Gonna b a long post todae. The day started out quite bad, coz hrd frm waNyi darling tt movie price are going up aGAIN!!!!! OMG, I can't believe my ears when I heard her sae weekend tix cost $9.50. $10 liao lor.. worth it mah? Watch movie juz for $10... =X Somemore weekdae de also increase by $0.50.. which makes it $7 liaOz.. Ha|x.. SianEd..
Den a teacher came ask me how to write my chinese name before flag raising. -.-''' LoLz, as expected they cant find my namE!! =p Ok lah, wad followed seriously spoilt my dae. The PRETTY Civics Tutor of the nxt class came up to me, asking me to go to DM there. I was... shocked, duno wad the hell she wanted. She said my skirt is short. =X Damn it, its juz my legs are short, thus my skirt is short, but it is not more than 2cm above kneE! *I think so* So I nv break sch rule ok.
The she started lecturing me abt tying up my hair blah blah blah. I AM going to tie hair le.. but juz tt the teacher came and ask me for my chinese name, thus the PRETTY CT nxt class get to catch me with my hair down. I juz told her that and tt my hair isn't totally dry so I always tie in sch de. Den she warned me to lengthen my skirt.. =X How to leH?? Already cut awae e cloth le. Wy said I can wear a green shorts inside so she might think its my skirt.. LoLz.. =D
GP was taught by a relief teacher.. eRmz... quite gAy lah.. =P HaHa, juz hoped tt my GP tutor will come back tmL~ =) Pe todae was captain's ball again. Haha, shld haf seen the wae she played on court, v violent leH~ Lucky I only catcher, else sure attacked by her. =X
Anyway, during my brk todae, while walking towards canteen with xiao mei znd zg, I suddenly talk abt results n retaining n duno y I teared. Kaox, so damn paiseh. think I scared them also.. Coz I juz tear without letting them noe beforehand. =X PaisEh!!!! Juz felt pretty helpless lah.. Duno wad's wrong with my life aLSo lE.. so scared now.. Everything's juz going wrong..
Tried my best to listen to lesson todae, even physics. Not sure will tt work not but I muz listen already!!! Kept myself awake for whole of cheM too.. Ok no big deal but to me quite not bad le =x
I will concentrate on studies dE!!! I will put everything aside.. At least I will try my besT..
After sch actually wanted go dinner with ChEnyU, waNYi, yiLin de.. But den decided to stop wasting xtra money and go home eAt.. So met Kaicheng at bedok interchange and went home. We took same bus, since he stay hougang there which got bus frm my hse dere.. So he sent me home ba. HaHaz.. Thanx woR.. Sorry for wasting ya time~
Came home le eat dinner and bathe.. Mum said sth sad to me. She said : "I will go ur sch nxt mondae see principal. All ur fault I haf to change shift with other ppl and now everyone noes." Yeah, she's alwaes e one who told me not to stress too much.. But when things go wrong, I get all e blame. Tot she isn't those kind who wanted face de, but I was wrong lo. So she does care.. So I am juz a disgrace...
Wad's e big deal abt seeing principaL? Not as if I'm gonna get kicked out. Not unless I agree. I havent broken sch rules, I nv steal, nv fight, nv smoke. Wad rite they haf to kick me out? At most they will ask me withdraw, coz my results suck. I'm abit tired to think abt all these... So I am gonna stop thinking. Not gonna tear over it again~ I am willing to post it here means I am ok de. Really.
I noe its my fault to still work part time during weekends on Jan tis yr. But it didnt last long.. HaHa, I wan e money also mah~ That time mummy nv sae anything also, I still rmb she said she wun let me work if she is rich enuf to buy me things.. But now leh? Bad results = my fault. She might haf done alot for me.. but .. this isn't the time to throw me in e dark all alone.. I need someone to be there for me.. Especially mummy.. But..
Wad had she really given me? She want good results, had she ever given me a gd environment to study? Had she ever given me peace? Had she ever given me family warmth? All she did is .. gif me money. Pls dun bother abt me here. I m juz complaining, after I finish, I will b ok. Who's the one who chose to tolerate with all kinds of nonsense her son gave? Who's the one who forgave his son time and again for every mistake he madE? Why can't she do the same to mE? I stood by her thru' her saddest times, all I need now is juz word of encouragement.. Its not tt I wan to score badly de.. Even if she doesn't want to stand by me, juz dun despise me?
