Happy bdae to meLvin! LoL. Wad a start for my post. Nth much lah, juz tot of wishing him happy birthdae, though I noe he nv will see this. Didn't sms him to wish him also coz I forgot to. HaHa, he's getting out of my mind already ba. Since I nv bother to rmb to sms him. =X Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Haix..

Sianz, today didn't wake up in time for mentoring. Shit lor, how can I? Maybe I'm juz too tired lahz. Dotx. Anyway, tml muz go back school for old newspaper collection. Damn it, why muz I go bedok for one whole week???? =S

Ok le lah, tt's all I want to sae.

Haven been updating my blog for a long time ba. Coz my computer was laggy and crazy for the past few days, hence I can't use the net la. And I typed out a post juz now, but my computer juz hanged.. leaving my post unsaved. Thus I haf to go thru' typing out all these things again.

Anyway went out with poonie darling last sunday. We went town to do some shopping. I bought some stuffs for new yr, while she bought a nike tee which looks v nice wor =) HehEx.. Had a fun day out with her! But was sick on monday, not sure wad sickness is it, juz gastric pain? Haha, the doc also duno wad's wrong.. NvM abt tt. I am ok now already~

This post wasn't really abt how I spent my days, its actually for someone out there. I am sure that someone will be able to read this lahz. So if u all dun wan to read anymore, u all can leave ba~

I may say things which made my ex sound like a baddie, but he sure isn't one. So to that someone out there, pls stop saying that my ex is not a gentleman. He is in his own way, its juz tt after we quarrelled that nite, I was furious and I made him sound like a baddie. Sorry to gif u that idea. But pls stop criticising him ok, he is my ex, not urs, so wad makes u think u haf the right to sae anything bad abt him? Even I dun haf that right, let alone u. I trust my own taste, he has his own good points which made me fall for him, so pls.. Stop tt. Dun make it sound like I made the wrong choice lidat. I nv once regretted wad I did.

I haf been reading -his- ex gf's blog all these while. She was badly hurt. I noe -he- muz haf said things that made her trust him so much. In the end, I'm not sure who gave up the relationship. No matter wad others think, I noe he muz haf said/done things that made her trust him so much. I juz dun understand something: if u can't accomplish sth, dun make any promise ok.

In my case, if u can't accomplish anything, dun sae anything to me. I noe I always sae that promises are meant to be broken, but then I do take some things u said seriously. And when there is expectations, there will be disappointed. I noe u did not make any promise to me, but I juz want u to noe, even simple things in life if u can't do it, dun ever say them out. I can't sae I am flawless either, I noe I haf alot of bad points and I shouldn't haf taken things that seriously, but u noe wad type of person I am. I noe this time I made a wrong move to take ur words seriously, I told myself I wun listen to ur craps anymore in future.

I am glad I dun believe in promises, else I would have been hurt.

HappY bDaE To mYseLF!!! =) It was a day filled with happiness and saddness wor! But cannot really say its an unforgettable day.

Met -him- at kallang at ard 1+pm. Went ps buy tix for...

Elektra


Wahah, we bought tix for 9.45pm show.. at 2pm?? LoLx. I noe we sound v kiasu but I juz dun wish to sit on first few rows plus its on a saturday! =X Anyway, went to cartel for lunch after tt. Didnt noe where to go also lah, plus nydc is open space with no air-con. I dun wan to sweat while I eat as it was a hot day, even though nydc's cheesecake is nice.....

After lunch went take pic with -him- before going new yr shopping. Juz funny to shop with a guy ba, somemore our taste are different. =X Bought quite a no. of things.. =) Den went starbucks drink mocha frap n went movie liaox. Ate nachos. Still taste as nice ba. =)

Went home after tt.. Juz to find out tt my computer is spoilt by my dad, hence I nv had the chance to update my blog. =D Lol. Not only tt, my brother finished my cake..my bdae cake. He only left a small pathetic piece and two strawberries for me. DAMN IT. Doesn't he noe it is MY CAKE? When can he mature and start to think abt others????? Even if he is hungry, there is no need to finish my cake rite? Kaox, muz spoil my bday lidaT? Y muz my bdae end lidat.????? Wad had I done wrong ? F***

Tt's abt all for today le lah, dun wan 2 type anymore.

Eve of my bdae!! But the most horrible thing is tt I haf to work on this day ba.. No choice? hahax..

