I am a superwoman! Lol, just meant to be a joke only. =X
Had difficulty sleeping last nite. Went to bed at 1am, but flipped over and over again till 5+am before I fell aslp for awhile. Mum woke me up at 5.50am. OMG, I actually only slept for 30mins? Hmm, not that I don't want to slp, but its juz that I can't slp. I tried my best, nth works.
I used to sleep very soundly after a cry. But last nite this method failed too. What's wrong? Perhaps I am just way too stressed about JCT. To many others, JCT is a threat to their 4th subject. To me, its a threat to my position in tj. *Sigh*
The papers today were...difficult. Chemistry was like shit! Hmm, I don't know lah, I just think the chemistry paper requires a lot of thinking and there isn't enough time, plus I am already super slow. =X
Maths should be better than chemistry *Hope so* But as usual forgot important concepts just before the exam!!!! OMG, what am I doing???? Don't know how did I study de, I even practise some questions de!!!!! Haix, wad's over are over. What else can I say ??
It's a wonder how I was able to sustain till now. I am feeling so super tired now, luckily I didn't fall aslp during my papers~ =) Maybe that's one good thing that happened. Mummy says I should learn to relax, else next time how to study for A lvls? Hmm, who knows if I will still have my A lvls? =X
Kor managed to make mummy cry for him again. His hp bill was $1000+++. What the hell! He called his gf in vietnam and damn it, the bill was $100+++ per day! And then, just a shortly of 8 days, his hp bills shot up that HIGH. If he doesn't have that kind of money, don't pretend he is some rich kid. And what's worse was that the hp line is registered under mummy's name!!! That means mummy have to pay for him? How much more money does he want my mum to pay for his hp bills?
This isn't the first time his hp bill is so high. But this time, it was only 8 days.
I am really so so so tired now. Physically and emotionally. I just hope to sleep and never wake up again! That way, I am no longer a burden of mummy, that way, they don't need to waste money on my education. It's worse when I don't have the brains for studying, their money just go into the drain.. Sorry daddy and mummy.
I hope someone will tell me things will be alright.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Finally the holidays are over. Luckily nothing bad happened during the holidays~
The sad day was over, but I just don't have the drive to study today anymore. What's the point of studying when the result is still the same? =X Hmm, no matter what, I should still study yea? Yeah, later go mug harder.
Was chatting on msn with victor ytd, he told me he saw me when I was watching "A Lot Like Love" with poonie. Hahaz, if I didn't rmb wrongly, I was still telling poonie it would be weird if I meet my ex with his new gf if I am with a guy outside. Coz tt time was watching romantic comedy, so all around poonie and I were mostly couples. =X Thanks to my jinx mouth, it really happened. Somemore he was only a seat away from me.. =X But I really didn't see him, so not much diff anyway. I must have been blind liao!
Did I mention that Eric wanted to borrow money from me? Haha, do I look like some rich kid? Dotz..
Quite tired to continue blogging le, maybe I shall go watch tv!
The sad day was over, but I just don't have the drive to study today anymore. What's the point of studying when the result is still the same? =X Hmm, no matter what, I should still study yea? Yeah, later go mug harder.
Was chatting on msn with victor ytd, he told me he saw me when I was watching "A Lot Like Love" with poonie. Hahaz, if I didn't rmb wrongly, I was still telling poonie it would be weird if I meet my ex with his new gf if I am with a guy outside. Coz tt time was watching romantic comedy, so all around poonie and I were mostly couples. =X Thanks to my jinx mouth, it really happened. Somemore he was only a seat away from me.. =X But I really didn't see him, so not much diff anyway. I must have been blind liao!
Did I mention that Eric wanted to borrow money from me? Haha, do I look like some rich kid? Dotz..
Quite tired to continue blogging le, maybe I shall go watch tv!
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Updates!!!
Hahahz, thanx ah pooN!!! =) I wonder how can I ever thank u enough~ =)
Finally I got my wish! I watched "A Lot Like Love"!!!!!!!!! *sCreamz* Its very very nice.. At least both of us think its nice!!!
It's releasing nxt thursday, 23rd June. But this weekend there's preview of the movie. So, poor poonie darling got pulled to the cinema by mEeee.... LoL.. *EviL Laugh*
Was checking the timing for this movie last night when we found out the cinema was half-filled. !!! Oh man, weird huh. Why is it so fast~ So booked the tix online lor. Den GV website decided to play with me and hung! DiaOz.. But managed to get the tix after all.
Met up with poonie this noon and went to buy thing liaOZ... =)
After that we juz went collect tickets. This time I rmb to copy down my confirmation no. for the tix. =X Bought nachos and went in le..
The movie was v funny. Though the ending was a happy ending, but it made me real sad towards the end of the show. The guy and the gal love each other de, they have been in love with each other since 7 yrs ago. They never cherish each other, both thought nothing will work out for them, so they went on to be with somebody else. But ultimately, when they heard that the other person is getting married, they finally realise that the one they really love all along was the one who was around for them during the sad times...
It made me sad seeing them losing the chance to cherish each other. Felt like crying already. But never.. =X
Though it's just a normal romantic comedy, it's still recommended by me. =)
I thought as a person grow older, he/she should be more mature. For me, it doesn't seem like so. I have a feeling that my defensive walls are collapsing, I am also getting more dependent on others. No longer see the stubborn, bossy, independent and bad-tempered me. What has happened? I wouldn't feel like crying over a show in the past, but today.. =X What really is the "me" now? Still searching for the answer... The change might be good for me, but I don't really quite understand myself now anymore.
