So damn fucking pissed that I will kill anyone who step near me.

It's not just the normal monday blues.

Tio suaned by my colleague today: "kaizhen, I didn't know that u can walk so fast with your short legs." WTF. YEs I know I am short, but that doesn't mean I have to crawl my way around. DAMN YOU. And who said shorties cannot walk fast? Just because I am short doesn't mean I am useless. BLoody hell.

Since I am so damn pissed today, I decided to go for a movie. That bloody hell idiot told me to meet at 730pm. WTF, I knock off at 530 and what am I supposed to do for the 2 hours? I said I didn't want to go, and I was being accused of having attitude problem and playing hard to get. WTF, PLAYING HARD TO GET?

Agreed to meet at 7pm in the end. Just nice at 7pm, that bloody hell called me and asked where were I. And guess where's the bloody hell idiot? IN THE OFFICE. WTF. I wasn't the bitch who said I wanted to meet at 7pm. I said I wanted to go home, I made it clear that I want to watch a movie. Meeting at 7pm is just the same as not watching, and I have to work tomorrow.

So, I decided to show that idiot WHAT IS CALLED ATTITUDE PROBLEM. I called after waiting for 15 minutes that I am going home. And guess what? That bloody hell hung up on me. WTF. Am I in the wrong? I didn't want to go in the first place. It seems to me that I am in the fucking wrong.

I was pushed several times in the MRT thanks to some bloody idiot. I was pushed front and back AT THE SAME TIME. Don't these fat idiots have some common sense to understand that I am not air and I am not compressible. Damn, they have no fucking brains is it?!?!?!

Not only that, this fucking couple have to kiss right in front of me. I have nothing against couples, but please don't display public affections in a PACKED TRAIN. WTF. Ane what's worse, the couple is UGLY, both the guy and the gal are UGLY! Makes me feel like puking.

To top things off, I reached home only to realise that my BELOVED mummy didn't get me dinner. AM I SUPPOSED TO EAT SHIT????????? WTF. SHE IS HAPPILY EATING HER DINNER IN FRONT OF ME. I am stupid, so I don't get any food. Yeah, whatever!

I should be damn angry right now, but all I can do is type in front of computer and sobbing like a mad woman. A mad hungry woman. And did I mention that my baobei fell to the ground from my height just now? All I can feel is pain for my baobei.

It surely doesn't help when I am like a stupid spare tyre being used by other ppl. DON'T TAKE ME FOR GRANTED. I KNOW I AM USELESS AND STUPID, BUT PLEASE KINDLY LEAVE ME ALONE IF YOU ARE NOT SINCERE IN BEING MY FRIEND. BEING STUPID DOESN'T MEAN THAT I AM NOT A HUMAN BEING. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF ALWAYS PROVIDING MY SERVICES THERE FOR OTHER PEOPLE AND WHEN I ASK FOR A FAVOUR, EVERYONE PRETENDS THAT I AM TRANSPARENT. WTF.

I know I have typed WTF many times in this entry. I just wanted to find a place to vent my anger. Nobody cares. The only consolation I can find is that my hammie remains quiet in my palms when I start crying.

I feel a little better now.

This entry is not meant for scolding anyone, not even those bloody idiots I mentioned. I am just pissed today.

It's simple things that makes me happy. =)

I am just so happy now~ HaHa. I think I am mad already.

I was busy taking pictures of my baobei during the weekend, yes, the pathetic weekend that I have now.

Here are some of the pictures! =)

this is really my hamster


It looks like a lump of tissue, but it's really my baobei!!!! I know I should not fed it so much, but it's not totally my fault afterall! =X

I have evidence to prove how greedy it is!

I swore it ran towards its bowl


half sunken in food bowl


don't disturb when I am eating..


preparing to sleep after eating


This looks like the life of a pig rather than a hamster.

But it's better that he eat than he doesn't.

I must make sure I play with it daily, no matter how tired I am.

Woke up today at 7am, when I slept at 4am yesterday. I must be mad. So I went for mac breakfast with mummy and got myself a satisfied breakfast.

I wonder why I have to wake up daily at 7am. This is really straining my energy.

But, I am still a happy girl! =)

Life doesn't have to be perfect to make me happy.

Lack of sleep these few days.

It's weird how my body is functioning. I slept at around 11+pm daily, but I never seem to get enough sleep. >.<

The reason I am blogging today is because it's been two months since my birthday. Lol. How time flies~

After chatting with the lye gals the other day, it seems like we all have high efficient. But, it's over high because we will end up finishing our work very early and having nothing to do. =X So today I shall learn to work slower... *Hope they will not sack me*.

I took the same bus as my eye candy yesterday~ Well, it's not something that is worth mentioning but just blogging for the sake of blogging. =X

I want a more interesting life.

Where should I start blogging from?

