Juz had bananas dipped in heated chocolate spread.. The taste is...

NicE!!!!!!!! Heavenly..

But then.. it reminded me of someone. =X Haha, memorieS. =X Wished I can store those things tt I want to store, and nth elsE.. =X

Anyway.. I wish... I really wish... Nvm lah, wish say out le wun zhun de.. =P

Gtg lE... BOrinG daY ToDaY.

PluS: HappY bDaY YiLiN!! =P Happy laBour DaY to ALL .. =)

Came home after lunch todaY without bringing home with me my brain. =X *sCreAmz*

Broke two cups, one at the basin and one in e fridge. =X What am I doing??? Not only that, I threw away my "precious moments" de chopsticks after I ate dinner todAY!!! OMG, this is already not e first pair of "precious moments" de chopsticks I threw awaY.. *aRh*

I wonder why didn't I threw myself away instead. I can't believe I am so blur these two days. MAy my brains come back, I dun wan to lose anymore precious things.. =X

AnyWay, the long weekend is finally here!!!!! =) Muz make good use of this chance to rest n enjoy mysElf.. =p

Went to school today but left my brain at home. Haha. Wad a joke. =X

Shall explain why I made tt statement. I left two things around in school today. Firstly, I left my precious schedule book in GP tutorial room. =P Luckily I sorta rmb where did I left my organiser at, else I will haf a hard time trying to search for iT! LoL.. Secondly, I left my water bottle in chem lab 1. DOtZ.. Duno why I will leave my bottle there loh, somemore e lab was locked up when I try to go search for my bottle. -__-''' This is the first time I ever left my things ard in sch ba, as in forgot to take my things.. Somemore twice in a daY! So unlucky! =X I really muz have left my brain at home.

Group PE was cancelled due to the heavy rain tis morning~ Hahah. So good lor..no need play tennis. Not tt I dun like to play, but juz er.. Nvm. No PE is great for me.

Anyway, today Miss Wong gave us a nagging session again. No, correction, should be a small lecture. Actually I can't really find the right words to describe her ba, sometimes I really love her, but sometimes I think she is juz.. v irritatinG. =X I know she meant well, I know she wanted to motivate us to work hard in her own way. I really think after today, I can't bring myself to dislike her anymore. Neither can I bring myself to dislike Chan CW anymore. They really do mean well for us, even though the ways they use may not be well-liked by us. I really do appreciate the things they did for us ba, coz our class is really not an easy class to teach.

I am juz v tired.. Physically and emotionally. I need to rest.

YeaH finally wednesday is here~ =) That means two more days to weekend~ .. LoLz..

Anyway, today after school went to tm to find poonie daRLing. Pei her go buy present for joyce. Haha, the presents belong to one color lo.. BTH!! =X Anyway went subway for dinner with her. YeP, subway is nice!!! Wahaha.. Dun ask me why I dun eat subway in sch, coz maybe I tink its .. juz not e same as eating subway at subway. =P Moreover I can choose the type of bread I want at subway, but not in sch. K laH, shall not compare so much. Tired le also.

Anyway read someone's blog juz now. I realised that there are juz some ppl out there that are juz taking things for granted. To them, spending guy's money is their responsibility. Maybe they should consider the guy's feelings as well? Hmm, maybe I am not in the rite position to comment much ba, coz I duno e whole story either. But its juz surprising that a guy's tolerance level can be so high. =X Ok, shall not kpo ppl's business. =X

Went home n felt v v v hot le. Tink its about time I fall sick after so many boxes of durians last wk. =p I feel like I m emitting heat lidAt.. BtH.. Juz feel v slpy and wan to slp le.. Think I shall not blog anymore. Slp early, v v v tired.

Monday blues!! Unlucky monday. =X Couldn't board bus 31 early morning coz it was too packed. In e end had to take e later 31. Thought I was going to be late, but luckily I wasn't~

PE was.. interval training. I hate it! Coz they made us run and walk, run and walk. =X Can kill ppl de wor.. I rather run 2.4km for e PE teachers than to run 1.6km lidat!! LoLz.. Nearly puke at the last round. =X

After PE, offered cookies to lyeS~ LoLz, its my first time baking cookies so think its rather ugly and got weird taste. Wahahaz, wanted to take pic of my cookies de, but decided not to post them here coz they really look ugly =x Some people still said my cookies look like.. MOONCAKES. -__-''' Maybe this is going to be my first and last time baking cookies. =X LoLz..