Mixture of feelings... I am stuck in between fairytales and reality. And because of this mixture of feelings, I've decided to be an ostrich, a brainless one somemore. =X
Something interesting, to me maybe. Kor's bringing his gf home for the past two nites to slp. I was like.. super uncomfortable. I guess I just don't like a stranger coming in and out of my hse.. Imagine if I were to bring a guy home to slp, what will he feel? =X Hmm, I was thinking ytd: will she be my future sis-in-law? I don't really care, as long as they don't move into this house after they get married. =X She is too neat for me! She packs my lecture notes and newspapers and everything~ *ScreaMz* I can't find my stuffs anymore.. =X She meant well, but, no thanks, don't touch my things. Even mummy also don't touch my stuffs, who is she.. A stranger whom my kor is with NOW. I repeat: NOW.
Tml is father's day. Wish all daddys a HappY Daddy'S Day! *includes my own dad though he wun ever see this* Maybe I should learn to be a more obedient daughter. =)
Hahahz, thanx ah pooN!!! =) I wonder how can I ever thank u enough~ =)
Finally I got my wish! I watched "A Lot Like Love"!!!!!!!!! *sCreamz* Its very very nice.. At least both of us think its nice!!!
It's releasing nxt thursday, 23rd June. But this weekend there's preview of the movie. So, poor poonie darling got pulled to the cinema by mEeee.... LoL.. *EviL Laugh*
Was checking the timing for this movie last night when we found out the cinema was half-filled. !!! Oh man, weird huh. Why is it so fast~ So booked the tix online lor. Den GV website decided to play with me and hung! DiaOz.. But managed to get the tix after all.
Met up with poonie this noon and went to buy thing liaOZ... =)
After that we juz went collect tickets. This time I rmb to copy down my confirmation no. for the tix. =X Bought nachos and went in le..
The movie was v funny. Though the ending was a happy ending, but it made me real sad towards the end of the show. The guy and the gal love each other de, they have been in love with each other since 7 yrs ago. They never cherish each other, both thought nothing will work out for them, so they went on to be with somebody else. But ultimately, when they heard that the other person is getting married, they finally realise that the one they really love all along was the one who was around for them during the sad times...
It made me sad seeing them losing the chance to cherish each other. Felt like crying already. But never.. =X
Though it's just a normal romantic comedy, it's still recommended by me. =)
I thought as a person grow older, he/she should be more mature. For me, it doesn't seem like so. I have a feeling that my defensive walls are collapsing, I am also getting more dependent on others. No longer see the stubborn, bossy, independent and bad-tempered me. What has happened? I wouldn't feel like crying over a show in the past, but today.. =X What really is the "me" now? Still searching for the answer... The change might be good for me, but I don't really quite understand myself now anymore.
Mixture of feelings... I am stuck in between fairytales and reality. And because of this mixture of feelings, I've decided to be an ostrich, a brainless one somemore. =X
Something interesting, to me maybe. Kor's bringing his gf home for the past two nites to slp. I was like.. super uncomfortable. I guess I just don't like a stranger coming in and out of my hse.. Imagine if I were to bring a guy home to slp, what will he feel? =X Hmm, I was thinking ytd: will she be my future sis-in-law? I don't really care, as long as they don't move into this house after they get married. =X She is too neat for me! She packs my lecture notes and newspapers and everything~ *ScreaMz* I can't find my stuffs anymore.. =X She meant well, but, no thanks, don't touch my things. Even mummy also don't touch my stuffs, who is she.. A stranger whom my kor is with NOW. I repeat: NOW.
Tml is father's day. Wish all daddys a HappY Daddy'S Day! *includes my own dad though he wun ever see this* Maybe I should learn to be a more obedient daughter. =)
Friday, June 17, 2005
=) One smile sums up my daY!
Met up with poonie darling this noon and went seoul garden for breakfast/lunch/dinner. Wadever u all wanna call that! Hahahahx.. Had a lot of food as usual, this time the soup tastes nicer liaoX~ =X Coz got sweet sweet de veggie taste. =X
I still think its easier for two person to go seoul garden. Though alot of people more crap to talk about, but then, that only applies if all are ur trusted frenz. Who knows what will happen if u spill all ur secrets? =X I suppose its easier to suit each other's taste as well ba~ =)
Haha, told her more secrets le alsO~ Very happy to spend time with her wor~ Hahahaz, really v fun wor~ Thx darling for spending time with me!!!! =)
Was watching the 有话就说 show on cHannel U just now. I watched simply because got Xiaxue inside. Lolz. =X This is my first time seeing her on tV. But tt show was nice and I always watch it when I can also de.. HaHAhaz..
They were talking about 恋爱. Then there is this counsellor "uncle chen" in the talk show who kept talking abt 不离不弃的婚姻. He thinks that marriage is not just a marriage, but to stand by your partner no matter what and that pre-marital sex makes the couple a pair of 狗男女... His views are kinda extreme and difficult to digest~ DiaOX.. So.. I don't know how to comment aLso~ LoLx. I was just laughing all along coz I duno how to react also.