Went out with lye family..except shaky wor.. Was late coz there was serious traffic jam at somerset area. =X After tt, I suggested to go marche for lunch. Coz we all also duno where to go. But there's this v stupid rule at marche. One has to spend a minimum of $10 at there. KaoX.. If not mayb can spend less than $10 there? But nvm lah, celebrate hari raya. =X LoL.. Plus think they might be losing money if everyone spend less than $10 there.

Had the plain rosti there. It tasted nice on the first few mouth but it got quite of filling after tt. Duhx. Rachel n eggie had e same as me while e rest of e family ate rosti with cheese sausage. After my rosti, I went to eat apple strudel with ice cream. e apple strudel tasted funny? Hahax, nvm abt tt. Maybe my taste bud got problem.

After tt they took out the present they got for me.. =) Cy got me a "H" alphabet from PM. E rest got me a photo frame .. with a photo inside. Let's not talk abt tt photo inside k, but it was really nice of them to thought of tt!! ThX LyEs!! =)

Went over to taka to eat ice cream. I had durian and choco mint today. The durian is nice!! But provided u muz like durian. Lolx. Rushed down to work after tt.. Tiring day ba. But work was pretty slack. Was v happy today, coz at 12am, several frenz sms me to wish me happy bdae!! Thx to all frenx! =)

Lessons ended early todae too. But there's alot of tutorial todae which makes my day v sianx.. Anyway, today's calvin's bdaE!! Happy BdAe caLvIN!!! Lol, think he wun see this but still hope tt his wishes will come true! =)

One yr passed juz lidat. It wasn't long when I was spending my days in nyjc slacking n now its juz several mths away frm A lvls. Sounds really scary how fast time can pass. That is why I will learn to cherish the present and treasure everything I haf now, be it frenz, family, classmates, -him-, everything.. I juz dun wan to regret anything in future ba.. =)

Anyway, went home straight after sch today. Coz tired frm yest swimming lesson. My thighs are aching now.. too long nv exercise liao I think, one swimming lesson can make me so drained. Lolx. Yar, tt's abt all for today. Below is e neoprint I took with -him-... Wy helped me scan wan..THx DarLing!! =) But duno y they wan e pic also?? HeHex..



Dun need to say u all also noe who is who lah.. If u all got any comments abt the pic feel free to say ok.. =) NitEx ppL..

Weekends can really pass very fast. Ssaturday had juz arrvied and now its monday again. =S But monday is no longer a day I hate, coz e dismissal time is early! =)

Had my first swimming lesson this morning, we were a little late ba. But then e swimming was abit tiring leh, it juz made me realised how long I haven been exercising. Hahaz, but today's swimming lesson passed v quickly ba.

Lessons passed pretty quickly. After sch had a "mini-lye" outing with lao pa, darling, eggie and xiao di. Went to bugis and ate yoshi. After tt I went home le, coz think they might not want me to b ard ba, hahaxXxXx.. =D So I juz guai guai go home lor. =) REached home bathe le den went nap again. -.-

Finally today darling is back in sch wor~ So long nv see her in sch.. missed her alot leh. HeHex.. Anyway, I'm still thinking shld I go for my pdp tml, coz I end at 12, but my pdp starts at 4.30.. Wah... so many hrs to wait hor~ =(

I'm in a v happy mood this week, mainly coz its gonna b a short week. I luv public hols!!! Somemore its on a friday, so it means we will haf a long weekend!! =)

[我爱你] By S.H.E.

从你眼睛看着自己 最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契 是明天的指引
无论是远近什么世纪 在天堂拥抱
或荒野流离 我爱你我敢去
未知的任何命运 我爱你我愿意
准你来跋扈地决定 世界边境
偶尔我真的不懂你 又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密 是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安我就任性 怕泄漏你怕
所以你生气 我爱你让我听
你的疲惫和恐惧 我爱你我想亲
你倔强到极限的心 我撑起所有爱
围成风雨的禁地 挡狂风豪雨
想让你喘口气 被割破的信心
需要时间痊愈 梦想缠着怀疑
未来看不清 就紧紧的拥抱
去传[递]能量和勇气 我爱你
我爱你我想去 未知的任何命运
我爱你让我听 你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你我想亲 你倔强到极限的心
哪里都一起去 一起仰望星星
一起走出森林 一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌 一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己 一起找到意义
我爱你 我不要没有你
我不能没有你 绝不能没有你


Above is juz song lyrics. Go encoding and change to unicode if e words dun appear.. =) Nth much to update so juz post song lyrics up lo..