I am juz so afraid to go home.. I dun wan a home with no feelinGs..
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Nope, I am not supposed to b blogging. I ams supposed to do work now. =x But juz a short update.
Had mentoring session todae at Temasek Pri Sch. New batch of students.. They are still vry cute~ =P Met my new mentee todae, a gal wor~ =) But then I am only temporary mentor only, once they got enuf mentors and I top up enuf hrs to get BP mentoring de cert den no need do le. And good news is.. Today's my last session~
No more going to TPS~ No more being tortured by p4 studentS, running all over the place playing catching with them =P HaHAz.. *SweEt chiLdhoOD meMorIEs*
Anyway, after mentoring session ends, its 6pm le. Mummy told me go eat myself, so went meet ChenYu to eat dinner. ASked rachel to go but her mum got cook le.. How I wish my mama cook toO~ =X
Went Mac eat dinner. Crapping with cy alot.. Actually cY is quite crappy n fun when he's not pmsing.. LoLz.. But abit guilty coz nv do work.. HaHaz.. Nvm lah, already over le, wad can I do? =P
GtG slp soon le.. tirEd.. tAtaz..
Had mentoring session todae at Temasek Pri Sch. New batch of students.. They are still vry cute~ =P Met my new mentee todae, a gal wor~ =) But then I am only temporary mentor only, once they got enuf mentors and I top up enuf hrs to get BP mentoring de cert den no need do le. And good news is.. Today's my last session~
No more going to TPS~ No more being tortured by p4 studentS, running all over the place playing catching with them =P HaHAz.. *SweEt chiLdhoOD meMorIEs*
Anyway, after mentoring session ends, its 6pm le. Mummy told me go eat myself, so went meet ChenYu to eat dinner. ASked rachel to go but her mum got cook le.. How I wish my mama cook toO~ =X
Went Mac eat dinner. Crapping with cy alot.. Actually cY is quite crappy n fun when he's not pmsing.. LoLz.. But abit guilty coz nv do work.. HaHaz.. Nvm lah, already over le, wad can I do? =P
GtG slp soon le.. tirEd.. tAtaz..
Monday, March 28, 2005
Had PE today. The teachers made us run Lucky Heights again.. -.- Lucky Heights is .. v energy-consuming de. Coz got slope. =x Somemore the teachers are always behind us making sure we dun walk. How bian tai can they get? =X
Was v hungry today during lesson. But had to wait till lessons over at 12.45pm den get to eat~ Arh.. made me so hungry, I was super scare later gastric come back again. And.. unfortunate things alwaes happen de, got gastric on bus on e way home. ArH.. PaiN~ =X
Came home le feel v bloated, den duno why vomited my food out. *sigHz* Luckily today mummy found my gastric med le, so I didnt haf to suffer for long~ =)
Will eat earlier tml~ LoL.
Was v hungry today during lesson. But had to wait till lessons over at 12.45pm den get to eat~ Arh.. made me so hungry, I was super scare later gastric come back again. And.. unfortunate things alwaes happen de, got gastric on bus on e way home. ArH.. PaiN~ =X
Came home le feel v bloated, den duno why vomited my food out. *sigHz* Luckily today mummy found my gastric med le, so I didnt haf to suffer for long~ =)
Will eat earlier tml~ LoL.
The Story of A Couple
The following is juz a story. If interested, continue reading.
They didn't know each other at first. It was all because of a matchmake session.
Gal didn't like Guy at all. Guy was not really the Gal's type of guy. Gal liked guys who looked honest and pleasant. But Guy was far from it.
Guy didn't like Gal at all. Gal didn't have a pretty face nor a good figure. But Guy was just lonely.
Guy went all out to woo Gal. He would fetch Gal home from her workplace everyday, rain or shine. He would bring Gal out for dinner, even though they didn't have much common topics.
Guy was a heavy smoker and drinker. But Guy promised to kick away his bad habits for Gal. Gal was touched by his words, but partly because Gal knew she was getting old already, so she had to get married so that her mum would stop worrying.
When discussing the details of marriage, Guy's mother didn't allow Guy to buy a house, since Gal already own a house. Guy's mother even said that she didn't want Gal to be her daughter-in-law. Somehow, the problems were solved, Guy would stay in Gal's house after marriage and give her money monthly to pay for the house.