In reality, not all marriages can last a lifetime! Maybe that "uncle chen" can argue that people from his time can maintain a lifelong marriage. They are just inserted with that kind of moral values from young and that is why they can manage a lifelong marriage. In actual fact, who knows whether have they ever thought of divorcing the other partner? It is just that the society might not accept the idea at that time? =X That is just purely my views after all.
Ok lah, shall stop here already. I'm tired today! Must slp early le.. School reopening soon also.. JCT is cominGgg... ArHx..
Met up with poonie darling this noon and went seoul garden for breakfast/lunch/dinner. Wadever u all wanna call that! Hahahahx.. Had a lot of food as usual, this time the soup tastes nicer liaoX~ =X Coz got sweet sweet de veggie taste. =X
I still think its easier for two person to go seoul garden. Though alot of people more crap to talk about, but then, that only applies if all are ur trusted frenz. Who knows what will happen if u spill all ur secrets? =X I suppose its easier to suit each other's taste as well ba~ =)
Haha, told her more secrets le alsO~ Very happy to spend time with her wor~ Hahahaz, really v fun wor~ Thx darling for spending time with me!!!! =)
Was watching the 有话就说 show on cHannel U just now. I watched simply because got Xiaxue inside. Lolz. =X This is my first time seeing her on tV. But tt show was nice and I always watch it when I can also de.. HaHAhaz..
They were talking about 恋爱. Then there is this counsellor "uncle chen" in the talk show who kept talking abt 不离不弃的婚姻. He thinks that marriage is not just a marriage, but to stand by your partner no matter what and that pre-marital sex makes the couple a pair of 狗男女... His views are kinda extreme and difficult to digest~ DiaOX.. So.. I don't know how to comment aLso~ LoLx. I was just laughing all along coz I duno how to react also.
In reality, not all marriages can last a lifetime! Maybe that "uncle chen" can argue that people from his time can maintain a lifelong marriage. They are just inserted with that kind of moral values from young and that is why they can manage a lifelong marriage. In actual fact, who knows whether have they ever thought of divorcing the other partner? It is just that the society might not accept the idea at that time? =X That is just purely my views after all.
Ok lah, shall stop here already. I'm tired today! Must slp early le.. School reopening soon also.. JCT is cominGgg... ArHx..
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Too Serious Too Soon - Gareth Gates
I wonder where you are
I wonder what you're thinking of tonight
I wonder
Maybe you're alone
Maybe you've been crying just like me
I wonder
I don't know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon
I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you
Maybe you've got scared
Maybe I had nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby, now my life's a mess
'Cause I couldn't love you any less
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon
Too soon...
It's not right, it's not fair
Missing you, baby, cuts like a knife
What if you were the love of my life
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
We got too serious too soon
Too serious too soon
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon
I wonder where you are
I wonder what you're thinking of tonight
I wonder
Maybe you're alone
Maybe you've been crying just like me
I wonder
I don't know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon
I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you
Maybe you've got scared
Maybe I had nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby, now my life's a mess
'Cause I couldn't love you any less
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon
Too soon...
It's not right, it's not fair
Missing you, baby, cuts like a knife
What if you were the love of my life
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
We got too serious too soon
Too serious too soon
I wanted to be there for you, like no-one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
And now I'm staring at the moon, thinking
We got too serious too soon
WEnt to school this morning to attend maths lesson~
We only did some maths questions on the spot. OMG, I realised those that I've been studying were all gone from my brain. How??? OH my, there isn't enough time for me.. And all those info I can't keep them in my brain!!! *sigh*
After MAths wy, yilin, cy, rachel and me went to kfc for lunch.
After lunch, I pulled wy n cy to pei me go watch "ghost train". The show was freaking me out lah. Kept having those stupid creeky sounds and long haired ghost. But I was still freaked out by it. =X Hahaz, there was even one moment I started grabbing wy n cy!!! OMg, paiseh pplZ.. *sOrrY*
Here comes an interesting part of my day. By the time I reached home, I saw.. a pair of unfamiliar shoes. =X After I entered my house, I saw... a new girl!!! LoLz..
My kor got a new girlfriend~ =P
Its not news that he got new gf, well, he isn't those kind who can stay unattached for long maH.. But he bringing the gal home means something I suppose. Only I don't know what it means =X But then...
This gal is quite pretty, more prettier than the previous one. Ermz, what to say? He is not good-looking, I don't understand why he changes his gf at such a fast rate!! =X Sounds pretty fickle-minded yeaH? No lah, actually he SHOULD be quite faithful de. =P
Life is so unfair~ Why his gf is getting prettier and prettier? -__-'''
Shall end my post here le, muz go watch tv liaoZ~ =)
We only did some maths questions on the spot. OMG, I realised those that I've been studying were all gone from my brain. How??? OH my, there isn't enough time for me.. And all those info I can't keep them in my brain!!! *sigh*
After MAths wy, yilin, cy, rachel and me went to kfc for lunch.
After lunch, I pulled wy n cy to pei me go watch "ghost train". The show was freaking me out lah. Kept having those stupid creeky sounds and long haired ghost. But I was still freaked out by it. =X Hahaz, there was even one moment I started grabbing wy n cy!!! OMg, paiseh pplZ.. *sOrrY*
Here comes an interesting part of my day. By the time I reached home, I saw.. a pair of unfamiliar shoes. =X After I entered my house, I saw... a new girl!!! LoLz..
