Todae went out to buy new yr clothes. finally wor. but tis yr i din get alot of money to get my clothes.. which is quite a sad thing la. =( meet dear at ard 1+ to go orchard. go there i first ting is eat. wahahz. u need energy to shop ma. =D

Eat finish le we walked over to heeren there. went to find a skirt i saw wif gracie yesterdae. den see see le try n buy it liaoz. i think it look quite nice ba. =X the skirt nice doesn't mean i wear liao nice lor. hiakz. after tt walked to quite alot of shops.. but dun think i shld elaborate. ppl will get tired. only bought enuf clothes for 4 daes of cny. tt's all. like i said, i went ard wif a small amt of money this yr. haiz. no choice. still wanna get sandals and bag. oh gosh. i m broke already~ so is my mum .. hahaz!

Learnt sth more abt dear todae. haiz. i seems to b v incosinderate lor. i din really tot abt his situation these days. i m getting more n more unreasonable already. i m sorry weekim~ School yesterday was boring also. din attend any lectures. only got some gathering wif my form teacher, or rather civics tutor. he talked alot wor. i realised tt i really need to speak up more. i muz not b tt dull person who did nth in class. like blend into wallpapers. hahz. but still, there's a limit to talking. wahahz.. ok ba, i do hope to get assurance by others tt i m well-liked by them? nvm, i sound sick. i dun even noe wad i m talking abt.

I tink i finished already. nth to sae anymore. go watch tv le. cya byebye!

One week nv update le. too tired all the time ma. hahaz. anywae, after last wed, lessons started already. =( no more chance to haf fun!!! anywae, i'm in arts stream, taking econs, geo and maths. coz of only taking 3 subjects, i dun need to attend too many lectures. nyjc haven started tutorials yet. they only put us in our Civics Tutorial class le, but haven started anything -.-''' Heard tt many other schs haf started full gear in studying le, we still slacking away..

Since last thurs, my dismissal time is early, i mean early lor. last thurs we dismiss abt 2+pm. but weiling, grace n me went off earlier and ate sakae together wif dear at bishan. =D we had buffet, and ate ALOT!! duno how we managed to eat so much.. we juz ate till stomach can burst wan .. haha~ but nice to crap there ba.

My dismissal time.. for this week is quite ok. earliest is 8.40am n latest is 4+pm.. wahahahz.. and 8.40 is on fridae! =) really slacking man, where got sch so early dismiss wan? coz fridae i dun even haf any lecture, only CT nia. so thinking abt whether to do or not. hahaz~ 4+pm is tml wor..haf 2 attend talks tt's y it's lidat. b0rinG!!! perhaps can pon ? =X anywae, meet up wif dear almost everydae, except todae. coz i too sian n nth to do ma. so meet up wif him to pass time, oh gosh, how fun it is to dismiss so early.. =) but i guess nxt week onwards no more early dismissal liaoz.

I am excited! one more week to chinese new yr wor. it means my birthdae also! =) Very happy tt my bdae happens to be the new yr wor. nan de can haf such coindence lor. coz chinese new yr dun usually fall on jan. But it also means i can't really celebrate my bdae as chinese new yr is busy time for everyone wor~ =|.. but nvm, i still await tt dae to come.. hahaz... nitez.. go off liaoz..

Last dae of orientation. TIRED!!!!! really is no energy liaoz. Full of games n stuffs. no talks at all todae. had some clan games firstly in e morning. din really get to play much. coz there were juz too many ppl ard. =S after tt was some building cans structure stuff while other og come n destroy ur structure.. haAz.. bo liao game. stand under sun somemore. den went for mass dance liaoz. saw weiling in e hall lehz.. haha.. but todae nv get to change partner, had the same cchs partner as yesterdae... v lame wan la.

i felt stupid. tried to learn the dance, but somehow alwaes forget some steps. mayb i m lousy at dancing la.. no choice lor. i juz cut everything short. dance finish is lunch. den choose subject combi. chose econs, maths, geo. din get lep nor HCL.. enuf of chinese liao le la. den some station games, lame onli .. tired us out somemore. =S