On the day of the wedding, Guy did not smile at all.
A year after their marriage, Gal was pregnant.
Guy suspected that she had an affair outside with another guy, resulting in the pregnancy. Gal was heartbroken. Gal wanted to abort the child but Guy apologized to her in the end.
Their son was born.
Guy stopped sleeping on the same bed with Gal. He went to sleep in the living room. He only went to sleep with Gal when he had the need.
Several years later, Gal was pregnant with another child. Gal asked Guy if he wanted the child, Guy agreed.
Another child was born.
From then on, their relationship worsen. Guy stopped having sex with Gal, not even once. Guy continued his bad habits of smoking and drinking. Guy hit Gal sometimes when his mood was bad. Guy hit the son sometimes too.
Gal thought of filing for divorce but decided against it. Gal did not want her two children to grow up in a broken family.
Several years passed, their son grew up. Once, the son saw Guy at Geylang. Out of curiosity, the son asked Guy why was he there. Guy refused to answer.
Gal heard of the incident from the son. Even though Gal's heart was dead long ago, but Gal was still upset over it.
One day, Gal saw Guy at Geylang herself while she was there eating with her brother. Gal didn't know what to do. Gal wished that Guy was only there for something else instead of looking for sex. But deep inside Gal's heart, she knew the answer better than anybody else.
Morale of the story : Don't get married. =X No lah, jk. There's no morale of story. Juz how different ppl view the story. Hope the story didn't bore anyone who read till the end~ =)
The following is juz a story. If interested, continue reading.
They didn't know each other at first. It was all because of a matchmake session.
Gal didn't like Guy at all. Guy was not really the Gal's type of guy. Gal liked guys who looked honest and pleasant. But Guy was far from it.
Guy didn't like Gal at all. Gal didn't have a pretty face nor a good figure. But Guy was just lonely.
Guy went all out to woo Gal. He would fetch Gal home from her workplace everyday, rain or shine. He would bring Gal out for dinner, even though they didn't have much common topics.
Guy was a heavy smoker and drinker. But Guy promised to kick away his bad habits for Gal. Gal was touched by his words, but partly because Gal knew she was getting old already, so she had to get married so that her mum would stop worrying.
When discussing the details of marriage, Guy's mother didn't allow Guy to buy a house, since Gal already own a house. Guy's mother even said that she didn't want Gal to be her daughter-in-law. Somehow, the problems were solved, Guy would stay in Gal's house after marriage and give her money monthly to pay for the house.
On the day of the wedding, Guy did not smile at all.
A year after their marriage, Gal was pregnant.
Guy suspected that she had an affair outside with another guy, resulting in the pregnancy. Gal was heartbroken. Gal wanted to abort the child but Guy apologized to her in the end.
Their son was born.
Guy stopped sleeping on the same bed with Gal. He went to sleep in the living room. He only went to sleep with Gal when he had the need.
Several years later, Gal was pregnant with another child. Gal asked Guy if he wanted the child, Guy agreed.
Another child was born.
From then on, their relationship worsen. Guy stopped having sex with Gal, not even once. Guy continued his bad habits of smoking and drinking. Guy hit Gal sometimes when his mood was bad. Guy hit the son sometimes too.
Gal thought of filing for divorce but decided against it. Gal did not want her two children to grow up in a broken family.
Several years passed, their son grew up. Once, the son saw Guy at Geylang. Out of curiosity, the son asked Guy why was he there. Guy refused to answer.
Gal heard of the incident from the son. Even though Gal's heart was dead long ago, but Gal was still upset over it.
One day, Gal saw Guy at Geylang herself while she was there eating with her brother. Gal didn't know what to do. Gal wished that Guy was only there for something else instead of looking for sex. But deep inside Gal's heart, she knew the answer better than anybody else.
Morale of the story : Don't get married. =X No lah, jk. There's no morale of story. Juz how different ppl view the story. Hope the story didn't bore anyone who read till the end~ =)
Sunday, March 27, 2005
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Having a bad tummy ache again. Duno wad I ate wrongly again. SianEd. Stomach seems to be quite weak tis week. Lols.
Anyway suddenly rmb wad wanyi said ytd. She said sth like if a guy like a gal n e gal also noe (vice versa) but they din get together within 3 mths, then is no hope liao de. I wonder if tt's true?