My kor got a new girlfriend~ =P
Its not news that he got new gf, well, he isn't those kind who can stay unattached for long maH.. But he bringing the gal home means something I suppose. Only I don't know what it means =X But then...
This gal is quite pretty, more prettier than the previous one. Ermz, what to say? He is not good-looking, I don't understand why he changes his gf at such a fast rate!! =X Sounds pretty fickle-minded yeaH? No lah, actually he SHOULD be quite faithful de. =P
Life is so unfair~ Why his gf is getting prettier and prettier? -__-'''
Shall end my post here le, muz go watch tv liaoZ~ =)
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Had quite a tiring day.
Went to meet wy dar at kallang MAC to study. I was late!! Paiseh.. I really should not have overslept!! =X
It was drizzling while I was making my way there. Juz realised that bus 31 changed its route. Had a bad scare coz I don't know if the bus will go where I wanted to go.. LoLz.. =X
Yep, was trying to study, but then the air-con v strong! And I didn't bring jacket along with me as I tot it wasn't going to be cold~ DiaOx...
ZG came shortly to join us. We studied till abt 5 plus when I said I wanted to rush home to watch tv. =X HOhoho... PaisEh... Well, we went to eat dinner at old airport road. =)
The food is nice~ Its been ages since I ate there also le. =)
Rushed home after dinner to help mummy record the tv show she wanted to watch.
Yapz, that's abt all for today. Shall go play some game before I revise abit more maths and go to bed. Tml still have a long day ahead! =P
Went to meet wy dar at kallang MAC to study. I was late!! Paiseh.. I really should not have overslept!! =X
It was drizzling while I was making my way there. Juz realised that bus 31 changed its route. Had a bad scare coz I don't know if the bus will go where I wanted to go.. LoLz.. =X
Yep, was trying to study, but then the air-con v strong! And I didn't bring jacket along with me as I tot it wasn't going to be cold~ DiaOx...
ZG came shortly to join us. We studied till abt 5 plus when I said I wanted to rush home to watch tv. =X HOhoho... PaisEh... Well, we went to eat dinner at old airport road. =)
The food is nice~ Its been ages since I ate there also le. =)
Rushed home after dinner to help mummy record the tv show she wanted to watch.
Yapz, that's abt all for today. Shall go play some game before I revise abit more maths and go to bed. Tml still have a long day ahead! =P
Monday, June 13, 2005
Blogging again. =X
Someone pls drag me away from the computer!!!! LAck of discipline mah. =X
Told wy darling tt I am not going to cut my hair, only trim abit. BUT.... I went to cut hair today! =X Yep.. shorter now le.. HaHaHax.. How long must I keep? Sianed.. MAybe one day I shall cut away all my hair.. LEt my hair reborn! =D JK..
Did I mention I dye back my hair last friday? DIY de. And today at the salon I think I see color. -.-''' Or is it I hallucinating? Must be lack of slp tt's y hallucinating.
Should I be an ostrich or not?
Still deciding.
Someone pls drag me away from the computer!!!! LAck of discipline mah. =X
Told wy darling tt I am not going to cut my hair, only trim abit. BUT.... I went to cut hair today! =X Yep.. shorter now le.. HaHaHax.. How long must I keep? Sianed.. MAybe one day I shall cut away all my hair.. LEt my hair reborn! =D JK..
Did I mention I dye back my hair last friday? DIY de. And today at the salon I think I see color. -.-''' Or is it I hallucinating? Must be lack of slp tt's y hallucinating.
Should I be an ostrich or not?
Still deciding.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Post for today. Pictures speak a thousand words. =X
Studying trip today! Wanyi dar, ChENyu n mE met at tanah merah mrt station and made our way to the airport to study.
Found a place at Mac and sat down. We started to crap liaoz.. LoLz.. But we did some serious studying too! =)
But didn't manage to study much. Neither did those info stay in my brain. *SiGh*
More studying needed!!!!
Now, time for the pictureS! Enjoy~ Thx wY for sending me most of e picS~ =)
Me n Wy
Xiao di
xIaO di BeaR~
sUPErmaN? xiaO Di? =X
OMG.. gHost!!
Last pic super scary... Sorry if it scare anyone. Its me. =X
NiteX!
Studying trip today! Wanyi dar, ChENyu n mE met at tanah merah mrt station and made our way to the airport to study.
Found a place at Mac and sat down. We started to crap liaoz.. LoLz.. But we did some serious studying too! =)
But didn't manage to study much. Neither did those info stay in my brain. *SiGh*
More studying needed!!!!
Now, time for the pictureS! Enjoy~ Thx wY for sending me most of e picS~ =)
Me n Wy
Xiao di
xIaO di BeaR~
sUPErmaN? xiaO Di? =X
OMG.. gHost!!
Last pic super scary... Sorry if it scare anyone. Its me. =X
NiteX!
- HaPPy BiRtHdAy 2 YaNzHu -
Yep, its now 12th June, Sunday. So it's his bday le. Though he might nv see this, but still hope he will have a happy bday ~ =)
Did several quizzes just now. So decided to post some online. Haha, how can a lazy person actually spend time to complete quizzeS? Hahahx, duno either. =X
Time to update abt saturday.