Haven been updating my blog for days. When sch starts there's nth interesting to blog abt ba. LoL. Sch has been so-so ba. Only difference is tt dArlinG wasn't in sch for 2 days. I duno abt today coz I didnt go sch as well. She seems to be having high fever.. take care and get well soon daring.. We missed ya wor~ Hope to see u soon~ =)

I didn't go sch today. I was seriously late. I overslept. I woke up to realise it was 7am. Damn it, how am I to reAch sch in time? Plus I am too lazy to go take cab. Mummy still owe me e cab fee e other day. Hohoho, so I dun wan waste money anymore. =X How stingy can I get? So I went back to slp lor. One reason is tt there isn't much lessons today so I skip sch lo. Mummy agreed to write parent letter to my teacher.

Anyway, 10 more days to my bdae. =) Not bad right? I am really counting down. Ok lah, I will stop counting down le lah, I tink ppl will juz stop visiting my blog if I continue my childish act. My bdae coming soon means mama bdae coming soon. Duno wad 2 buy for her leh.. Any ideas anyone?

Juz talked to my mama abt sth. She told me my brother was asking her to keep an eye on me. Duhx. He telling my mum to keep an eye on me??? who is the one more worrying? Hahax, close frenx will noe wad I am toking abt ba.. He said I've been coming home late and all tt, but my mum noes its coz I am working lah, tt's y. Plus I've been honest and told my mum tt I haf a bf now, so there's nth much she shld worry abt lah. My kor sae he scare I will become bad. Ermx.. bAD? mE??? Wad a joke. How bad can I be? My frenz are all decent peepz, my classmates are all decent peepz too!!! OMG, he tink too much le lah. -.-

Sch has started and yet I still got some hols hw haven done yet.. siaNx.. haf 2 catch up with sch work as well as hol hw. So lesson learnt is muz do hw nxt hol..LoLx.. There's still a chem test on friday.. Hmm, muz try my best to do well for it.. else rIta wONg wiLL make me drop chem.. (as if I can drop chem now lidat..)

k le lah, enuf craps le.. Gtg n study chem.. *yAwNx*

Went out to study with -him-. Met him in the afternoon and went airport to do homework. There's alot of hols hw I need to complete. Duhx.

Tried to concentrate on my work but then I juz can't concentrate leh.. Duno y leh, think I need some time to get used to studying outside. Coz I think I one yr also nv go out study already, so still not quite used 2 e outside environment. =X Plus no matter wad subject I do, I juz duno how to do? Hai, stupid wad, wad 2 do.

Went off at 6pm lidat to bugis for dinner. Paiseh to -him- coz I wanted to eat dinner. Hmm, felt so guilty lah. Being out with -him- was happy. But when I am alone, I juz felt v scared. Dun ask me wad m I scared of. I juz wish tt sickening feeling will go away. When she was with -him-, she felt v happy. But why don't I get e same feeling when I am with -him-? Why am I only filled with fear? Is there sth wrong with me? I juz wanted a simple relationship, but why is fate playing such a joke with me? *sIgH*

But come to think of it, BGR seems to take up too much of my time. I shall not think too much abt everything le lah. Juz leave it to fate. Wad is meant to be mine will be mine. =S This yr is an impt time for me and -him-, so I hope we can both do well, and stop being bothered by all these.. Sorry for creating so much trouble. I think I haf a serious problem, dun feel like blogging anymore. Tata.

This I Promise You [N Sync]

When the visions around you, bring tears to your eyes
And all that's around you, are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength, I'll give you hope, keeping your faith where its gone
And the one you should call, is standing here all along

And I will take, you in my arms, and hold you right where you belong
'Till the day my life is through, this I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever, in lifetimes before
And I promise you never, will you hurt anymore
I give you my word, I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow forever has now begun

Just close your eyes, each loving day
And know this feeling won't go away, nooo
'Till the day my life is through, this I promise you
This I promise you

Over and over I fall, when I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all

And I will take, (I will take you in my arms), you in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (rite where you belong)
'Till the day my life is through, this I promise you babe

Just close your eyes, each loving day(each loving day)
And know this feeling won't go away, (no)
Every word I say is true, this I promise you

Every word I say is true, this I promise you

Oooh I promise you

Like this song alot. Coz I think got alot meaning in it.. But in reality, promises are often lies.. lies 2 make someone happy. Sometimes I really wish I can be a lesbian. At least juz fall in luv with gals, tt way at least nobody else will be hurt? Hai, actually I duno wad I toking abt also lah, I juz feel v confused.. I am scared.. I am really v scared.. Y does falling in luv means hurting someone else? Can someone juz tell me everything will be alright? Haix.. I also duno wad 2 do now.