Somehow I try to think back abt my past and other ppl's experience, I think maybe its quite true. But somehow, my memory is failing and I duno how true is tt statement. And it might really be different for different ppl's case.. Lolz..
Ok lah, actually duno wad I wanted to blog also. Juz curious abt tt statement.. If anyone got opinions pls tag and tell me k.. thAnX~ =)
Anyway suddenly rmb wad wanyi said ytd. She said sth like if a guy like a gal n e gal also noe (vice versa) but they din get together within 3 mths, then is no hope liao de. I wonder if tt's true?
Somehow I try to think back abt my past and other ppl's experience, I think maybe its quite true. But somehow, my memory is failing and I duno how true is tt statement. And it might really be different for different ppl's case.. Lolz..
Ok lah, actually duno wad I wanted to blog also. Juz curious abt tt statement.. If anyone got opinions pls tag and tell me k.. thAnX~ =)
The pic is nice ritE?? =P Its zhen gang and rachel. Yea I noe they wan to hit me already, coz I post tt pic up here.. =x Actually is we three take pic de, but... hAhaz.. I look too ugly so I decided not to post myself in tt pic as well. =x Lolz. Poonie said they were compatible.. Well... Erm, I'm not really in a rite position to comment anything at all.. =X *PlEase, xiao mei n zhen gang, spaRe mE. Dun hit me k =p*
Yup, why am I here to blog at such late time??? Its 2+am and I juz reached homE. Didnt noe will reach home so late,but well.. Didn't regret my decision to stay out latE! If I din stay out tis late I would have missed something out le!! I haf sth really really impt to blog abt. It may not be impt to other ppl at all, but to me.. it does matters.. And I am a little affected by it! =x That's why I m not slping now and blogging abt it.
Well, had a long day out. Not gonna blog abt e earlier part of the day, was out with my classmates (wanyi, rachel, zhen gang). Dun talk abt tt first. =X Yea, wanyi, rachel, zhen gang, chen yu, if u all are reading tis, I noe wad u all are wondering.. "Who is the guy I met up with when u all abt to leavE?" Hahaz, the answer will be out... SOON.. =X
Lol, ok lah, dun play with them, they will kill me de. =x That guy u all saw was actually.. my ex bf. =xxx Didn't tell u all tt todae coz.. Duno how to xplain also.. Lolz, but dun think too much le hor!!! =)
Sam changed alot ever since I last saw him. REally alot, nearly couldn't reg him. I was still so scared tt he might turn out to b a ... totally different person frm last time.. appearance and all tt. Plus the lyes were .. scaring me and keep telling me "hey tt guy there is looking at u", "hey tt guy looks like he's waiting for someone..", "hey we shld try calling him n check if he's v ugly, else u juz run k.." etc.. Lolz, had a good luff over it at orchard mrt. =x
Anyway, was out with Sam, a guy I was together with 4 yrs ago. Yea, 4 yrs ago, when I was still sec2 tt time! =X We lost contact for 4 yrs, and somehow he got my hp number frm a fellow cchms de fren and contacted me. So we met up lor. Actually he wanted to meet up last week de, but den I kept ps him.. =X He wanted to watch movie at first, but then we wait and wait for e midnite show (we met at 8+pm maH) so in e end we had no mood to watch at all.. =X So, wad did we do till 1am? We juz chatted lor..
Ok, shall not keep poonie in suspense. Wanted to call u to tell u abt tis de, but its quite late when I reach home, so juz blog sth here first. Even if u dun wan to read I still wan u to noe!!! =P
It turned out that actually Sam didn't break up with me last time coz he like someone else. Its juz becoz of.. something else.. I lazy to type out e details here coz.. dun wish to mention names. If u all wan noe juz ask me bA.. When I heard it frm sam juz now, I was... SHOCKED. I didnt noe such a thing happened before. If I didnt meet up with him todae, I guess I will never ever find out abt tis. After I recover frm my shock, I was juz.. upset.
Feel so much like crying now. But everything was in e past. Juz .. duno why such a thing will happen de. Coz I tot such a thing wun ever happen on me? I tot only tv den got de. REally duno why.. abit confused now also.. WHY??? Why did such a thing happen? Although I noe even if tt thing nv happen, sam and I would still eventually break up. But its not abt the breaking up part.. its juz.. *sighz* I also duno lah, suddenly dun feel like blogging le. Juz really v tired .. juz want some time to.. recollect my thoughts, yea.