Hahax. Too many things in one day~

Met yilin in the afternoon and we headed for lunch first.

We waited for Rachel and we shopped for Lao pa's present. =X

Haha, hope he likes it wor!!! =)

Wanyi n lao pa reached at around 3pm and we handed his present to him~

I was kidding and saying that we could only afford a card for him. He was like.. ok lor..

BUT he never see the vouchers we bought and put into the carD!!!!!! Lao pa still so "retarded". =X HaHahAxx...

There's only me, wy, yl, rachel and lao pa this time. Just like what happened on my birthday too. =X Looks like the ns guys are drifting faster than I am. =X

After that we went shopping around before heading to Cartel for dinner.

I spent a bomb on my food which I didn't finish. =X

Here's our food! =)

my pork ribs


rach n yl's fish n chips


my oreo minty shake


wy's food


lao pa's food


We were eating and crapping and I started to force them to take pictures with me. I must use my new camera mah, else wasted all my mummy's money. =X

So, there's just some photos! Enjoy the pictureS! =)

lao pa!


us gals


me.wy


We asked the waitress to help us take a picture but her finger was blocking part of the flash, hence the weird picture. Don't worry there's no ghost or what!

all of us! =)


yl.me


As I have said, I didn't finish my ribs, so .. this is what is left. I was still full from my lunch. =X

er xin ribs leftover


me.lp


me.xiao mei


Haha, guess who is this? =X

miss yellow


yl.wy


Ok, warning! This picture is sure to make u lose appetite. =S

mei destroying my "ribs"


lp making us take pictures of him again..


wy.lp


wy.lp again


yl.wy~


zi lian lao pa >.<


Here is the last pic of today!

wy.me


We left and went home around 7pm.

It was such a fun fun gathering with part of the lyes! Happy birthday lao pa! =)

I will miss u guys lotz~

Sucks. Look at the time I am blogging! =X

I can't sleep. =S

Slept too much this afternoon....

Fancy having to work on a saturday.

Sigh.

Went to watch "Dorm" finally with kenneth in the evening.

I actually think that it's quite a good movie. =X

Not so much of horror, but it has a plot.

I quite of like the story, just like how I liked "Shutter".

I actually found it touching towards the end.

I realised that I can't really stay up late nowadays. We were watching the midnight show as tickets for e earlier show were only left with front rows. I almost fell asleep while the cinema was playing advertisments. =X

But now I am wide awake again! ..

Dotx.

Nth much to update about.

Anyway, I've got a new job. Working at Eu Yan Sang again. =X

Haha, I started working under retail, then under receptionist, helped out at their roadshow and now I am under store.

What a joke.

The most ironic thing is that I am working under the colleague who suaned me the other time that I am having a good time as a temp.

Looks like she quite of like me now. =)

Life is getting boring since I am working now. =X

Time for an update.

This is gonna be all words. =X

Went to the IT Fair with Kai Cheng on sunday. Oh my! There's really a lot of people there!!!!! Even the overhead bridge towards suntec from city hall was packed and jammed.. I should have known better than to take the train!!!! =( Made me sweaty and smelly all over.

Walked around the it fair with him coz he's looking for a digi cam. We walked to several booths and compared the prices as well as functions before he decided on a Samsung digi cam.

After that we went to eat before going for a movie titled Underworld: Evolution.

It was quite a nice movie~ But I still didn't manage to catch "Dorm" which only have one time slot on that day. Well, looks like I have to pull someone else to go watch that! =S

Updates for today.

Went to eat dinner with mama after work today.

We went crystal jade at toa payoh. Well, my opinions towards them are still the same. Even though this time I don't have to fork out a cent.

I still prefer ajisen's ramen.

I especially dislike the attitude of this waitress there. It has got nothing to do with crystal jade's food or brand (as some might know I don't like CJ since secondary days).

She was serving my ramen and I was commenting to MUMMY that I forgot to request for them not to put spring onions inside.

That waitress said out loud: scoop them out loh.

.............

I was not commenting to her.

Instead of asking if I need a change of ramen, that was just what she replied.

I told her I was not aware that they will put spring onions in as the picture didn't show. She just said that I shouldn't trust the pictures.

Dotx.

I really don't know how to react.

So damn pissed with her. >.<

I am not going into crystal jade for sometime again. Unless I don't have to pay. Hahaz.

Time for bed. My eyebags and dark eyerings are getting real bad nowadays~

Lost for words. LAzy to update.

I am so lack of sleep these days!

So just enjoy the pic! =)

The day of University open houses.

The day which I chose to pms.

The day which my mood began to go downhill.

I didn't go to any open houses. What's the point? I can't even get into anyone.

It made me felt so stupid once again.

This is the first time I've actually felt stupid after the release of As results.

I said that I am learning to become mature, until today.