Today's tutorial seem to pass pretty fast! Even physics also v fast wor.. =)

After sch went kfc ate lunch. Wanyi darling suddenly started braiding her hair.. I'm not sure why but I started to follow her as well.. Hmm.. we even went to the extent of.. Taking a pic of us two in braids! LoLz..



LoL, I know we two look v funny, but then we were only playing for fun nia. ChenYu was telling us tt we look like those holland women who milk cows. -__-''' LoLz.. Do we look like we're going to milk cowS? =P

After lunch went bugis walk walk.. Bought some stationery for myself. After tt pei xiao mei went back tj. I can't believe myself, I actually bothers to go back to bedok from bugis. =X So fAr.... Bugis is way nearer to my hse~ Duno wad's wrong with me either. =X

Went home den realise mummy nv buy dinner. She's going to visit my cousin, so she nv buy anything for me. HoHoHo.. So dao mei! In e end also haf to go get dinner myself.

Think tt's abt all for today. Shall slp early today coz my knee is aching already. I am sure its not due to the PE today. Hope it will stop aching !!

My classmate asked me a question the other day. It set me thinking abt alot of things.

Had been doing some soul-searching on my own. Finally I came up with a conclusion. If only I could turn back time. But nope, life is always lidat de. So now I can only look forward.

Another boring day at home. Duno why my weekends are always so boring de. Ok lah, enuf of grumbling, shall go and slp le lah..

Looking forward to nxt weekend coz there's labour day holidaY!!! Lolz..

Poonie darling changed her blog layout.. Its v niceE!! I wanted to change too, but then I too lazy to le.. =P

Nth much to blog nowadays, life is really boring. =P Poonie rejected to going out with me todaY. Shall complain abt her !! Hahaz, no la jk. Too bored le so blog nonsense.

*sCreaMz* I am bored to death today. Stayed home e whole day, trying to complete my tuts. Hahaz, but think I watched more tv than doing tutorial.

Slept quite late ytd nite. Was chatting with poonie online. Quite alot of things was in my mind, so I had no choice but to think abt those things.

Now, I think I finally sort out a lot of things. Somehow I wish I am stronger than what I am now, coz I juz need alot of energy for everything tt's going on in my life. If only I can do something to make everything right.. Useless me.

I think I have to go out tml in order to keep myself busy from thinking negative. Shall not blog anymore. TaTa..

Finally got time to blog. Coz today v obedient stayed back in sch to do my maths tut, so now shall grant myself some time to blog~ =)

Wanted type this some days ago le.. But somehow I didn't really know how to phrase properly. Hope u all will bear with me.

To me, I think that rejection is like a cycle. Some people get rejected and don't quite know how to handle their emotions well. Therefore they might tend to do silly things. Yes, I do agree that after being rejected, one will definitely feel upset about it. Some people will feel that he is not good enough for the other party tt's why he got rejected.

Most people will divert energy to other areas so that thet won't have to keep thinking abt the sad things. Well, if the energy is diverted to the right area, then congrats. Sad to say some peoeple still go the wrong path.

After being rejected, besides being sad, one will feel that he/she is not good. He/she might think that its the appearance that matters. He/she might go to the extent of changing his appearance. His ultimate motive is just to show the person who rejected him what he had lost. Well, I cannot say improving oneself is wrong, but then, what's the point of changing your appearance when u know that the person who didn't like u in the past will not like u in future as well? If the person really like u after u become a better-looking person, are u sure u want to be together with that kind of person?

In bgr, I don't deny that some people do go for looks. But for frenz around me, I am sure they don't go for looks. So, even if u think u have lost, u only lose due to character or feelings, not looks. Please do not be foolish and think that looks are the most important thing in the world. You did not get rejected due to looks, please do stop worrying frenz who really care.

Cherish those people around u when they are around. You will find that life isn't that dark after all.

Love isn't that important after all either. A person can say he loves u one day, and cheat on u the next. Pardon me for being pessimistic, but that's just how I feel.

I am not someone who takes initiative. I am not someone who bothers to put in effort on my own accord.

If I ever do put in effort into something, it must be of certain importance to me. But if I get nth in return, I will stop putting in effort. If the result I get is something that will make me upset, then, why should I continue to put in effort?

Things that make me upset may not be things that make others upset. I admit that I am childish in certain ways and I always do silly things. But that's just my way of life.

Hoobastank - The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Going to type a long post today. Coz a lot of things to update ba.