Before I blog, I haf tons of things to blog, but now duno wad 2 blog le. Coz after all tis is a publlic thing and I wun noe who's reading it also. So.. if u all wan noe ask me ba.. =X Go le..
Yup, why am I here to blog at such late time??? Its 2+am and I juz reached homE. Didnt noe will reach home so late,but well.. Didn't regret my decision to stay out latE! If I din stay out tis late I would have missed something out le!! I haf sth really really impt to blog abt. It may not be impt to other ppl at all, but to me.. it does matters.. And I am a little affected by it! =x That's why I m not slping now and blogging abt it.
Well, had a long day out. Not gonna blog abt e earlier part of the day, was out with my classmates (wanyi, rachel, zhen gang). Dun talk abt tt first. =X Yea, wanyi, rachel, zhen gang, chen yu, if u all are reading tis, I noe wad u all are wondering.. "Who is the guy I met up with when u all abt to leavE?" Hahaz, the answer will be out... SOON.. =X
Lol, ok lah, dun play with them, they will kill me de. =x That guy u all saw was actually.. my ex bf. =xxx Didn't tell u all tt todae coz.. Duno how to xplain also.. Lolz, but dun think too much le hor!!! =)
Sam changed alot ever since I last saw him. REally alot, nearly couldn't reg him. I was still so scared tt he might turn out to b a ... totally different person frm last time.. appearance and all tt. Plus the lyes were .. scaring me and keep telling me "hey tt guy there is looking at u", "hey tt guy looks like he's waiting for someone..", "hey we shld try calling him n check if he's v ugly, else u juz run k.." etc.. Lolz, had a good luff over it at orchard mrt. =x
Anyway, was out with Sam, a guy I was together with 4 yrs ago. Yea, 4 yrs ago, when I was still sec2 tt time! =X We lost contact for 4 yrs, and somehow he got my hp number frm a fellow cchms de fren and contacted me. So we met up lor. Actually he wanted to meet up last week de, but den I kept ps him.. =X He wanted to watch movie at first, but then we wait and wait for e midnite show (we met at 8+pm maH) so in e end we had no mood to watch at all.. =X So, wad did we do till 1am? We juz chatted lor..
Ok, shall not keep poonie in suspense. Wanted to call u to tell u abt tis de, but its quite late when I reach home, so juz blog sth here first. Even if u dun wan to read I still wan u to noe!!! =P
It turned out that actually Sam didn't break up with me last time coz he like someone else. Its juz becoz of.. something else.. I lazy to type out e details here coz.. dun wish to mention names. If u all wan noe juz ask me bA.. When I heard it frm sam juz now, I was... SHOCKED. I didnt noe such a thing happened before. If I didnt meet up with him todae, I guess I will never ever find out abt tis. After I recover frm my shock, I was juz.. upset.
Feel so much like crying now. But everything was in e past. Juz .. duno why such a thing will happen de. Coz I tot such a thing wun ever happen on me? I tot only tv den got de. REally duno why.. abit confused now also.. WHY??? Why did such a thing happen? Although I noe even if tt thing nv happen, sam and I would still eventually break up. But its not abt the breaking up part.. its juz.. *sighz* I also duno lah, suddenly dun feel like blogging le. Juz really v tired .. juz want some time to.. recollect my thoughts, yea.
Before I blog, I haf tons of things to blog, but now duno wad 2 blog le. Coz after all tis is a publlic thing and I wun noe who's reading it also. So.. if u all wan noe ask me ba.. =X Go le..
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Had a long day today. Chemistry was.. long.. though it passed quite quickly. But I had tummy ache during chem.. =x Really v pain lor.. Ha|x.. Duno wad I ate wrongly also leh.
After school went bedok mrt wait for pOoNie deariE.. =) Went town. Ate ajisen for dinner. Yeah, I was still saying I dun wan to spend tt much.. But.. I still spend liaoz.. =x Cant resist the temptation of food!!! =x Lolz.. But it tasted nice wor.
Finish dinner le juz found a seat to sit and slack. =x Coz dun feel like going home mahz, so juz slack lo. HaHaz.. Reached home abt 10pm. Very tired today. Duno why, mayb coz of e PE lor.. =P
I wan to watch the eye 10!!! LoLz.. Ok I m going crazy le.. =x Nth much to update liaOz.. tAtAz..
