my hair grows back. I regret cutting it now.

I sat for three full hrs at the salon until my back also ache. Sianx. After I left the salon I went to find eggie they all n pull them eat dinner with me. Paiseh ar, pull u all along. WEnt mos and ate ebi rice. Still as nice. =) I was so hungry tt I 4got to ask for burger without veggie and I almost gobbled my food down. HaHAhAx.. We chatted at mos till 9pm+ den go home. Sze LanG was really v funny, oh no, should be xiao yi is really funny coz she keep telling us how she was like when she was young. Zhen Gang even luff till his face red. HohOx..

Tml will be a slack day at home. Think I also blog finish le. TaTax.

Actually nth much to blog today. Coz I only went back to school to do PW this morning. Wanted to borrow laptop but ended up with nth, coz there's simply too many ppl around liao.

Anyway I watched "The Champion" vcd. Nth better to do so bought the vcd. I wanted to know the ending mah, but then the vcd only got vol 1. The ending is not yet known. Shit lor, I wan to noe the ending. *DiaO* But the show is quite silly lah, although I am only interested to know about the outcome of one couple in the show. My frenx will know what I mean. hAhA.

Tml is the day that marks the end of PW for me. For 20/04 to be exact. :) I really hope that everything will turn out fine. Hopefully the examiner wun ask me difficult question. *PrAyInG hArD* Time for me to end already. TaTa. Good Luck to everyone.

Another boring saturday. Why are my saturdays always so boring? I supposed it is my own problem. Maybe I am really too anti-social. =S

Woke up very early today and had pw meeting with da ge, Rebecca and Loo Kit. They came over at 9+am and we started doing work. We had one OP rehearsal today which went quite ok without much giggling or mistakes. At least with lesser people looking at us we won't feel that stressed.

They had lunch at my hse. After that they went home at 1pm. It ended quite early because Rebecca and Loo Kit both have something on in the afternoon.

The rest of the afternoon was damn boring. I wished I could go out, but then no where to go also. Sianx. So stayed home and watched tv whole day. It rained heavily at 4pm. I was alone at home and it was v scary. It had been ages since I last saw such a heavy storm.

I want to go out I want to go out I want to go out.. I am really very bored at home. Haix. So I shall post the neoprint that san mei scanned. That neoprint was taken two weeks ago I think, it was the Lye family. hEhEx.. But again without lao da.



That's about all for today le. Shall go off now.

Had a great day today. Had school as usual. Lessons ended quite early at around 1.30pm. But due to the extra lesson for Physics, we ended school at 3pm.

After that, I went out with darling, eggie, rachel, cy, yx,allan and zg. We went outram park pei darling buy CD first before heading down to Marina Bay for steamboat buffet. We had an unhappy encounter on the bus. We were talking and laughing loudly on the bus and some students or rather barbarians from QUEENSTOWN SECONDARY SCHOOL shouted out: "It is so noisy that I have to whisper." WTF. Does whisper goes along well with noisy? Perhaps their English standard too high liao lah, I don't understand. But as usual, TJcians just kept quiet and they got their wish. Choosing to keep quiet doesn't mean we admit defeat, it is just that human beings don't fight with BARBARIANS. What's the point of fighting with those barbarians whose L1R5 for O Level will turn out to be thrice as high as ours? Oh no, I should not say that. They might be a clever bunch of barbarians from Queenstown Secondary, but then again, when did that school produce bright students? =X Maybe I should not be so mean ok, but it just feels great to know that no matter how stupid I am, there are people out there worst than me.

Let's leave the unhappy stuff aside. We went to eat. The food was really not bad. We even saw fireworks there wor. So nice, but my hp can't take nice pictures lah, so no choice lor. Anyway, the gang of 8 became a big family with Yexian as the daddy. The eldest son is Yu Bo (suggested by Chen Yu), the second sis is me, third sis is darling WanYi, fourth sis is Eggie YiLin, fifth brother is shaky gang Zhen Gang, sixth brother is Chen Yu, seventh brother is Allan and last but not least, the youngest child is Rachel. WeE.. how great right? Too bad yubo wasn't around to crap with us. Haha. I ate a damn lot of food and my skirt was on the verge of bursting already. I swear I am going to buy a skirt which is of a bigger size. =)

After we finished, we went to Esplanade there to walk walk. We saw this very nice place inside esplanade so we decided to take pictures there. So let me now post the nice nice pictureS~ =)


It's the girls!!! From left to right: Rachel, YiLin, me, WanYi. Pic taken by I duno who with wAnYi's hp, her hp take pic v nice hor, but that person shaky hands that's why it turned out lidat.