Friday

School ended at 12pm. Den we got back our pw results.. I got a band 2~ Hmmm, nth to be disappointed ba, coz I didn't really expect myself to get a 2. Thought that I might get a 3 or even 4. =X Coz tt time during pw I din really put in a lot of effort, and my grp was really slow... Others are already writing their written report but we are still... Coming up with what to write in our written report.. =X LoLz.. But all are over already. Glad to noe tt at least now no more worries/nightmares abt pw. =)

Went lunch at LJS with some of e lyes before heading back sch for sports day. Actually is coz Mr Ho said he isn't going to be there, so he want me to take attendance. Well, I got tricked!!! Haha, coz no need take attendance de, juz e school lied ~

But then I still quite of wanted to go back n watch de, coz since I no chance take part, I shall watch. =) Duno why tis yr nv sign up to take part in the sports day, coz last yr I told myself I will join in yr 2 de.. =X But I can't run fast also mahz, so don't know what can I take part in also.. Lolz.. But its over le also.

Anyway, the most interesting part of the sports meet was the cheerleading part!! Its really v nice wor.. Thought tt alpha hse will win de, coz they got a lot of stunts n all tt, but read frm allan's blog tt it's delta hse which won~.. Weird, coz delta didn't really do much stunts, maybe its e formation more nicer.

During the sports meet, we were pretty bored, so... We took out hp and started taking pics lohZ~ =P But I didn't post all those group pics we took, but can go wanyi's blog see wor~

Star made up by e gals' fingers~ =)


Haha, the star is nice rite? Lol, wanyi wanted to take tt pic long ago liaoz, but then don't know how come we only take it now. Hohoho, the fingers belong to wanyi, yilin and Rachel de. Wanna guess which fingers are mine?? I don't even know the answer myself. =X More pics below..

YiLin and mE~ See her "ghostly" fAce.. =X


YiLin and me again~ HaHa, both of us look so ugly heRe~ =P


Really bth yilin wor. Kept making ghost face. In e end I bth until I joined her to make ghost face.. =P

We left the school at ard 6pm, before the thing ends.. Took train home.. had quite a tiring day wor~

Saturday

Went out with Kai Cheng to watch movie. Booked tix online for "Infection".



But forgetful me didn't remember to copy down confirmation id. Den had to call mummy to ask.. And blur blur de mummy read e numbers upside down.. No wonder e numbers she told me was weird. LoLz.. =D

Had my fav de nachos combo again~ =)

The movie was pretty weird ba, again I don't quite understand. =X

My next targeted movie will bE...

CrEEp!


Anyone wanna watch tt with mE??? Wahahaz.. Think no one will bother abt me de, coz creep is somehow a horror show. But if anyone wan watch muz ask me along ok.. =) HeHez..



Nothing much today. Juz stayed at home and tried to do some work.. But well, I think I didn't really accomplish much lor.. =X Cannot slack le lah!

Had been a spoilt brat today. Kor ate e drumstick meant for my dinner. As usual, I kicked up a fuss over it. So, poor mummy had to buy a pack of drumstick chicken rice for me as dinner. =X I know I am being childish here, but then I just don't like other people to take away my things without asking. The drumstick may not contain my name, but then, mummy said it was for me liaOz! Ok shall not go on more abt it. =X

Mummy rubbed my finger ytd night, but now it hurts even more than before! Lolz, don't understand why also. Heck care it lah. Sure will recover de.

Read wanyi's blog entry for today. I must say its really meaningful ba. Coz I agree with what she said, we really must learn to grow up and learn to let go of certain things in life. Life doesn't only revolve around love, there are a lot of things worth living for.

Heard from somewhere tt happiness is in helping ur loved ones achieve happiness, but in actual fact, how many people can do that? I believed that a lot of people had been through that kind of difficult period of time when they had to learn to let go of certain things in life. Yes, its easier said than done. But it's true that many people survived those hard times too. After that, they will be thankful because they have grown stronger. So, dear fren, u can do it too. No matter what happens, we should be glad that there are always frens around to be there for us...

Shall end today's post with two quizzes I took from sini's blog. =) TaTaz..


Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you
don't know them. If you see a person trip you
worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones
first and you're very mature. When someones
sick you're nurturing and always try to help
family and friends when failure strikes them.
You can be called the motherly one, if you are
in a group of people, which doesn't have to be
bad. Love is something that's already in you
and you have a lot to give whether you believe
it or not. Your friends probably love you very
much and come to when they need help since
you're reliable. People can feel secure with
you and generally like you.


Your wise quote is: "Our greatest glory is not
in never falling, but in rising everytime we
fall" by Confucius.
Yes indeed, you see true strenght can only be
seen when a person has "fallen". Only
then one can tell how they will handle it. Just
don't make others fall so you can know who they
really are. You on the other hand may be a very
quick recoverer and don't let people bring you
down. You are your own, and you're find with
that. Emotional issues is something you handle
rather nicely.