Spent the day slacking with poonie todaY.
Saw SiNi today at tampines!!! HeHE... Finally get to see her after knowing her for several months liaoz~ =) Saw her fren as well. =X Opps, I did not say anything.
But we went different ways. Went to pass yz his bday present tt I shared with poonie dar.
After tt went to subway and eat. =)
Talked rubbish at subway. HeHeHEhEz.. I know alot of things le, can threaten her with it nxt time. =P
Watched "Mr & Mrs Smith" with her as well. A v nice show!!!
The ending is sweet. =)
The story is nice. Its really a funny show. Highly recommended movie!
After e movie, we went mos n slacked therE. Den went home at ard 9 lidat. Coz she tired le, actually my legs are also aching. =X See lahz, long time nv walk liao. Stuck at home too long.
Anyway, tt's abt all for saturday. More abt sunday laTer on~
Yep, its now 12th June, Sunday. So it's his bday le. Though he might nv see this, but still hope he will have a happy bday ~ =)
Did several quizzes just now. So decided to post some online. Haha, how can a lazy person actually spend time to complete quizzeS? Hahahx, duno either. =X
Time to update abt saturday.
Spent the day slacking with poonie todaY.
Saw SiNi today at tampines!!! HeHE... Finally get to see her after knowing her for several months liaoz~ =) Saw her fren as well. =X Opps, I did not say anything.
But we went different ways. Went to pass yz his bday present tt I shared with poonie dar.
After tt went to subway and eat. =)
Talked rubbish at subway. HeHeHEhEz.. I know alot of things le, can threaten her with it nxt time. =P
Watched "Mr & Mrs Smith" with her as well. A v nice show!!!
The ending is sweet. =)
The story is nice. Its really a funny show. Highly recommended movie!
After e movie, we went mos n slacked therE. Den went home at ard 9 lidat. Coz she tired le, actually my legs are also aching. =X See lahz, long time nv walk liao. Stuck at home too long.
Anyway, tt's abt all for saturday. More abt sunday laTer on~
Saturday, June 11, 2005
You Are 30% Left Brained, 70% Right Brained |
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports. |
The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Second post fot the nite. Shall go sleep after this. =X
Heard something from a fren the other day. Gave me quite a shock. =X Its just show tt we should not judge a book by its cover. =X
When I was in my younger days, not that I am very old now. But when I was still in sec 1 or 2, when IRC was very popular , I heard my frenz said before CERTAIN guys/gals are.. a little scheming. These people, who thinks they are good-looking, ok, they are good-looking, they tend to "flirt" alot with people of the oppostie sex.
These people will send out signals that they like u, or might even tell u that they like u. But, actually, they have no intention of being together with u. Or rather I should put it in another way, they are just lying when they say they like u. =X
I don't really understand the intentions of such people, what do they actually want?
Just because they are good-looking they have the right to play around with other people's feelings?
Yes, perhaps they have the rights.
Why do I say so? Well, it takes two hands to clap. There will definitely be one willing party that is more naive and too trusting that allows such good-looking people to succeed. It is these "willing party" who gave the right to good-looking people after all. So, what can I say?
Another kind of people is even more scary.
They are attached, but, someone else better come along their way. So, they like the other person. They will woo the other person AS WELL AS stay attached with the original partner telling the original partner how deep their love is. *yUcKz*
If they succeed in wooing the other person, they will, break up with their original partner.
If they don't succeed, they will just stay with the original partner till they find someone better.
It just scares me. How human beings can be like that.
Yes, my thinking is that in a relationship, all that matters is that both parties are in love and are happy together. But, it doesn't mean sacrificing someone else.
I've really seen people behaving this way, its not something that I created.
Somehow I just hope that there will be lesser such people around, so that lesser people will get hurt? *Think too much*
One quite important thing is: there really is retribution. One won't get away with hurting someone else emotionally. One day, he/she will still be hurt by another. One day. It's what I've observed in life.
And some things in life, there is no second chance. I think I said this for .. who-knows-how-many-times. I am just tryint to remind myself the importance of cherishing things before I lose it. Simply because I am one who often take things for granted. =X Bad habit.
I am learning, learning to be a better person.
Heard something from a fren the other day. Gave me quite a shock. =X Its just show tt we should not judge a book by its cover. =X
When I was in my younger days, not that I am very old now. But when I was still in sec 1 or 2, when IRC was very popular , I heard my frenz said before CERTAIN guys/gals are.. a little scheming. These people, who thinks they are good-looking, ok, they are good-looking, they tend to "flirt" alot with people of the oppostie sex.
These people will send out signals that they like u, or might even tell u that they like u. But, actually, they have no intention of being together with u. Or rather I should put it in another way, they are just lying when they say they like u. =X
I don't really understand the intentions of such people, what do they actually want?
Just because they are good-looking they have the right to play around with other people's feelings?
Yes, perhaps they have the rights.
Why do I say so? Well, it takes two hands to clap. There will definitely be one willing party that is more naive and too trusting that allows such good-looking people to succeed. It is these "willing party" who gave the right to good-looking people after all. So, what can I say?
Another kind of people is even more scary.
They are attached, but, someone else better come along their way. So, they like the other person. They will woo the other person AS WELL AS stay attached with the original partner telling the original partner how deep their love is. *yUcKz*
If they succeed in wooing the other person, they will, break up with their original partner.
