Like the title implies, I am still alive. Just lack of updates. Couldn't really find the motivation to update abt things in my life.
Probably Mr TT is going to say, "What's there for u to update? Except living in your own world n time."
Yep, I am awake when others sleep, sleep when others awake. BUT I still attend my very-expensive lectures and do my projects with my mates. The only thing I did not do is to read my lectures beforehand. Well, just not that diligent yet.
I do NOT want to be like this either. But the bio clock refuses to tune back to Singapore +8:00 timing. I wanted to consult a doctor about it, but well, the clinic opens only for that several hours while I am away in class or dreamland.
Everytime Mr TT wakes up, he'll scold me for playing games/watching dvds. But the game part was only during the CNY period. Now mostly I do my readings / rushing projects while keeping the dvd playing.
I know he does not like me to be awake while he is asleep, but I cannot help it either. I am trying to tune back, only to make it worst. All he did was to be angry with me and angrier and angrier everytime he realises I am awake at wee hours.
It makes me helpless and frustrated when I toss n turn in the bed without feeling a tiny bit of sleepiness. Thus, I turned to other activities to pass my time instead.
Try putting yourself in my shoes the next time you want to scream at me. Try downing a jug of caffine and sleep in an hour's time. Try waking in the late afternoon and tell yourself to sleep at midnight. With only that few hours of mild activities, how will the body ever feel like resting?! I know you can sleep definitely even in those situations, but I am not you. Not yet.
All I need is a little more encouragement and medical help, not constant anger and frustrations vented on me. If these still carry on, you're only pushing me to move back home, to my home sweet home. Maybe it'll be better for all.