I wish I haf a wishing wand. I wish tt things will be all rite for everyone.. But I am no magician.. I cannot do tt.. I wish tt I can .. Actually I also duno wad I wan to wish for.. Hai..

Life is juz filled with ups and downs.. When things go rite, we normally take things for granted. But then when things dun go rite, life can get really sucky. But poonie once told me, when things are at its worst, the only wae it can go is UP. So, no matter how lousy life gets, things will get better de..

Although alot of things in life are not within our control, but then how we handle setbacks are really impt. Setbacks are bound to happen all the time, its juz how we get over it and get on with life..

I noe all those above are easier said than done, but then.. Its juz life. Many times I do feel like dying and tt its meaningless to carry on with life, but then.. Most of the time time will heal all wounds de.. Else why would I still b ard to type this? But then again, if life is meaningless and one ends life, true, e person wun feel anymore pain or sad anymore. But.. Wad abt those loved ones who are still alive? How are they going to handle the pain ? To me, I think its a little selfish to commit suicide, coz we may not rmb anything after we die, but e ppl alive will rmb it forever...

Hai, duno wad crap I talking abt also.. Juz feeling v sad now.. Dun go on anymore le..

OMG. Wanted to blog abt sth todae de.. But fate is really playing a joke on me!!! My finger hurts. =X

Went for mentor session todae. Played with e kids. They played monkeY.. With 2 basketballs and only 5 ppl. How to play? And they no aim properly den throw de. *ScrEamZ* So I din manage to catch one of the balls.. and .. gotChA! My finger kana e ball!!!!!! Only one finger sprain ba, but it hurts de wor~~... Numb for v long time b4 I feel sth.. o.O

Haha, now I finally realise tt every finger is impt to me. =P Gtg, mayb update another daE. FingEr paIn paIn.. =X

Shall make tis a short post. Coz still got alot of things I muz do.

Sch was short today. Today's PE was as usual, running + exercises. But think I hurt my right knee muscle (if there's such a phrase), coz my right knee is hurting noW.. =X haAHaz, muz be my method of running is wrong todaY.

After school went tampines mall for moviE.. Had lunch at bedok central before heading down TM. Bought tix for 3.10pm de. Watch..



HeHe..That movie is v nice lor. Very funny and we luff till our stomach pain.. LoLz, had my fav nachos combo wor~ =)

After e movie was walking ard.. and saw mablerine~ Hohoho, so long nv see her liaoz!!! Missed her so much~ =) After tt, saw yaNzhu n his classmates.. Hmmm.. he changed alot le ba, coz I didnt regconise him, I only manage to reg his 3 other classmates... LoLz.. Only a mth nv see he already change so much.. nOT sure wad to comment thougH.. =X

After tt head home le, wanted to meet up with poonIe DArLinG but I was abit tired le.. So head home lor. HaHaz.. Abit tired now already le. Think tonite will slp early~ =)

Before loading blogger, got alot of things to blog. But now like nth to blog. Duno why I always got tis kind of prob de loR~ =X

Somehow juz felt abit tired of certain things.. Duno why come JC le den my memory is really failing day by day. I no longer rmb alot of impt things le.. *excluding subject content*.

Is it coz my brain is getting smaller? Or juz the fact that I no longer care? Its tiring to care abt so many things all e time, juz taking up too much energy of mine.. =X

Tis weeek I've been thinking abt frenz. Sometimes juz dun understand what is the meaning of fren. Why do some ppl claim to be ur fren when all they do is do things to hurt u? Maybe to some ppl friends are not really an essential part of their life. To me, frenz are impt to me. Yeah, they are impt to me and I trust them completely..

Recently my frenz ard me have frens who did things to hurt them. Why? Its juz sad to noe tt such ppl do exist.. Shall not go into details abt wad those ppl did, I guess they wun b happy after hurting their frenz also.

Had a boring saturday at homE!!.. SiaN.. Wanted to go out watCh e pacifier de.. but no one wan pei mE.. SiaN.. hAHa.. Nvm loh.. coz I ps poOniE dar e movie marathon thing mah, so tis is considered my retribution ok.. =X

Anyway tot she's gonna b busy so nv ask her out also. Turns out tt she is fReE.. and thinking of asking me ouT.. OMG, how sissy can both of us b~

Having terrible tummy ache now... Duno wad I ate wrongly, most prob is the raisins I ate tis noon.. =P Ate too much le lahz. =X

Think I shall stop blogging and go rest le.. Still pain..