The gALs aGain~ This pic is supposed to be taken by yexian but my hp really can't take nice pics. Haix.


Yes, finally our family of 8!!! =) ChEeRz.. Row 1 (left to right): YiLin, Rachel, WanYi, me. Row 2 (left to right): Allan, Chen Yu, Yexian, Zhen Gang. My family members are sure cute!!!! I love my family wor~

Reached home at around 10pm. Very tired already. Shall go and sleep now. Tml morning still got pw meeting.

Today started out quite bad. Rainy morning. I hate rainy days, coz I always have a bad mood on rainy days. Any single thing will agitate me. Plus I think there really is communication breakdown between me and my classmates. Ok, I shall leave that matter aside.

I intended to blog something that I want to complain, but I remembered that this blogger thing is not a private thing, it's open to others, so I think I should keep them to myself.

Mentor this afternoon. Quite of fun as we don't need to teach. The kiddos' exams are over, so they are happily playing as well. Played badminton with two girls, they were very hyper, so energentic and all that. After that played ice and water with rachel n eggie's mentees and some other kids. Can say quite fun but then its really tiring.

I think I should go and do my part for games tml already before I get suaned by my group members. tAtA. I am sleeping early today.

Currently doing PW oral presentation slides. Just changing some minor things and add some stuffs to my speech. =) Hope it will turn out ok tml wor. HeHex.

Today's topic is on Miss Rita Wong. I went the NKF concert featuring Fan Yi Chen. Oh well, I didn't really wanted to go, I just don't feel like staying at home. So there I was. The concert was ok overall. What's funny was that the DJ Yang Jun Wei kept calling Miss Rita is such a sWeeEeeeeeeet way that makes u feel like puking. =X Not only that, he made one of the members from "liu jia yue tuan" to declare that he will "kill" miss wong. Well, as in he will be able to seduce her. Did I get my words correct? I doubt so, cos I have problem with expressing myself. =S HaIx. Not that I want to complain that my English is lousy, but that's what everyone is saying.. It makes me feel sad though.

Anyway, I guess Miss Rita must have felt sooooooooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeet that she might not be able to sleep well tonight. She might be smiling to herself now for all I know. HeHeHEx.. =D Perhaps no one had declare love for her for a long time. Although I also don't have, but the main point is there. Miss Rita is such a nuisance that no one likes her. No wonder Miss Rita wore such nice clothes today huh. White top plus pink pants, doesn't that reminds u of those little girl girls strolling in Orchard Road? =X Fancy a rolling cheeseball trying to act young. Hai, time waits for no one ok, rita. To think that I even saw her.... LACE today. Ok this is getting a little disgusting, but RIta wore a white top that is abit translucent and I saw the lace of her bra today. Sorry, I didn't want to see, but you were standing right in front of me and I just can't help it.

Talking about declaring love, I suppose I am in no position to criticise Rita, cos I myself don't have. So? You know, I have heard this from alot of my frens that we should make our feelings known to others so that we won't regret. But sometimes, do we regret more by declaring our love or the other way round? How confusing. I got this quote from a fren's blog: "The greatest distance is not defined by space. Its when you are in front of the person you like/luv, but he doesn't know you like/luv him." I believe most of you all would have read that somewhere, but sometimes I think that rejection is even more hurting that the other person not knowing.

Yes I know life isn't all about such relationship matters, but I just thought of it all of a sudden and wanted to type something about it. I just read cY's blog. IF only life is so simple like what he described. I wanted to lead a simple life too. But no matter how hard I try, circumstances around me is constantly reminding me that I am not living in a simple environment. I do want to keep all my thoughts away, I wished I can stop thinking about unhappy stuffs too. I wished I can disappear from the surface of the earth and all those unhappy things will go away. But why can't I do that? I suppose it is my brain that is controlling. Please, cY, please help me. I want to keep my life simple. I want to live in a fairytale.