After tt is cca bazzar.. nth much fun... intending to join either netball or odac. =) i wan sports liaoz.. no more indoor clubS!!! i wan to make more frenz.. n learn to socialise? hahaz.. i dun wan to remain the "wallpaper" meaning i blend in wif crowds.. i wan to haf my own decision, own fun! =)

Evening is dinner.. ate pizza. n had coke. den we went to old campus there haf disco nite. -.-''.. din dance much, like i said i cant dance n din find a nice partner. i think i m still not socialise enuf wor.. nvm la.. i will trY!!! =) tt's all for todae.. now tired.. go slp le.. nitez..

Second dae of orientation. *tIrEd* Quite alot of tiring activities todae. Was abit late todae. had mass dance again. Partner wif some cchs guy~ =S.. aiy0 duno y i alwaes pair up wif cchs ppl? ha|z.. quite ok lor.. din really dance well also. Learnt some new dance again.. but the song is quite nice la. but i felt stupid wor. coz wearing sch skirt, den jump or move also got hp inside heavy heavy. stupid hp.

Den is some station games. 1st game is step balloons. lamE!!!! my gosh, i m quite afraid of balloons, somemore muz step on others.. no way.. my balloon burst quite fast. i no skill ma. but my clan still won. =) 2nd game is some kind of ball games similar to captain's ball.. i luv captain's ball! i enjoyed myself at the game alot. finally got a chance to run ard playing ball after so long.. i really love the feeling of running.. playing "captain's ball".. tt feeling is sth i cant describe out.. its juz amazing .. =)

After tt is lunch. drank two bottles of water.. =S water pail ar.. i thirsty ma. den is some subject combi talk. den realised my lep wasn't approved. well.. duno wad to sae.. abit sad lo. but l1r5 no good wad u expecT? den haf duno wad pageant.. choosing hunks n babes. gosh. how er xin. the hunk n babe of 2004 orientation r b0th GUYS!!! gAyS!!!! hahaz..

TT's abt all for todae. after sch went meet dear, yes dear, me n him patch last nite. he asked one.. hahaz.. ok la, not playing lor.. but quite of weird to b alone ba. den we went eat dinner.. talked abt our dae, den go back home liaoz.. reached at ard 9pm.. wah.. todae v tired lehz.. duno y .. tink i go slp earlier liaoz.. tml long long dae.. wif disco at nite.. hahaz.. taAz..

First dae of sch.. Orientation todae. Long long day wor.. haiz. was on time to sch. saw alot of ppl. also saw many ppl frm my sec sch wan.. haAz.. but only got 3 ppl frm my class? hmm.. like all classmates went other schs le. they started some bo liao games, inviting ppl onto stage to play game. -.-'''

After tt got speech by principal, heng tok only for a while. =) den we watched a skit performed by our clan in charge.. quite funny.. =D after tt was ice breaker. gotta intro ourselves. hate to do such bo liao stuffs. coz ppl cant pronounce my name. nvm lor. used to it le. den haf clan time. leaders taught us play some games, some cheers, sch song also.. LoLxXxX.. the song sounded weird? or juz the leaders not too good in singing la.. like abit out of tune? =P den is tour ard the sch. sch quite big, new, but not complete yet. -.-''' dun collapse wor. i scare scare wan. *BlEahZ* well.. tt's the boring morning..

Lunch time at 11+pm.. heEz.. finally no need interact le. bought porridge, it taste quite awful. not like my mum's. lost my appetite liaoz. din eat finish den throw le. haiz. msg dear opps.. nono, is weekim while having lunch. asked his dismissal time. almost same as mine. asked him for dinner. hahaz.. cant control myself. wan to find some1 pei coz i told my mama i not going home for dinner. cant tink of any1 better so msg him.