Had chem test todaY. Though I had tips frm others already, but its still difficult. Think I will still fail it ba. =x aRh.. I dun wan to fail chem..

But at least I m better than my classmate, who almost handed in a blank paper. Miss Wong was fuming mad at him, thus we r the victims lor. Chem lesson ended only at ard 3pm. By then I was so hungry I could eat a cow~ =X Coz nv eat brkfast nor lunch.. But Miss Wong insist she haven had lunch too, so if she can survive, we can too. Luckily nv tio gastric again, else I might start to dislike her again~

Went for e delta hse function alsO.. Pretty boring, quite alot of ppl but not much space for us to sit de.. =X Den yilin and I went back home shortly, coz nth to do.

Missed e front part of "hai tun wan lian ren" ... Dun wan get addicted to tt show also.. HaHa..

Tml's saturday le.. Think its gonna b a boring dae as usual..

The most dreaded day. Meet the principal day. =X

Mummy was late.. As usual, does the habit of being late runs in the family? I think it does, coz I am always late de.. =X

Principal didn't sae too much things, basically juz teach me how to study. Interesting yea? Lolz. Luckily my tutors all said I did try, BUT my foundation is juz not there. So .. actually quite a good thing ba. At least they do noe I am trying de.. =X Understood an impt principle, slping 3 hrs in e noon and 3 hrs in e nite is not equals to 6 hrs of slp on that daY. Lolz, tt's wad I alwaes tot ba. Now I noe 6 hrs of deep slp is more impt than e no. of hrs I slp daily. =P So I muz slp early!!!

After tt went dinner with mama. Had a small chat with her. She did listen, or at least I think she did. Talk until I also feel like crying le. Coz juz tell her how I've been feeling all these while ba, being scared to go home, etc.. Think she somehow get it. Told her again tt I really dun like my kor, not tt I hate him, juz dun like him n cant stand him.. =X Ha|x.. If failing my exams = attention frm mummy, I dun mind failing.. I dun mind retaining.. Juz to let them noe I am not the one I appear to be.

Though mummy did listen to me, but I think nth will be done abt how I feel also de. She will continue to be who she is, and nth in e hse will change, and I will still continue to b afraid of staying at home.. =X

Had a pretty boring day at home trying to read thru my physics notes. =X Haha, no life ba. Cannot slack le mah, so decided to b hardworking n read phy.

Juz read wanyi's blog and I now haf craving for ajisen ramen le.. LoLz. =X Wad a piG, craving for food when I juz had dinner.

Wanted to go out with pooNie darling de, but think she dun feel like coming out, and I scare she will feel uneasy so nv go out lE.. =X Why u dun wan to go out with mE?? =P

Den receive call frm kc asking if I wan meet up for dinner not. So agreed coz I need to eat dinner also de mah. =X

Met him at orchard ard 6.30pm. Went cineleisure de downstairs de jap food place for dinner. The food taste.. abit weird ba. HaHa, not like e usual kind of rice I ate at other places. Coz e sauce not tt nicE.. =X

Ya, finish dinner le den walk awhile aimlessly den reach mrt station so went home le bA.. He send me home again. Hmmm.. THaNx.. He send me till my block.. Den.. HahAz.. Dun wanna go into details le. Abit paiseh + shock. But he gave me a bouquet of roses.. red de. Thanx alot.. =)

ReD rOse


Hmm, shall end now. Shld try to continue on my physicS le~ tATaz..

Went Lion's Home for The Elderly for cip todae. Had to chat with the old folks. Hmm, quite a tough job ba, coz I dun really understand wad they talking neither do they understand wad I talking. So abit difficult to chat. =X

Kinda sad when I saw those old folks, duno how to explain tt kind of feeling. Juz noe tt I will try my best to tk care of my parents when they old. =X

We only stayed for 15 mins lidat. coz gotta rush back sch to some mentor de meeting. Actually is juz take cert issued by Temasek Primary School. Some Cert of Appreciation. Wad's shocking was tt we only went there take cert and can go lE.. =P

Waited in sch canteen for cY's cultural documentation to end so we can go for dinner together. But then waited for quite long.. His cultural doc ended at 540pm. Hmm.. by then I already can sense my stomach got excess acid. ArH.. shit, e worst nitemare of mine. Gastric.

Eat le dinner also no use, coz still hurt lor. Took train home, vomit things out at kallang mrt toilet. =x Got sour taste, think is stomach acid. KaOx.. =X

Now still pain, took med juz now le duno y still pain. ArH.. make me no mood do work, or rather cant focus on work. Hate gastric pain. Pls go away k..