Just some news to update abt. My dad is sleeping downstairs for the third night already. Ha. Wad a joke. Last time he used to go downstairs during nighttime (god noes wad was he doing there), but now he sleeps there. Maybe other will think it's me and mum who drove him out of the house. Well, even my brother thinks that, so who wouldn't? But I can swear it wasn't us, it's just his own attitude ok.

Two nights ago I was rushing to save my PW report in diskettes, and he wanted to sleep. He sleeps in the living room anyway. My com is there also. So he asked me to get lost. Of cos I can't, so I just told him that I need to do work. He insisted that exams are over and there are no more work now, so I should get lost and let him sleep. Given my character, I refused. I could have told him that I am finishing and asked him to wait, but I didn't. Who asked him to be like that?

So he left home and I heard from my mum he spent the night sleeping at the opposite block's study corner. Well, whatever. It is not that I am cold-blooded, but I am just too tired to care anymore. He is not a man at all. Perhaps physically he is a man and financially he is supporting my studies, but he really isn't a good dad. For the past months, he didn't speak to my mum neither did he speak much to me. He only constantly asked me the hanyu pinyin of chinese words cos he wanted to send sms to fren. Who noes who is that fren? Perhaps it's some bitch out there who is shameless. I am harsh with words, but I hate third parties. I know my mum isn't treating him well, but it is still wrong to break up ppl's family. Ok, I shall not assume there is a bitch out there, perhaps I am just thinking too much.

DAD told me that I should get a scholarship next year as he won't be able to support me to study anymore. Did he even care about me in the first place? I faced the danger of not promoting yet he still expects me to get a scholarship? Did he ever realised that I didn't get good grades?

I know life is full of ups and downs and this is just part of life. But sometimes I wished I can run away from home and never return. No one at home is appreciating me. It would never make any difference whether am I at home or not. I am better off dead. I stayed home the whole day but mum just scolded me lazy and not doing any housework. I have been lidat for 17 YEARS. I don't give a damn abt hsework for all my life. She nv grumble much but why today? When I go out too much she nags, when I don't she nags too. Is there a need for me to be around? NO.

Without me, mum can have one person less to spend her money. Without me, mum can throw away all my books and notes and keep the hse neat and tidy. Without me, dad can save a large sum of money as no one will be there to take allowance. Without me, dad can kill mum when she nags. Without me, kor can spend mum's money all by himself. Without me, kor can watch RA vcds late at night without being found out. Without me, there will be one person less to suan cy. Without me, Mr Ho can worry less about his students not doing well. Without me, frenx need not be bothered. Without me, the world may not have a big difference but it will be a better place for some.

Yes, my family revolves ard money. It always is at home. For all my life.

Today is another boring saturday. I slacked at home for the whole day without doing anything. Planned to go for a swim in the evening but the weather turned bad and I overslept. Ha.

Why is life so contradicting? During exam period I kept wanting to go out and do things I like or blog, but when exams are over I just stayed home and do nth? Neither do I feel like blogging anymore. Haix. Life is juz so weird.

Hai why must life be like that? I am going off le. TaTax.

Finally my group handed in the PW report today. The feeling is great coz it symbolises that PW is coming to an end soon. *PhEw* Had a short day in school today. Attended the talk abt SMU early morning. It was quite interesting and I found out that SMU offer courses on psycology. =)

Well, after school I went out with zhengang, allan, wanyi, eggie, rachel, chenyu n yexian. We went to bugis and pei allan eat lunch. I bought a yam pie from old chang kee and also tako pachi + mango tea. HeHex. After that we went walk walk. I suggested taking neoprint coz there are 8 of us there so it will be easier to split the bill. HaHax. It was so fun, we kept laughing loudly while taking pics. But some of the neoprints dun contain all of us coz it is quite crowded with 8 of us inside.

After that we went shop around in bugis. Wy bought a new schedule book for year 2005 that is disney princess. (Not sure if I got the name correct not) I wanted to buy too, but I didn't coz I am not used to using cute stuffs and that I wanted to get a schedule book which I can refill. Dun ask me why, I just like to do that. HohOx. Tried my best not to spend extra money today coz I am quite broke already plus I don't wish to overspend.