After school went bedok mrt wait for pOoNie deariE.. =) Went town. Ate ajisen for dinner. Yeah, I was still saying I dun wan to spend tt much.. But.. I still spend liaoz.. =x Cant resist the temptation of food!!! =x Lolz.. But it tasted nice wor.
Finish dinner le juz found a seat to sit and slack. =x Coz dun feel like going home mahz, so juz slack lo. HaHaz.. Reached home abt 10pm. Very tired today. Duno why, mayb coz of e PE lor.. =P
I wan to watch the eye 10!!! LoLz.. Ok I m going crazy le.. =x Nth much to update liaOz.. tAtAz..
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Didn't haf time to blog yesterdae, was busying studying for chem class test todae. But.. it was juz a self-test. Arh.. so mad at Miss Wong, made me study for nth. ALthough I didnt spent tt much time on it also, but juz slept a little late.. =(
Anyway, ytd after sch, went out with Wanyi, Rachel, Chen Yu, Zhen Gang to tampines mall to watch movie.
Yea, we watched son of the mask. Quite a funny show ba. The baby in e show is cUtEzzzz... =P Didnt wan to watch it initially de, coz I still wan watch "the eye 10" mah.. Arh.. but in the end also went for the movie. =x
MeT Leonard at TM. He was watching the same movie at the same time.. Lolz. So we ended up sitting together..
Movie finish le we went back sch for chem make up lecture. Duno why I nv tot of not going e chem lec. =x Muz b lack of slp tt's y din rmb there's such a thing call pon. Hahaz, anywae juz went for e lec.
Had quite a tiring dae ytd.. =X
Anyway, ytd after sch, went out with Wanyi, Rachel, Chen Yu, Zhen Gang to tampines mall to watch movie.
Yea, we watched son of the mask. Quite a funny show ba. The baby in e show is cUtEzzzz... =P Didnt wan to watch it initially de, coz I still wan watch "the eye 10" mah.. Arh.. but in the end also went for the movie. =x
MeT Leonard at TM. He was watching the same movie at the same time.. Lolz. So we ended up sitting together..
Movie finish le we went back sch for chem make up lecture. Duno why I nv tot of not going e chem lec. =x Muz b lack of slp tt's y din rmb there's such a thing call pon. Hahaz, anywae juz went for e lec.
Had quite a tiring dae ytd.. =X
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Saturday, March 19, 2005
I wan to watch sunrise. Why nobody believe me at all?? I noe its pretty insane to suddenly wan watch sunrise.. But then .. I juz wan to watch... *sIgHz* Maybe I shall go somewhere nice and find sunrise alone.
Anyway, zhen gang sent me some nice nice sunrise de pics his sis took.. in malaysia. Lolz.. Decided to share e pics with u ppl~ Its v pretty!!!!! But they are not complete, coz lazy me lazy post everything up here. =X Enjoy! =)
Why do some ppl sae things when they dun mean it? Why do they make u trust them only to break wadeva promises they made? Time and again I told myself not to believe in any promises anyone make, but time and again I put trust in the wrong person.. And end up feeling like a dummy..
It wasn't long ago that I thought things will change for once, and that I can live in the little fairytale I yearned for ever since I was young. But thanks to u, u hurt everyone around u and u dashed my hopes.. (if there is such a phrase).. THANK U VERY MUCH.
Anyway, zhen gang sent me some nice nice sunrise de pics his sis took.. in malaysia. Lolz.. Decided to share e pics with u ppl~ Its v pretty!!!!! But they are not complete, coz lazy me lazy post everything up here. =X Enjoy! =)
Why do some ppl sae things when they dun mean it? Why do they make u trust them only to break wadeva promises they made? Time and again I told myself not to believe in any promises anyone make, but time and again I put trust in the wrong person.. And end up feeling like a dummy..
It wasn't long ago that I thought things will change for once, and that I can live in the little fairytale I yearned for ever since I was young. But thanks to u, u hurt everyone around u and u dashed my hopes.. (if there is such a phrase).. THANK U VERY MUCH.
Friday, March 18, 2005
Hmm, found some stuffs in my email.. So juz copy sth abt myself here~ =)
-You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.-
Always dreaming of romantic relationship? Me? Haha..