After lunch was university talk. boring lor.. somemore hall is air-conditioned, so more easy to slp. wahahaz... but din slp lor. cant slp? den was mass dance. =S boy n gal partner. initially was paired wif this VS guy. den due to ht difference, i was paired wif Leo frm 4rp frm cchs. Leo was suaned abt his ht~ hA|z.. meAn of those leaders.. bring short is not wad we wan wan ma.. den learn some lame dance. din dance. Leo n me was yin chou-ing those leaders. =D finally 5pm can go home le.

Walked out to bus stop wif gracie n mindy. den went over to paya lebar meet weekim for dinner. ate ljs. at first nth much to tok also. after tt started chatting. feels abit weird, coz i still not so comfortable? we break le ma. h0h0z. den chatted alot of craps. eat le walked to take bus 26 home. din expect him to send me home, but he did. oh well. duno wad 2 sae also. in a mess la. i still do wish to continue the relationship, but is i sae break ma, so juz accept it as it is lor. muz save face. i wun ask for patch up. like small kid play game meh? break n patch.. unless he really wan? if not i think juz let it b lor.. mayb juz let fate decides. wad's meant to b urs will b urs..

Reached home abt 9pm watch tv, den come update blog. gtg le la, cya.. me go slp le.. nitEz..

I m back again.. to put in some quotes i found frm forwarded e-mails.. quite true? haha, at least to me la.. to others mayb not true...

The feeling of love starts from the eyes,
And the feeling of like starts from the ears.

So if u stop liking the person u used to like,
All u need to do is cover your ears.
But if u try to close your eyes,
Love turns into a drop of tear and remains in your heart forever....

Sundae. Great dae i guess? Haz.. Well, update abt last nite first. Talked to dear ONLINE.. yea, i dread toking online. coz somehow i cant get my msg across. Talked to him abt got problem between us. Duno wad to sae also. in a complete mess. my mind is all messed up. told him abt alot of things.. but my conclusion is to breakup. =| reasons are bcoz i m a burden to him, there is lack of communication between us. i duno wad to sae actually.. its a long story. dun wan bore ppl out. juz writing here tt we broke up le. it was a peaceful breakup. no quarrels, no yelling, well, wad can u expect frm online chatting? yelling? nah.. fake.. online stuffs r all fake.. i hate to explain more le ba.. still in process of healing.. =)...

Cried b4 slping on bed tis morning 7am. but i really feel very calm, i din really hate him or wad, its juz tt there's no longer communication le ba.. Woke up 9am todae.. ate porridge den go wif mama to auntie hse.. to pray to grandma. Only got me this grandchild there.. all my cousins not there.. my kor even no need to sae.. =X i feel stupid hahaz.. =D... only i went.. but its better to go out dan to stay home anyhow think ba.

Ate lunch wif aunties n mum n dad there. funny, din get chance to eat wif mum n dad at home, but only at auntie hse den got chance.. hAAz.. watched abit tv liao den my cousins come.. den my aunties n my mum started chatting abt new year eve.. reunion dinner.. ha|z. din wan to listen. only wan to go home. but mummy dun wan go.. -.-''' finally 3pm we come home. went ntuc bought some stuffs.

Now at home le. nth much to do. later still muz go pack bag. hope tml orientation will turn out nice =).... i think i need to divert my energy out liao.. checked orientation grps last nite. found out my pri sch fren in same grp as me?? haha... finally i find some1 i knew. *pHeW* but so many yrs also nv tok duno can tok tml not? at least now i need not intro myself to so many ppl.. haAAz..

*i hAtE 2 aDmiT tiS, bUt i d0 feEL aBiT sAd? bUt eVerYtHinG's 0veR.. sCh rEStArTing.. n0w i cAn hAf a nEw LifE.. n g0 0n 2 sEaRcH f0r s0mE1 beTTeR.. s0me1 pErfECt..i d0 miSS hIm, bUt iT dUn maTTeR, hE wUn c tIs aLs0..*

Slept early last night. so i woke up quite early todae.. but also noon liao.. hahaz. no difference. went chinatown wif mummy todae. nth to do at home ma, plus she nv work todae. reached chinatown to walk walk there to look at new yr stuffs.. quite alot of people there.. makes me sweat alot, coz walked under the sun n no air-con .. hahaZ *S|AnZ*