If they don't succeed, they will just stay with the original partner till they find someone better.
It just scares me. How human beings can be like that.
Yes, my thinking is that in a relationship, all that matters is that both parties are in love and are happy together. But, it doesn't mean sacrificing someone else.
I've really seen people behaving this way, its not something that I created.
Somehow I just hope that there will be lesser such people around, so that lesser people will get hurt? *Think too much*
One quite important thing is: there really is retribution. One won't get away with hurting someone else emotionally. One day, he/she will still be hurt by another. One day. It's what I've observed in life.
And some things in life, there is no second chance. I think I said this for .. who-knows-how-many-times. I am just tryint to remind myself the importance of cherishing things before I lose it. Simply because I am one who often take things for granted. =X Bad habit.
I am learning, learning to be a better person.
There are just so many things to do when one doesn't have the time. !! =(
I haven study finish, haven cut hair, haven watch enough movies, haven enjoy, haven.. I haven't got time to do alot of things! Yet there is only .. 2 weeks left before I face my doom. =S
Perhaps I should learn to let go. If I really can't survive in JC, den I should.. get out instead of wasting everybody's time.
Trying my best.. I am really trying my best to make full use of time le!! But.. my determination just isn't strong enough to rejects tv, internet. *sighx*
And at this june, there are ALOT of nice movies showing or about to be released soon... *double sighz* When can I find enough time for everyting and make sure I don't flunk JCT ??
*Sighx*
Today is just another -down- day for me I suppose.
Tomorrow will be a better day. =)
I haven study finish, haven cut hair, haven watch enough movies, haven enjoy, haven.. I haven't got time to do alot of things! Yet there is only .. 2 weeks left before I face my doom. =S
Perhaps I should learn to let go. If I really can't survive in JC, den I should.. get out instead of wasting everybody's time.
Trying my best.. I am really trying my best to make full use of time le!! But.. my determination just isn't strong enough to rejects tv, internet. *sighx*
And at this june, there are ALOT of nice movies showing or about to be released soon... *double sighz* When can I find enough time for everyting and make sure I don't flunk JCT ??
*Sighx*
Today is just another -down- day for me I suppose.
Tomorrow will be a better day. =)
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Movie outing today!! =) Went to watch "Cursed" with wAnYi DarliNg n aLLan.
Met at 12pm at ps. Had nachos combo today~
Even though we entered e cinema rather laTe, the show .. haven started! Oh my, it juz showed how many commercials GV contained! Bth bth bth. Hahah~ =X
I think uob finally decided to credit the money I banked in e other day to my account. I went to check my account balance and... tada! My money is inside liao!! =) No need to eat shit le!! Plus the money is not all mine, part of it belongs to mummy. If she knew abt it, most probably I will get killed. =X
The movie was not bad! Not so much of a horror. =) Its more of suspense type of movie. And towards the end of the movie, there was a twist in the story. HeHe, had me cheated. =X
I still watch this movie though I don't really have much money left. Its ok de, I will save money again~ I will eat white bread for the rest of this week.. Hiak hiakx..
Dui bu qi pooniEee daR.. Today made u waste ur time le. T_T.. Didn't mean it de wor~ Shall make it up to u one day ok .. Dui bu qi..!!!!
Didn't do any studying today. Was too busy watching tV..=X Ok le, think today shall slp early.
Met at 12pm at ps. Had nachos combo today~
Even though we entered e cinema rather laTe, the show .. haven started! Oh my, it juz showed how many commercials GV contained! Bth bth bth. Hahah~ =X
I think uob finally decided to credit the money I banked in e other day to my account. I went to check my account balance and... tada! My money is inside liao!! =) No need to eat shit le!! Plus the money is not all mine, part of it belongs to mummy. If she knew abt it, most probably I will get killed. =X
The movie was not bad! Not so much of a horror. =) Its more of suspense type of movie. And towards the end of the movie, there was a twist in the story. HeHe, had me cheated. =X
I still watch this movie though I don't really have much money left. Its ok de, I will save money again~ I will eat white bread for the rest of this week.. Hiak hiakx..
Dui bu qi pooniEee daR.. Today made u waste ur time le. T_T.. Didn't mean it de wor~ Shall make it up to u one day ok .. Dui bu qi..!!!!
Didn't do any studying today. Was too busy watching tV..=X Ok le, think today shall slp early.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
WHAT AN UNLUCKY DAY.
Ever since holidays started, I have this uneasy feeling in me that something big is going to happen this june hols. I am not sure if it's good or bad, but it made me very uneasy for these few days. I pray hard hard that nth bad will happen !! I don't think I am ready for any blow at this point of time.
My day started out fine. Went tampines study with poonie. We went subway and stayed there for the whole afternoon. At least I think I completed 3 chaps of maths. =|
After studying, I went to deposit money into my account. But..... OMG OMG, the money seem to be stuck and MY MONEY GOT LOST. It isn't bank in to my account, neither did the machine return my money to me. The machine was spoilt!
*SCREAMZ*
My money my money my money, I need it to survive thru my june hols. ArH... ArH... ArH...
