Happy Birthday to Dear Dear~

Sorry for the lack of celebration due to exams. I promise I will make up for you after my exams.

Stepped out of house for the week.

Went to get something for dear.

Went to Hougang mall to meet him for the family celebration tonight. He took half day leave, so we met pretty early.

Walked around Hougang Mall.

Went to eat at Ichiban Sushi.

Pictures of food.

Very exp fried mushroom


Egg sushi


This pic is abit funny cos it's eaten halfway before I remember to take pic.

Eaten sushi


Tori karage


Can't remember what was that.

Scallop sushi?


His favourite.

Soft shell crabs


Unagi sushi


Found this at Hougang Mall. Bought it immediately. =)

Bottle


Hopefully will bring me luck for my exams!! Shan't use the old things I used when I was in JC.

I am just trying to tell myself I'll be lucky. I need lots of luck this time!

This was what I bought for him. Of cos, not only this!

His present


Not yet opened. Hopefully he'll wait till I'm around then he open. =)

Taken at the sushi place.

Him


Me


After the dinner, we walked around before heading to the vegetarian restuarant.

While waiting for his family, forced him to take pics with me.

I guess nobody can stand me! Always want to take pics. I like to keep evidence of memories and remember events... =)

Us @ vegetarian restuarant


Again


Happy 4 months to both of us!


Got bored.

Table


Food


Dinner was fast. Everybody looked busy.

His dad sent us home.

Took a pic of a taxi model in his dad taxi.

Taxi


Very cute right?!?!?!

Haha, I think it looks very real~

The night ended bad, because of my stupidity. Inferiority.

I don't understand why must I be so stupid and spoil things myself all the time.

I cherish him and the relationship alot. But I always ended up doing silly things to spoil it. This is already not the first time.

I thought that letting him go will be the best solution. Even though I will be unhappy and upset, but that's how I perceive myself. It turn out this will not be the best solution. It is definitely my inferioriy acting on me. Studying OB didn't help me. I just keep perceiving myself.

I am not sure will it be too late to salvage things now. I hope it's not too late. I will try my best to do whatever I can.

Sometimes I am simply stupid. For past relationships, people gave up on me. I was upset.

Now, there is someone who is doing his best not to give up on me, yet I keep pushing him away. What am I trying to do? I will gain nothing from all these. I know.

Now I really have to learn to cherish people around me when I still can. I need to press down my inferiority.

I want to be happy. I want everyone to be happy. Hopefully it's not too late.

Lastly, Happy 4 Months together dear. =)

Happy 4 months dear. =)

Studying in progress.

Getting abit stress, as the exam date draws nearer.

So, to destress, take photo of myself.

*Sweatz*

Some big ass photos of myself.







Finished destressing. Time for some tv now.

Updates for friday.

Went for last OB lecture. What an achievement.

Wasted my time.

Should have stayed home to sleep.

The lecturer was so fast in his slides that I decided to take a pic, go home and copy.

I succeeded!!

Lecture slide


Clear!!

So I took my classmate's notes to go home copy as well. I thought it won't turn out clear, but when I open in comp, it's more clear than ever!! A pity I didn't take more pics of his notes.

Classmate's notes


Dear bought something for me. As a reward for me cos I went for lecture today. Lol.

Laptop cooler


Thanks alot~

Now my laptop won't be so hot, and it won't burn so fast! =)

Time to go back to notes.

Skip this post if you don't wish to see me.

Lol.

Went school for morning lecture today!!!!

Was so proud of myself!!

I actually woke up for morning lecture~

Though I feel like killing the lecturer for having this make-up lecture. =X

My mood became better when he released us earlier.

Went to cut hair.

Hot weather.

Post some pics of myself.

Yep, I am vain.

I admitted that many many years ago. =P

Shorter length


Most satisfied pic


W/O specs


Bunny teeth


That's all for the day!!

Booked tickets for Spiderman 3.

Looking forward to watching it. I never used to like Spiderman. For you, I will watch it. Just for you =)

Good luck for exams~

Hope my new hairstyle will bring me luck. *Pray*

New start of the week again.

Think I forgot to post this picture last time.

A new mouse for laptop bought by him. Thanks~ =)

Mousey

Something very sad happened during the weekends.

Updates about the weekend.

Went for movie at Tampines Mall with him on saturday.

Watched "Sunshine".

It was quite a nice movie, except there's some scienece involved.

Before the movie, we had lunch at Ajisen. Nice nice.

After the movie, while I was buying stationery at Popular, he received some news.

We went down asap.

Before we could get a cab, .....

I don't want to elaborate further.

Everything is over.

Cherish everyone around you while you can.

................

The new week has come, time to go back to my routine chores.

I wished my life is a little more interesting. I need a break.

Why must I be like that? I am supposed to be contented with life, but I am not.

It's me again.

What is the meaning of love? How does one display love?

Making your loved one happy?

Sacrificing yourself to make your loved one happy?

Giving sweet love? Giving unconditionally?

Standing beside your loved one through thick and thin?

Even when your loved one love someone else, you still give your love?

Willingness to accomodate any wrongdoings of your loved one? Always ready to forgive and forget your loved one?

There are many ways of displaying love, am I displaying it?

Towards my family, my friends, him...