Mummy bought some things tt she wan den we walked out of tt few streets tt sell new yr stuffs. but wad came nxt was worst. we walked towards a sea of ppl.. well, which singaporean isn't kaypo? so is my mum. we heard ppl sae got wad show on there, plus got firecrackers. den mama sae wan stay there n watCH!!!!!! -.-''' haiz.. no choice lor.. i stood there like idiot for abt 1+hrs.. before the ceremony actually starts. *sCrEaMzZ* stood there till my legs both very very tired.. haiz~

When the ceremony started, i cant c anything.. wad to do, who ask me so short? i complained to mummy but she sae we waited so long so might as well wait n c lor.. =( finally i HEARD the firecrackers.. really too many ppl ard.. after burning of firecrackers, got performance.. =) okie ba, first is lion dance.. hmmm, once again c tt lion dance troupe got alot of ah bengs.. =X coz all those colored hair plus they more g00d-looking dan normal guys? hahaz, sorry, but i do think tt bengs shld b more better looking? coz last time my kor mixed ard wif those lion dance troupes ppl .. den his frenz all better looking than my own sch wan.. wahahaz... =X better shut up b4 i get beaten up..

the performance lasted for abt an hr.. den mama n me went eat dinner.. wad the.. dinner at 9pm!! everywhere also so many ppl... =S.. no choice.. anyhow find some coffeeshop n eat.. den sit NEL back home le.. wah.. todae tiring, stood for duno how many hrs.. i told my mum den i m not ever going to chinatown wif her to c such stuffs.. hahaA~

ok le ba.. tt's all for todae.. going to chat wif frenz le.. tAtaz..

Todae everyone starts sch liaoz~ only me home nth to do wor. me nv really did much stuffs. woke up le already noon liao. packed my cupboard to clear those rubbish worksheets tt were stuck inside for yearS~ hAAz.. alot of dust. =X i also duno wad i threw, i juz dump wadeva i tink is not of any use. todae wanted to go out, but tot tt better help clear my own stuffs, if not mama gonna scold me againz..

My mum nv cook dinner todae. coz when she home frm work already 5pm le. so i agree when dear called to ask me go out haf dinner together. =) went out ard 6pm den met dear at kallang mrt. saw alot of students everywhere... felt abit weird. coz nyjc haven start sch yet, due to some renovation. starting sch only on 5th jan. haiz. so bored. dinner was kfc. i swore not to eat kfc for a mth wan.. now already more than a month is over.. hahaz.. so eat lor.

eat finish le den go home watch tv liaoz. din continue to pack stuffs.. mayb clear more sutffs tml lor.. hmm.. gtg liaoz. nth to update. byez

Happy new yr!! hAaz.. =D its new yr lia0z... first entry of the yr... its a tradition to make resolution at the start of the yr. but tis yr i doubt i haf any resolution.. =X Anywae todae i woke up late again.. woke up faster go bathe to go out buy stuffs for new sch yr..

Went to toa payoh popular. coz near ma, somemore weekim tml got sch liaoz.. not like me... start sch on mon~ hahaZ~ =) but we were both hungry so rushed to eat first. ate mac double fillet-o-fish meal. tt person dun let me upsize. =(.. in e end i ended up wif a regular size coke. hate coke alot.!! but no choice liao lor.. make do wif it.

Eat finish le me went collect my contact lens. hMMm.. they r ready liaoz.. but abit not used to it. coz like cant c very clearly yet. but its cool to haf a new pair of contact lens. haAz.. cant make disposable wans coz tt optician sae my astigmatism degree too high le, den disposable can't suit.. haiz.. ma fan~ After tt went popular buy pens. but they ran out of g-tec blue pens.. haiz.. so cant buy yet. they also dun haf any more lead left.. wahahaz.. =( nvm lor, juz bought those things tt r available den i went home le..

Hmmm... every1 starting sch tml le.. wish u all haf a fun dae at sch tml k? i will misS dear w0r... HahAz... tAke CarE eVery1~