Could the uneasy feeling of mine be referring to the money? Pls dun let my money be lost, pls return my money to me. Pls Pls Pls.. T_T
I don't know why but memories kept flashing through my mind once I close my eyes. Those happy times. Strange isn't it? Even though I am stressed about studies and many other things, my brain actually prefers to remember those happy times. =|
Those were my childhood days.
I felt that I have two set of parents.
I felt that I gained 3 more brothers.
I felt like I was the luckiest child on earth.
The 2 sets of parents were my own parents and .. my babysitter and her husband.
I used to call my babysitter "mama" and her husband uncle. =)
I was very naughty in the past and many babysitters refused to look after me, but "mama" was the only one who agreed to babysit me.
On special ocassions, mama would buy me presents, presents that my mum refused to buy. During lantern festivals, I would get 2 lanterns, one from my own mummy and one from "mama". =)
It was with "mama" and uncle where I learnt how a real family should behave. A real happy family should consist of parents sleeping together, loving their children, siblings caring for each other as well. It was completely different from what I saw at home.
With "mama" and uncle, they would bring me to visit relatives, shopping, eating, or simply spend time together. During weekends when I go back to my own home, life was quite different. My real mummy would still bring my kor and me out, but, photos showed that there were only 3 people in my family. My dad isn't dead or working, but he just didn't want to spend time with us.
Whenever I was sick, my real mum would stay by my side and take care of me. But "mama" would cook food for me.
I still think that a dad should teach his children the right moral values and guide them the right path instead on using violence all the time. My real dad didn't fulfil that. Uncle fulfilled that instead. Uncle was the one who cultivated my interest in chinese, he was the one who guided me along the way. If it wasn't for uncle's presence, I might have already followed my kor's footsteps long ago.
"Mama" and uncle have 3 sons, and naturally they treated me very well. Unlike my own kor, they treated me like their sister.
I never had to worry about chicken bones, fish bones, etc. There would always be someone around to remove those bones for me.
I don't remember crying at "mama"'s house.
But one fine morning, "mama" had a stroke.
Her son's girlfriend blamed me for agitating her. Sometimes I questioned myself, was it really me who caused her death?
After "mama" suffered from the stroke, she went into coma.
Several months later, she could open her eyes. The way she looked at me was different from the way she looked at others. I knew she remembered me, I knew she wanted to tell me something, but I never got to know what she wanted to tell me.
Being young and stupid, I thought that "mama" was going to be alright and she would be there to take care of me again. How wrong I was. She didn't wake up anymore.
When she passed away, I cried like mad. =X My real mummy hid the truth that "mama" passed away because she was superstitious.
After uncle passed away last year, I had a strange dream. I dreamt about us 3 spending time like a family in their house. I knew they wanted to tell me not to worry for them anymore.
If only I could turn back time, I want to tell "mama" and uncle that I love them. I will miss them no matter where they are now.
Maybe it was because of the way they treated me that made me a spoilt brat now. But they gave me family warmth.
I've always been self-centered. But for once, I am going to do something good. I just want people around me to be happy. I also have closed ones I want to protect. Maybe nobody will understand what I mean, but it's ok. Maybe pOoNie will understand me.. =)
After typing out all those happy childhood times, I guess my mood is not that bad anymore. =)
Ever since holidays started, I have this uneasy feeling in me that something big is going to happen this june hols. I am not sure if it's good or bad, but it made me very uneasy for these few days. I pray hard hard that nth bad will happen !! I don't think I am ready for any blow at this point of time.
My day started out fine. Went tampines study with poonie. We went subway and stayed there for the whole afternoon. At least I think I completed 3 chaps of maths. =|
After studying, I went to deposit money into my account. But..... OMG OMG, the money seem to be stuck and MY MONEY GOT LOST. It isn't bank in to my account, neither did the machine return my money to me. The machine was spoilt!
*SCREAMZ*
My money my money my money, I need it to survive thru my june hols. ArH... ArH... ArH...
Could the uneasy feeling of mine be referring to the money? Pls dun let my money be lost, pls return my money to me. Pls Pls Pls.. T_T
I don't know why but memories kept flashing through my mind once I close my eyes. Those happy times. Strange isn't it? Even though I am stressed about studies and many other things, my brain actually prefers to remember those happy times. =|
Those were my childhood days.
I felt that I have two set of parents.
I felt that I gained 3 more brothers.
I felt like I was the luckiest child on earth.
The 2 sets of parents were my own parents and .. my babysitter and her husband.
I used to call my babysitter "mama" and her husband uncle. =)
I was very naughty in the past and many babysitters refused to look after me, but "mama" was the only one who agreed to babysit me.
On special ocassions, mama would buy me presents, presents that my mum refused to buy. During lantern festivals, I would get 2 lanterns, one from my own mummy and one from "mama". =)
It was with "mama" and uncle where I learnt how a real family should behave. A real happy family should consist of parents sleeping together, loving their children, siblings caring for each other as well. It was completely different from what I saw at home.
With "mama" and uncle, they would bring me to visit relatives, shopping, eating, or simply spend time together. During weekends when I go back to my own home, life was quite different. My real mummy would still bring my kor and me out, but, photos showed that there were only 3 people in my family. My dad isn't dead or working, but he just didn't want to spend time with us.
Whenever I was sick, my real mum would stay by my side and take care of me. But "mama" would cook food for me.