I've disappointed my mummy. She expected alot from me I know, after getting into TJC. But till the end of my 2 yrs of JC life, I failed to create any miracle that she can be proud of.

She told me that if I want to go overseas, she will approve of it, regardless of how we going to get the money. I don't know if she was just lying to me, but it really made me feel better. She said we can always move to a smaller place if we can't repay the loan.

When I was telling her that I will treat her a nice dinner when she turned 60, she almost yelled at me. She told me she didn't know if she can live till then (it is only a year away). Tell me what am I supposed to reply.

Why should I still study on? Why don't I get a job now and repay her whatever I can? People, stop telling me that if I get a job now, I can't earn much. I know that very well, but you all aren't me. I don't want to end up regretting.

But mummy defintely won't allow that.

Something that should make my day.

Mummy still dotes on me even though I didn't do well for As.

She pulled me to the IT Fair at Suntec City this afternoon.

There were a damn lot of people there.

Saw this note on the board : "Due to overwhelming response at the IT Fair at Level 4 & 6, pls kindly come back in an hour."

As if anybody will bother about that.

We went to several booths. While we were at the Epson booth, my toes got stepped by this fatty. =X Painful sia~

Anyway, after we left the IT Fair, I still saw that message. They might as well ask customers not to go the IT Fair. Haha. =X

Had dinner at the food court at Suntec City. The food tasted nice! =) But while I was queuing up for food, this man behind me poured green bean soup on my legs. >.< YUCKS.

Made me feel like killing anytime. =X

Took some stupid pics after heading home.

Haha, BIG words. BIG paper bag.




Have a guess what I bought!


The answer! =)


Haha, intended to get this after I get my pay. But it's cheaper over at the IT Fair, so why not? Mummy paid more for it than me after all. =X

But now I felt silly getting it, coz I realise I don't really use digicam much. And I made my mum spend so much on something we both might not use much. =X

I wonder how much the promoter got for selling this. =X *money-minded me*

Went Recruit Express for an interview again this morning.

The interview lasted less than 5 minutes?

Oh my, wasted my whole morning! =X

Walked around orchard alone later on while waiting for Wee Kim. Was borrowing some notes from him. =X

While waiting at orchard mrt station, I was approached by this "head-hunter" for a modelling company.

What a joke.

Do I really look like some kind of exceptionally rich girl who have no where to spend my money? =X Nope, I was not decorated with branded goods today.

I was definitely not approached because I am attractive. I was in a t-shirt and skirt. I even had this tired look on me as I only slept for 3 hrs and my dry contact lens was irritating me.

But as I sat there watching them, I realised that they approach almost any kind of people. >.< It makes me feel a little disgusted.

However, I wonder how much is the earnings.

Not earnings for modelling, but for those "head-hunters". =X

They seriously need to employ more "head-hunters", those who Q.C. first. =X

Anyway, we had lunch at Ajisen.

Did I mention it's my 3rd consecutive day eating at Ajisen? Hohoh.. Ajisen fan, they should award me! =)

After that we went to the IT fair at Suntec City as I was looking for earphones and checking out prices for some other products.

It was packed with people!!!! I don't understand why would a thursday be so packed~

Failed to find what I wanted and so I left the place. But I will definitely be back!

Walked over to another shop in suntec to compare prices for earphones.

The iPod mini ones are making me deaf anytime. =X

Returned home with a happy me! =)

TadA!


My new earphones.

Targetted since "decades" ago.

But I felt a little bit pain in my heart, due to the high price of Sony products!

I changed my opinions after using it.

There's only one word to describe my feeling : shuang~

It's really worth my money! Goodbye old cranky iPodie earphones. Hello to new SonY! =)

I better start getting another job to compensate for my shopping spree today.

Met up with yanfen this afternoon.

Went to taka's ajisen and ate.

Was supposed to be going around to shop. Haha, due to boredom. =X

Yanfen saw a wallet that she liked but she didn't buy it initially. When she really want to buy it, it isn't available at other "Flash 'n' Splash" outlets. -.-'''

Tried this strawberry smoothie that is blended with ice cream. It tastes so nice! =) HahAx, not sure why but I have a cravings for such drinks nowadays.

Anyway, we shopped till about 10+pm and she accompanied me till Boon Keng before heading home.

I suggested using my hp to take pictures again. Hahahax..



Just posting one of the pictures here coz the rest look almost the same, no point also. =X

Anyway, only bought a top for myself today. =( It was supposed to be a shopping spree!~

Nevermind, I am tired already.

Results were out.

I DID BADLY.

That's all I can say about it.

But life still goes on doesn't it?

No matter how badly I did for my exams, I have still got to move on.

Maybe it's because I am hitting 20 soon, so I have to grow up and solve my problems.

Now it's time to think about my next step in life~