JANUARY
* Ambitious and serious
* Loves to teach and be taught
* Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
* Likes to criticise
* Hardworking and productive
* Smart, neat and organised
* Sensitive and has deep thoughts
* Knows how to make others happy
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Rather reserved
* Highly attentive
* Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
* Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
* Loves children
* Homely person
* Loyal
* Needs to improve social abilities
* Easily jealous
Wahahaz, this is more true I suppose..
Is your birthday day 22 of the month?
>Your Life <
You have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to you for your capability and confidence although they find you quite stubborn.You should listen more to others. You are a unique and charming individual.
>Your Love <
You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone. Whom you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you won't let them get away without having hard time.
The following is a story I found in my e-mail.. Quite touching to me last time, but now.. HaHAz.. But juz decided to post it up here coz I dun wan it to stay in my inbox le. =X If u all are free, take some time to read it ba~ =)
A YEAR AGO today, I had lunch with my boyfriend and took the opportunity to complain to him.
"Today is Valentine's Day. Why didn't you give me any flowers?"
He raised his eyebrow.
"Why should I give you flowers? You are not my anyone."
"Then... you should at least give me a card!" I pouted my lips, hurt by his
tone.
"I know, I know. After lunch, I'll send you an e-card."
"E-card??"
That sounds so impersonal, but that's the way he is.
"You have? to e-mail it to me. I'll be waiting." I excitedly smiled and ran
to sneak home after lunch to check e-mail. Even though he wouldn't use any romantic words, I still looked forward to the card.
"I'm going back to work. Hurry and send me the card!"
As soon as I walked in my door, I turned on my computer and got online.
Staring at the empty inbox, I began to reminisce about how we met. Maybe no one will believe me, but my boyfriend and I were actually neighbors. Our homes were only 1 wall away. Ever since we were kids, we liked to fight with each other all day long. We were only neighbors. At that time, I hated my parents for making us live next to him.
At that time, I had a crush on a senior. After a while, I found out that the senior student had lots of girlfriends. When I cried about it, he silently passed me a handkerchief and awkwardly held me in his arms.
"I told you he wasn't any good." He roughly comforted me.
I cried in his arms the whole night, and began to see him in a different way. Things began to change between us. We still fought all the time, but he started to look at me differently. And I blushed and my heart beat faster when he was near.
We both knew: we fell in love with each other.
Even with this knowledge, neither of us said anything. Even though we would not be able to resist and kissed each other constantly. Even though we cared about each other's every moves. Both of us refused to admit our love.
Alright, we became lovers, but we still wouldn't say we loved each other. We didn't even spend Valentine's Day together until he saw me share dinner with a man one Valentine's Day. That night, he waited for me in front of my door and said that he would take me out to dinner on Valentine's Day from then on. I have to say that he was very arrogant. But I nodded and accepted his request. Since then, we spent every Valentine's Day together. On the surface, we may have left each other. But in reality, we were still together. We spent every Valentine's Day together but each year became more dreary than the next because he never told me he loved me even with all my hints.
Still facing the empty inbox, I suddenly grew very angry. He wouldn't say it and wouldn't send me a card. What did he mean? Who did he think I was? I called his cell phone.
"Hello." He picked up the phone.
"I didn't receive the card." I immediately showed my displeasure.
"You didn't receive it?" He seemed really busy.
"But I sent it." He was really busy but I didn't care.
"I didn't receive it. Send it again."
"Okay, I'll send you 100 times. Is that good enough??" He said with impatience. His tone further infuriated me. Is that how lovers speak to each other?
"Don't bother sending it to me. And you don't have to pick me up tonight. I'll eat dinner by myself."
"Don't be childish, ok? I'm really busy."
"I AM childish!" I hung up the phone and tears rolled down my cheeks.
Childish?? Why didn't he consider the situation? We've gone out for so many years and spent countless Valentine's Day together. I never received any flowers nor cards from him. Now, I just want a little e-card. Is that too much to ask for?? I nplugged the phone from the wall and turned off my cell phone. I didn't want to hear his explanations.
After I returned to the hospital, I instructed the receptionist not to forward me any phone calls. I wanted to concentrate on work.? Because there were so many emergencies today, I was sweating 1 hour later and forgot about our argument.
"Dr. Shu, please take a look at that patient."