I still think that a dad should teach his children the right moral values and guide them the right path instead on using violence all the time. My real dad didn't fulfil that. Uncle fulfilled that instead. Uncle was the one who cultivated my interest in chinese, he was the one who guided me along the way. If it wasn't for uncle's presence, I might have already followed my kor's footsteps long ago.
"Mama" and uncle have 3 sons, and naturally they treated me very well. Unlike my own kor, they treated me like their sister.
I never had to worry about chicken bones, fish bones, etc. There would always be someone around to remove those bones for me.
I don't remember crying at "mama"'s house.
But one fine morning, "mama" had a stroke.
Her son's girlfriend blamed me for agitating her. Sometimes I questioned myself, was it really me who caused her death?
After "mama" suffered from the stroke, she went into coma.
Several months later, she could open her eyes. The way she looked at me was different from the way she looked at others. I knew she remembered me, I knew she wanted to tell me something, but I never got to know what she wanted to tell me.
Being young and stupid, I thought that "mama" was going to be alright and she would be there to take care of me again. How wrong I was. She didn't wake up anymore.
When she passed away, I cried like mad. =X My real mummy hid the truth that "mama" passed away because she was superstitious.
After uncle passed away last year, I had a strange dream. I dreamt about us 3 spending time like a family in their house. I knew they wanted to tell me not to worry for them anymore.
If only I could turn back time, I want to tell "mama" and uncle that I love them. I will miss them no matter where they are now.
Maybe it was because of the way they treated me that made me a spoilt brat now. But they gave me family warmth.
I've always been self-centered. But for once, I am going to do something good. I just want people around me to be happy. I also have closed ones I want to protect. Maybe nobody will understand what I mean, but it's ok. Maybe pOoNie will understand me.. =)
After typing out all those happy childhood times, I guess my mood is not that bad anymore. =)
Friday, June 03, 2005
Haha, fancy blogging at 8.45am in the morning. Hmm, don't know why I can't sleep ?? =X Nvm, maybe later shall go and get some sleep. =)
Anyway, anyone wanna go airport study? I seriously need to study..at a place where I can't see my bed nor feel my bed, somewhere with no tV.. LoLZ.. If wan sms me k..
Can't wait for saturday to come.. Miss yaH pOOnIE.. =X
Anyway, anyone wanna go airport study? I seriously need to study..at a place where I can't see my bed nor feel my bed, somewhere with no tV.. LoLZ.. If wan sms me k..
Can't wait for saturday to come.. Miss yaH pOOnIE.. =X
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Been a pig today. Slept like there's no tomorrow. =X
Fell aslp on the floor last nite while studying. This morning suffering from a bad backache. =P The results of slping on the floor. Don't have much of a choice, the air-con is spoilt and my bed is hot! HaHa..
Missed the trip to sentosa with my mummy n frenz today. Glad tt I didn't go, they didn't really had much fun at sentosa after all. =X
Bad headache todaY. Woke up at 8am from the floor and went to slp on my bed. Woke again at 3pm and had my brunch, before going back to slp at 4pm. Woke up by the noise my kor was producing at 5.30pm. The moment I saw him I also sian diao so I went back to slp.. only to wake up at 7.30pm. Oh man, what a PIG. If only I have the chance to slp lidat everyday. =X But nono, muz study liaoz.. =X
K le, muz get my butt off the computer chair le. Must study must study must study.. Nothing on my to-do list is completed.. not even onE..
Fell aslp on the floor last nite while studying. This morning suffering from a bad backache. =P The results of slping on the floor. Don't have much of a choice, the air-con is spoilt and my bed is hot! HaHa..
Missed the trip to sentosa with my mummy n frenz today. Glad tt I didn't go, they didn't really had much fun at sentosa after all. =X
Bad headache todaY. Woke up at 8am from the floor and went to slp on my bed. Woke again at 3pm and had my brunch, before going back to slp at 4pm. Woke up by the noise my kor was producing at 5.30pm. The moment I saw him I also sian diao so I went back to slp.. only to wake up at 7.30pm. Oh man, what a PIG. If only I have the chance to slp lidat everyday. =X But nono, muz study liaoz.. =X
K le, muz get my butt off the computer chair le. Must study must study must study.. Nothing on my to-do list is completed.. not even onE..
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
A Lot Like Love
It takes some people years to fall in love at first sight... A LOT LIKE LOVE is a romantic comedy about destiny, connection and the frequently fuzzy line between chance friendships and happily ever after.
A LOT LIKE LOVE traces the relationship of Oliver (ASHTON KUTCHER) and Emily (AMANDA PEET) who meet on a flight from Los Angeles to New York seven years ago – each of them declaring that they couldn't be more wrong for each other. Life keeps bringing them back together over the next seven years, but the timing never seems right. As they struggle with their different partners, careers and breakups, they turn from casual acquaintances into trusted friends who can say anything to one another.
As they each search for love and a relationship that's not fated for disaster, it takes seven years for Oliver and Emily to figure out that maybe what they really have is something...a lot like love.
One quote from the movie: "Just when I am starting to like u, u are moving away". Doesn't that sound interesting? =) My next targetted movie. Hoho, but then it only release on 23rd June. Hai, still got so many weeks away. =X
Maybe I can start saving up for this movie. =P
Didn't do much today. Stayed home and slack my day off. Must study already. =)