Didn't attend sch today. There's just no lesson.

Slept till ard 1+pm. Den went out with -him- to watch movie. Went tampines mall. Bought tix for..

Seed of Chucky


After buying the tix, we went for lunch. After tt juz walk walk ard and went to take neoprints. hahax, first time taking neoprint with -him-. It jus look too funny liaox. Nvm, there's always a nxt time. =)

The movie was not too bad.. Quite sadistic but there isn't much violence involved. Duno why is it NC16 leh. LoLx. Somemore the ticket salesperson wanted to check our IC. Ermx, which part of us doesn't looks like we r over 16????? Damn it, I m turning 18 soon and she doubted my age. -.-

Anyway, its 16 days to my bdae~ LoL, I shall countdown ok? I noe it sounds childish but then I juz wan to find sth to look forward to also mahx~ =) Tt's all for today le ba. Still muz go do hol hw coz I still lagging behind all e work. TaTax..

In a blogging mood todae. Coz I cant slp, so I shall tire myself out totally and haf a good nite slp. =) Shall type my summary of my yr 2004. So if u aren't interested, do leave as I do not wan to bore anyone.


-5th Jan- Started a new sch yr at nyjc. The sch was pretty cool. The environment was not tt bad too. First time I felt like staying on in tt sch.
-22nd Jan- Chinese New Year!! =) My bday as well. Didn't celebrate my bdae. Bad bdae. Didn't got a decent cake from mum. She just bought the wrong cake. But received alot of presents frm my frenx~
-8th Feb- Broke up with weekim today. Think the reason was tt I was tired of waiting for his lessons 2 end everyday. But in actual fact we just had too many quarrels and the feeling was already not e same anymore.
-14th Feb- Who says v day muz b spent with lover? Spent my day with 04A4B ppl at sentosa for cross-country. =) Enjoyed myself and got closer to some of the gals in my class. Thanx every1 for tt wonderful afternoon!
-27th Feb- Release of 'o' lvl results. Got a shock of my life. Din do well for both maths. Broke down n cried even b4 I got my result slip. Weekim accompanied me out after tt.
-12th Mar- 04A4B class bbq. It signify the end of our 1st 3 mths. Missed them alot, they were really grt classmates.
-20th Mar- Posting results out. Posted to tjc. Mixed feelings.
-22nd Mar- Got to tjc. Got my lep too.
-Apr to Jun- Busy sch term. Went out with weekim sometmes. Had LEP camp in june. Fun camp and enjoyed crapping with e gals.
-July- JCT. Failed badly. Haf to meet parent.
-Aug to Sep- Wad went on? Not too sure, memory not tt good.
-Oct- Promos. Results not tt good but can promote.
-2nd Nov- PW OP. Finally pw is over!
-End of Nov- Found a job at marina mandarin. Started out not well, but got quite ok as time passes.
-Dec- Work + Going out. Having money is sure a fantastic feeling. Work got on quite well too. Knew more frenz. Eric told me he like me, I realise I haf a little crush on him too. But nth came out well coz he's attached when he told me he like me. I feel like a bitch. -He- consoled me over this matter.

Tt's all for now. Shall post more if I haf time..

Finally I am back. Haven been blogging for many days. Too lazy to do so. School has already started for me. It was not that bad for the first two days, except I tio caught for dyed hair today. Damn, 2nd day nia, muz so strict meh? =P

Spent nye with -him-. We went to watch "Ocean's twelve". A v complicated movie that I don't understand. Nvm abt tt, more importantly is the company not the plot of the movie. Nth much happened on nye. Juz tt we went to orchard n was sprayed by others pretty badly. Nvm abt tt, lazy to go into details. I only want to mention I had a great nye. I dun need to spend it at home!! Rmb I spend nye counting down online with wanyi n mablerine. Quite a sad sight for 3 of us la..

This post is actually for yanfen. I duno wad happened but I juz want u to noe no matter wad I always luv u n will be there for u.. I mean it when I sae it. U can always turn to me when u need some1 to be there, to listen or juz be there.. U noe I will be there.. Take care..

Ok, I think I need to go back to my hols hw before I run out of time to do them. TaTax.