Wy went off earlier and the rest of us went for dinner. I was damn tired by then already. Rachel, zg and me didn't eat dinner outside cos my mum is cooking and I really don't wish to withdraw anymore money from my bank. Thus the greedy me watched the rest eat. =S

Reached home at ard 7pm. So tired lor. Walk until my legs ache!!! Haix. Den watch tv and slack, I just love the feeling of being in holidays. Next week will be the last week. I am really looking forward to it.. But when holidays come, I may not look forward to it again.. Stupid me..

I have to drop a subject. Though this is not really what I wanted, but I suppose it is just as well. Since the sch force me to drop, I can focus on 3 subjects. I am praying hard for the rest of my subjects ok. I am really praying hard. I intend to drop LEP already. Not that I can't pass, but I just duno what course can I enter in future with LEP.

I am not really in a mood to blog today. Just felt very tired, tired of thinking what pdp to join. I dun wish to join something that is v slack, neither do I want to join something that is too stressful and exciting. HahAx. Think I might end up in CPC. =X I also duno what else I can join, just find something that got my classmates in so that I can get in easier and then at least got company. Hope eggie also make up her mind abt what she is joining.

Going off le. Bye

Today is the day when I die. Why? I got back all my results. Woke up damn early today, trying my best to drag time cos I don't feel like reaching school so early. Took a later bus but I was still on time.

First paper I got back was Maths, nth much to anticipate coz I already knew my results. Den I got back physics, nth much to guess coz I knew my results last week too. I failed physics. Well, wad to do? My physics just sux to the core. I can't even get an AO pass.. Am I really that stupid? Haix. In between also got some joke that happened to eggie and me. Ask me if u want to know, it is definitely unsafe to blog online. Once CheNYu knows it, he will laugh for a month.

After the physics paper is Chemistry paper and luckily I got an AO pass. I din expected much for Chem as I know I wun score well. But Rita walked towards me and say: "Hoi Qing (yes that's her accent), u didn't do well for chem." OH shit lah, as if I duno lidat. So I just sat there and all my suppressed emotions burst out. I cried out finally. After sooo many setbacks I finally cried. I hate Rita. There is no need for her to remind me that I failed, I know myself better than her. THANK YOU RITA.

After that got back GP paper. I was yelling with joy when I saw my compre paper got 26 and I passed my compo too!!!! I got 23. YeAh. Finally I pass my GP. =) LEP was not too bad also, at least I got my A level pass. If nth goes wrong I might get my 1 'A' pass 2 'AO' pass.

After sch went out with my classmates to eat and walk ard. This time it is without yx. Nobody knew what happened to him, he said he was going home but no one followed. It really wasn't the right time for us to say anything also. Hai. I really hope he will not worry so much. Take a step at a time ba. The world is not coming to an end. Haix.. Why must life always be lidat.

Think I shld go and bathe liaox.. Late le, still muz do pw. tAta.

Just some thoughts to blog abt. Why must there be such a thing call promise in this world? I heard it from someone before, 'promises are meant to be broken'. But if promises are meant to be broken, then why is there a need to make a promise? As expected, I am going to blog about my own feelings.

Promise just reveal the most ugly side of human. Promises are beautiful when they are made, I don't deny that promises can brighten up my day too. But underneath that promise, not all owners are true about them. Some just make promises to achieve motives or just "make others happy". But when the truth is out, these owners are nth but liars.

Then why do people still believe in promises? I look at it that human beings are exposed to harsh reality everyday that they would rather escape away from it sometimes. Hence some became victims of "sweet promises". Ok maybe I am too pessimistic and always paint an ugly picture of everything, but I was a stupid victim of promise before, so to me promises aren't supposed to be taken serious. Neither will I make promises that I can't be sure I can achieve.