Have I done anything for anyone?

Compared to many others out there, I am worthless.

Yes I am worthless and useless.

Then what's the point of typing all these out?

I suppose I need somewhere to vent my frustrations out. Too many things running through my mind. Things happened too suddenly that I need time to accept.

I want to be optimistic.

Feeling sick.

Bad headache.

Weird feeling inside the stomach.

Throwing up gastric juices.

...............

Hopefully I can get well soon.

Can everything come to an end?

I am tired of going through the same things all over again.

Hopefully this time I can handle the situation better than last time.

I will try my best.

Something you not happy with? Close one eye.

If you still not happy, close two eyes.

If you tried both methods and they don't work, pretend the thing don't exist.

Still not satisfied?

Pretend you don't exist. (When you don't exist, the thing will not bother you.)

If all methods failed, just leave.

Fever.

Sick.

Burning.

Had a bad night yesterday.

Was so sick that I don't even have energy to watch tv.

=(

I don't like this feeling.

Got better today but my body still aches.

It's a long weekend in front of me, yet I doubt I can enjoy much.

I hate this feeling.

The burning feeling disturbs my sleep and makes me think too much.

=(

I want to get well soon.

This is really such a bad week.

This week had been unlucky for me though it's only tuesday today.

Overslept for morning lecture yesterday. Alarm clock rang but my phone was on silent mode. In the end I didn't hear the alarms and morning calls from dear.

Dear was fed up with me... =(

Went back to school in the afternoon to hand in my assignment. On the way, I suddenly remembered that I didn't bring the assignment cover along. I didn't turn back home to get it as I will be late in handing in my assignment.

Decided to head to school to print the cover sheet.

Met my classmates at computer lab. Was told that they ran out of papers at the lab. *OMG* Went to library to get my cover sheet printed. Long wait and some hiccups in the process.

When I finally printed the cover sheet, I realised I didn't bring any pen along!!! What a great way to begin my week.

Bought a new pen. Handed in my assignment and my adventure to school ended peacefully. Or so I thought.

While waiting for transport, some bird decided to relieve itself and it got onto my leg. *ARGH* I nearly screamed my lungs out. I still wanted to head to dear's house from school and this had to happen. =(

Luckily the journey to Tampines was smooth. Headed to his house cos he was sick. Watched VCDs, do computing homework, eat dinner there.

Took a cab home. The cabby driver decided to drive at a speed of 120km/h. To make things worse he had to brake several times along the expressway. OMG. I nearly puke my dinner out. *puke*

Was feeling giddy at night. Went to sleep earlier than usual.

Started tuesday pretty normal.

Headed to school early in the morning.


Was late for class.

Class ended.

When I was waiting for bus home, I couldn't find my ez-link card. Ran all the way back to my class venue to search for my card, but still could not find it. Along the way I missed a step on the staircase and fell down. =( Luckily nobody was around to see how pathetic I was.

Finally reached home in one piece to blog about all these incidents. Hopefully no more unlucky events will happen.

Update for the weekend.

Met dear on saturday afternoon for movie. Watched "The Number 23". Ultimate s-l-o-w show. Nearly fell asleep at the middle of the show. =X

Anyway, there's this new combo called Cheezy Pasta at GV now. It tastes nice!! Maybe cos I like pasta and cheese. =)

Before the movie saw an ex-colleague. Didn't quite expect to see her there. Let go of dear's hand cos I didn't want to embarrass him. Well, end up she didn't see me.

Saw more ex-colleagues after the movie. They pretended not to see me. So be it. I don't like people who stabbed me too.

After the movie we went to Best Denki to ... BUY LAPTOP. MinE!!!!

So excited for the whole week. Cos I am going to pay for it myself! It's going to be mine~ No more fighting of PC. Cos this is mine.

Bought it and went his house.

Pictures time!!

The new laptop..

Cover


Screen


After waiting for half an hour, the system finally starts.

Startup


While waiting for dear to get my laptop up, I suddenly thought of taking pictures.

Me


Of cos my dear wasn't forgotten though he's busy installing my laptop! =)

Setting up my laptop


Forced to take pic with me


Smile~


Better!


Finally he decided to let me take pics together. =P

Us


Again


My new toy again.

In use


Dear + his laptop


This pic is taken by dear. He said I look like a ghost. =(

Me + my laptop


Dear flared up on saturday. Wow, fierce. =X Luckily not at me. Though I did make him angry on friday and he did flare up at me. =X

Been watching "My Date With A Vampire 3". Nice show!!! I like!!! =)

Was talking to mum just now.

Laptop, school fees, boyfriend, etc.

I have to admit she is nice when she is not naggy. We are on the same frequency. Maybe I likes mum because she is spoiling me badly.

I am glad mum finally tells me that she doesn't dislike Terrence. We had a long talk and we clarified things out.

I think I am growing up, at least learning to grow up.

Felt so much like giving her a big bear hug, but didn't cos it's too mushy. =X

By the way, it's not mummy who's paying for my laptop.

I guess the next time I want to argue with mum, I should try to talk to her and reason things out first. She needs to know I am growing up and thinking for her too.

New thought for the week: We should try to learn not to let anger blind us and say hurtful things to spite our loved ones, we should always listen to our heart and speak from the heart. =)