Perhaps to me life is a real ugly thing. I am not trying to sound like I need other people's sympathy. But after being exposed to ugly reality for so many years, one can't help but feel cold towards certain things in life. Take for example the three brats yesterday, I was exposed to kids from young. I loved playing with younger kids, I love to act like a big sis to them coz I was the youngest at home. I can shower them with care and concern, I never ever flared up at younger kids before when I was young. But they might not think you are being noble, some just think they have the right to bully the good people. I was hit and bitten by young kids even though I did nothing wrong. Some may say they are just kids and are not sensible enough, but it just show their character. In primary school I treated two girls as my best pals and was self-less about anything, but I ended up being stabbed behind my back and was left deeply hurt.

Sometimes I wonder why is there a change in my attitude and behaviour over the years as I grew up. Is it due to my environment? Or is it due to my mentality? I seldom trust people nowadays, perhaps it was partly due to those environment I grew up in that caused my behavior. Everybody around me had been breaking promises, even those dearest to me. So, who can I believe?

Sometimes I yearn for someone who will just lie to me forever and ever and never let me know the truth. But then again, is there ever such a person that exist?

Hoho, the pic above showed yexian dancing mass dance during the open house yesterday. This pic was not taken by me, that is why the angle and picture is so nicely taken.. Hohox... If yx see this he will definitely kill me. =X It just goes to show that one should never offend a woman. =X

Anyway, yesterday was my sch's open hse. I was asked to help out at the LEP booth as that is my only cca now. But we had games earlier in the morning. We played 1.5hrs of captain's ball. I luv cap ball wor.. =) We played with our own classmates and we were divided into two teams. Well, the other team is really stronger so they won utimately. I tried my best to defend those balls of theirs already. But we still lost. Haix. Somemore Loo Kit knocked right at my stomach... Arhx.. it hurts.. Luckily it doesn't hurt now already. It really hurt alot at that time I thought I might start vomitting food out. =S

After the game we slacked for awhile before going for lunch with yx, rachel, eggie and allan. We saw alot of teachers at the hawker centre, we were saying they might be discussing our results.. =X After that we went back school and the open hse start to have ppl ard. So eggie and I walked ard in search for a new cca as well as see what ccas are there. We walked and walked until my legs hurt now. =D We also teased yx coz he sae he wan to give phamplets out to Cedarians. So whenever we saw cedar gals ard, we ask him to go. Den when he was talking to some cchs(m) gals, we walked pass him and shouted : "aiyo.. flirting ar.." It was so damn funny. He was so embasrrassed by us.

Eggie and I went to do lep duty at 3.30pm. I only sat at the booth for awhile and I was pulled to guard door for LT2 coz there's a LEP talk inside. -.-''' Anyway, Rachel's mentee brought along 2 other guys to our open hse. Fancy three p4 guys at JC open hse. -.- But they are really vvvvvvv cocky and I feel like slapping them damn hard on their face. I admit I do not love kids alot. But when I was young I DO NOT feel irritated by my babysitter's kids. They (regardless of sex) are just angels and not cocky brats like rachel's mentee. Coz I also dun like kids that are too snobbish, while those 3 brats think they own the world. They keep suanning rachel n yx n eggie and commanding them ard. Walao, if they were my kids I would have smack them damn hard on their face liaox. Who do they think they arE? Rachel yx and eggie were being nice to bring them ard when it wasn't their duty to. So they should at least try to shoot them lesser? Oh well, kids nowadays are just getting out of hand. They only know how to bully those who are nice. *siGhX*

After the open hse den I went home already, actually wanted to go for dinner but then my darling, yx, rachel, zg all went home already. So left allan, eggie and me so I say we dun go lor. After all left only 3 ppl diff to gossip. Reached home and came online and slept at 12+am. I am tired already. Perhaps sleeping early is good as I do not have much quiet time to myself to let my thoughts run wild. Sometimes I am really too tired to even think. I already sorted out all my thoughts during my study break, so there's nth left for me to think also.

Woke up early today waiting for "meteor garden" repeat telecast on tv. Kenneth smsed me at 4+pm and asked if I want to go for a movie, actually I wanted to go wan, but then I m still aching all over my body so I decided to give up the idea. Anyway, it's quite a boring saturday filled with tv and food only. That's about all le. Gtg, taTax..

Heard from Leonard that one of my primary sch mate passed away last friday. He sent me the news article url. I dun think it is nice for me to comment on who that person is here. But I tink it is quite a pity, that person's granddad also passed away two days after that. Haix..

Life really is so fragile, anything can happen to anyone at anytime. It saddens me to read about that news, he was after all one my seating partners in class last time. I still remembered we can crap and joke in class all the time. But now, he is gone. It's even more sad to read that his granddad passed away after him. It so happened my mum's fren's daughter knew him. She said he died coz his chest was hit by the soccer ball. Oh my...

Went school today and did nth also. I really wonder why those teachers dun let us go for break. They made us go back to school but they din conduct any class. Shit lo.. I rather stay at home and sleep. DotX.. The VP said that they are going to change the timetable AGAIN~ They are going to shift the flag-raising time to 7.40am. Hmm, it doesn't seem to affect me much. Coz even that 10 mins more of sleep doesn't matter to me. I would rather sit the earlier bus coz its not as crowded and I will get to sleep on bus. =X

Went for balloon sculpting class today. Ok lah, quite fun. But it scared me when rachel's balloon burst in front of my face. Think it scared her even more. =S I managed to learn how to make dog, mouse, teddybear, sword. HeHex. Really glad I learnt how to make the teddybear. I tried three times before I make something that looks like a bear. =) It was quite fun but I am still afraid of the balloons.

After that went to LJS for lunch with eggie, wy, rachel, cy, zg, yx. Had the triple taste combo. Crapped for quite awhile before leaving at 3.30pm and head for temasek primary school for mentoring program. Saw my mentee. Gave her one of the balloon I made. She rejected it. Oh well, wad to expect from a rich little kiddo? =) Gave her a kitkat coz I promised her one last time. She gladly accept it =). Taught her some work and then we went on to a game book. Around 5+pm, we went basketball court and play with others.. She went off at 5.45pm coz she got a bdae party tonight. Not bad ar.. got party. HaHax.

After the mentoring program, took bus home as usual. Then ate dinner, den ate fruit. Nth much also le. Then watch tv and come and blog. I am a little tired already. Think I should go and sleep le wor.. TaTax..

Din blog yesterday coz there's nth to blog abt. I just stayed home and slack. Coz no money liao cannot go out and watch movie with the rest of my classmates.. *sIGhx* Went for a jog at nite coz I really can't stand the boredom at home, furthermore I need a little time alone to sort out my thoughts too. When one is feeling down, perhaps a little exercise can help one to cheer up. (I suppose)

Woke up damn early todae and went school as usual. Things went on as usual, only that the number of students decreased alot wor. Hahax. After flag-raising, had some pw talk. So bored. I was chatting with eggie all the while, even though we sat right in the middle near the front. =D

Skipped the 10am talk and went for lunch with wy, eggie, rachel, cy, yx, zg. Ya.. think that's abt all. Went yoshinoya to eat. Wah.. Long long time since I eat at yoshi. Nice ba, the food is still nice. =) By the way, the ice mango tea is nice!!!! LoLx.

Rushed back school for the clean up thing at noon. We just clean up the canteen while I volunteer to mop the floor. Yes, I wanted to mop the floor. A miracle huh, fancy seeing me wanting to volunteer myself for chore. Nvm lah, I just like to mop floor, coz fun mah. In the end Luther and I had a hard time trying to mop the floor coz ppl juz keep walking ard without even bothering that we had just mopped the place. So when yx came to ask me if I want to exchange with him, of coz I agreed!!! =D Wahahx. After awhile we just slacked.

Saw Mr Ho at the canteen, telling some of my classmates their maths marks. Of coz I wanted to know. No matter how scared I was, it is still better to know my results first before taking the real paper back on monday. (In case I might break down into tears in school or even die of heart failure.) So I asked, I just passed only. But the overall mark plus JCT results I might not pass at all.. Haix.. Accept my fate lor. Wat to do? Exam also over le, crying won't bring back my marks, but I still can't help feeling upset.

After that went bugis with eggie and rachel. Shopped ard. Den went mos burger for milk shake. I don't know if it is due to the fact that I lost contact with the outside world for too long or wat, but I just felt that everything tastes sooooo nice.. Hahahx.. Sounds like some mountain turtle. =X The next thing I am aiming is of coz .... my favourite AJiSeN rAmEN!!! But then.. sighX.. some things changed and I doubt I will get a chance to anyway. Ok le lah, that's all for today. Gtg liaox. Type quite a long entry le. Hahax. May I wake up from my nightmare.

I really feel like crying. Yes, I know exams are finally over but I can't help feeling upset over it. This time I am going to flunk EVERYTHING. Yes, everything. Each and every subject. It seems like I am going back to history to sec4 prelims when I studied like mad but get no results.

This morning had my last paper and as usual I also duno wad I was doing. This is terrible. Real terrible. None of my subjects can make it. Shit! After the paper went out with my classmates to go out eat sakae sushi and walk ard town. Finally after weeks of mugging I got the chance to go town again. But this time I dun feel as cheerful as last time. Saw many people I knew at orchard. Reached home at ard 8pm.

Had a fun day outside. Thx to all my friends. But once I reached home the feeling of fear rushed up to me again. I am really v afraid of failing promos, I duno wad will I do after I fail. On the outside I can appear that nth had happened, but deep inside me I also duno wad am I thinking. When I log online and saw pooinE's tag msg, I juz feel like crying already. Thx for keeping my accompanying today to all my classmates. Perhaps I might leave the class next yr, either retained or kicked out of school. I really duno wad to do, life become so scary. Even 'o' levels aren't as frightening as now. How I wish I can just fall into deep sleep and never wake up again... Can someone tell me that everything's gonna be alright??? Will everything become alright after a good night sleep???

Woke up especially early today. At around 9am. Wahaha.. Seldom do I wake up so early on a saturday. Maybe partly due to the fact that I slept early last nite. I slept at 11pm after saying goodbye to my classmates online and my DaRLing~ =P

Didn't study anything for the whole day. Yes I know I still have chemistry exam on monday. I just can't help but feel like to give up for the exam. Coz I know the outcome of the exam already. So even if I try to study for it, I won't be able to pass also. That is why I dun really feel like studying.

Can someone please tell me that everything will turn out fine? Can someone please tell me this is only a nightmare.. And everything will be ok once I wake up from this nightmare.. I really cannot stand it.. I am really too stupid already. No matter how much I study, I can only stare at the exam paper when I sit for it. Haix. Am I really an idiot? Everything also not going on fine. I just feel like giving up, I no longer have the energy to face one more paper... I can only pray that I can finish my last paper without breaking down.

I think I should not continue blogging anymore. Bye

After taking 4 papers since wednesday, my brain is really really drained. I am not too sure if I have the energy to study for monday's paper or to just sit there to take the paper. =S

Still got chemistry paper on monday. The past papers are really sucky? Or maybe I tink I am too stupid already. Maths paper was initially quite ok, but as I continued doing, I really duno how to do. Physics was even more worse. I practically just stared at the paper. I skipped those questions that I duno how to answer, den in the end I realised I didn't really finish any question. =S GP paper was like.. my brain is numb. Its really a weird feeling, I've nv felt this way before, my brain just numb there and refuse to listen to my command. Well.. Wad's wrong?

Today had LEP paper. I really did studied for it!!!!! I studied very hard, I even woke up at 7am today just to study. I nv did all these before, but when I was sitting for the paper, I just can't seem to remember anything that I studied. After my paper, I went out wif my classmates to eat LJS. On the way to ljs, Rachel fell and hurt her knee. Aiyo, she still nv tell us and keep quiet when there's so much blood oozing out from her wound. Is that the word? I am not sure also. She still insisted that she can jump around.. DotX.. Had a fun time at ljs laughing.

Took bus 26 home as usual. My brain must be functioning on its own without listening to my command again. Is crying more tiring or when your nose is sour but you just can't cry? Haix. It depends on the individual I suppose. Life in jc is really too difficult for me. I really wonder if I should just leave. Perhaps it was a wrong choice in the first place. I am very tired already. I just have one more paper to go, I must not give up. I must study for it, I must not be a weakling at this point of time. Life will still go on. Hopefully I can make up my mind where to go if I can't pass my promos.

Shall blog when I am feeling better.

What a time to come and blog. =S Intended to go back sch for maths lesson, but then I duno who's going and who's not, so I last min decide not to go. I went for morning walk with my mama plus breakfast. =) Had some green noodles this morning and went NTUC to stock up some stuff for mugging at home. Bought a box of chocolate drink and yogurt and some sweets. hEhEx.

Den my mama trying to get info out from me. She asked abt who's my "GUYFRIEND" now. Wahahax.. I told her no one, she gave me that weird look. After asking from her, I realise that she found out abt my guyfriend coz she saw the neoprint we took. But to my horror, who she saw was Liang Yuan, not Wee Kim. Hohox. I kept thinking that the neoprint she saw was the one I took with weekim. =X She keep asking if that guy is older than me not, I told her not, only taller than me. Little did I know I told her abt weekim indirectly. =X *ShitX* I must be blur from the lack of sleep. DuMb me!!!!! Obviously she continued asking lor, nth much. I told her why we broke up. She also nv say anything much. I even leaked out by mistake that his whole family saw me before, little did I realise that I was telling her I WENT HIS HSE BEFORE!!! Arhx.. luckily she did not ask anymore, else I might have leaked every single little thing out to her.

What took me by surprise was that she did not mind me going to his hse and that she did not mind talking abt all these stuffs with me. I knew she is more open-minded, but then I wasn't so sure that I can share so much things with her. =X Mum is always so weird, she is v nice to me lately, maybe due to the reason that exam is drawing near and she sees that I am always studying. =) I luV my mAmA.. HaHax, sounds so mushy but I really luv her. Despite the fact I do hate her when she nag and scold me.

I think I should end here le.. I should go study and not disappoint mama already.. =)

Today is sunday, and I have 3 more days to promos. Oh my god!! I really don't have enough time to study liaox. =( Why am I so slow? Somemore when I study I don't even know whether did I memorise all those info in my brain?? My brain is so saturated now, just like Rita Wong wan us to say. But that doesn't mean that I studied alot of info, but its juz that my brain is too small. =S LoLx.

Sometimes alone in the night, I will keep thinking of stuffs. I know it isn't the right time to let my thoughts run wild, but I can't control myself also. I've come to realise one point I like to take note of: It isn't the truth that hurts us but our thoughts that hurt us. Most of the time truth isn't as hurting as we thought it will be, but it's juz that we keep thinking abt it and it will end up hurting us. I don't know abt other ppl, but at least it is like that for me.

I found out that I have been talking a lot of weird things in my blog recently, perhaps I am really very tired from studying that's why I always come online to blog abt all these strange things. =D Hahax.

Ok le lahx, I think I should end my blog entry here, taTax.. Maybe blog more tml or later today. =) *oFf To StUdY*

Something to add on to the previous entry. I am trying to be nice to everyone. But it doesn't seem to be easy, coz I get IGNORED. What the.. Perhaps its juz retribution, but I think I should change my resolution. That is to treat those who are worth it nice, and IGNORE those who are seriously not worth my effort.

This part is specially dedicated to someone(who may or may not read this): Dun think I apologize then u tink u r some big shot and can ignore me or show ur hostility towards me. Thank you for letting me learn the lesson of not letting myself be a fool. I AM NOT TRYING TO SAVE WHATEVER FRIENDSHIP WE HAD, I JUZ WANTED TO BE NICE AND CONTROL MY TEMPER. One more impt thing: DUN comment that I am childish after reading this part. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

Before I log in, I got tons of things I want to blog abt. But once I log into blogger, I can't remember what I wanted to type. I stayed home these 2 days, trying my very best to mug. But things don't seem to be very successful.

I m still lagging behind alot of stuffs.. I don't understand why am I so slow in studying. I seriously need to concentrate !!!!! I muz reduce the no of hrs of slp I get each day so that I can haf more time to study. There's less than a week to promos and I haven finish studying half or even 30% of my promos syllabus. Haix..

Blog abt sth else. Sometimes I wonder what is my problem. I haf a bad-temper and I alwaes tend to blame others whenever sth goes wrong. WHEN AM I GOING TO CHANGE? I must learn to control my temper, after so many days of staying at home, I've come to realise that happiness in life isn't totally abt me being happy. It is learning to give in to others and make others happy. I will definitely learn to put myself in other ppl's shoes n control my temper... *HoPe I cAn sUccEeD*