As I was collecting my equipment, the shrill sound of an ambulance sounded outside the ER. When I stepped out the door, the emergency medics hurriedly wheeled in a gurney.
"What happened to him?" I asked the 1st medic.
Everyone else were trying to help put the patient on the gurney. He was covered with blood.
"Car accident." The medic replied.
"Very serious. He may die." I nodded and ran to the operating room with them.
When I arrived, the nurses told me that the man had already stopped breathing and also his heartbeat also stopped.
"Prepare for shock." I calmly instructed the nurses.
Saving people is our duty. We can't and shouldn't lose our calm.
But when I saw who laid on the operating table, I lost my calm. That person was my BOYFRIEND!
"NO..." I stood in shock.
"NO!!!" I grabbed the paddles and continuously shocked his body.
His body bounced up and down from the shocks. The scared nurses went to find another doctor, to tell him that I was crazy.
I didn't know if I was crazy or not. I just wanted to save my lover. Even though we fought all the time. Even though he never showed me his love. I still wanted to save him. He still owed me a card. He couldn't die! I threw away the paddles and began to press on his heart. I pressed with all my strength, hoping it would revive him, but he didn't wake up. He didn't even say "It hurts".? He just laid there with his eyes closed, punishing me with his silence.
Dr. Jian angrily pushed me away. By that time, I couldn't see clearly anymore. I cried. I wailed. I bowled until no sounds could come out of my mouth.
"It's too late, Dr. Shu. He's already dead. I'm sorry." Dr. Jian patted me on the shoulder. They knew each other and ate together once. I introduced them.
"He can't die." I shook my head.
"He can't die!!" I struggled to run to him.
"Dr. SHU, control yourself!" Dr. Jian slapped me.
"I understand what you're going through, but you're a doctor."
"Yes, I'm a doctor, but I'm also a regular person. How can Dr. Jian understand how I feel? I've loved him for so many years that it's become a habit. How can I just throw away a habit? Besides, he still owed me a card.
"I want him to live! I want him to live!" I ran to him again and tried to knock the life back into his body.
"Take her away!"
That day, I lost my control and my professionalism. And that day happened to be Valentine's Day.
Afterwards, I asked his co-workers why he left work early that day. They told me that after I hung up the phone, he tried to call me several times but couldn't reach me. Worried, he drove to the hospital to find me and got hit by a large truck on the way.
When I heard this, I froze. My tantrum killed him. Just because of an unmailed card, he died. After that, I lost my privilege to be childish. Like an abandoned cat, I couldn't even cry anymore.
After his death, I couldn't cry anymore, regardless of how touching the plot or how tear-jerking the dialogue. They didn't affect me anymore.
I turned on computer after a year later, even though I know no one will send me a mail, I still hoped that someone will remember me on this day.
GOSH....I have.... 100 emails!? Who would be bored enough to send me 100 junk mail? I was just about to delete them all when I received another mail, and this one said: "Because of system error, we could not send these until today. We apologize for the delay."
The sender was my BOYFRIEND!!! I looked at the 1st mail. It showed the send date is last year's Valentine's Day. My heart began to beat fast. Could he have sent these? With a trembling hand, I opened the mail.
The first thing that popped up was a gorgeous red rose set against green leaves. Then a beautiful melody began to play...."Only Love".? I couldn't believe it. The rose was so beautiful and the music was so dreamy.
I almost thought I was in a fantasy. Most touching of all were the words underneath the rose, because the words read like a beautiful poem.
"Only love can make a memory. Only love can make a moment last.
You were there and all the world was young and all it's songs unsung.
And I remember you then when love was all, all you were living for,
and how you gave that love to me...."
The lyrics of this song fits our love so closely. When he was alive, my world was so young. Every day, I could find a something different to fight with him about. But after he left, my life is only left with memories and coldness that will never go away. When I read these words, my tears unconsciously came, wetting the keyboard. I replied 100 times, and "Only Love" played 100 times.
In this cold Valentine's night, the line that's been broken for LAST ONE YEAR finally got RECONNECTED.
Moral of the story :
Try to express out your feeling towards each other so that both know what u are thinking!!
-You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership towards relationships. You make good decision and make the right choice at the right time. And always dreaming of romantic relationship.-
Always dreaming of romantic relationship? Me? Haha..
JANUARY
* Ambitious and serious
* Loves to teach and be taught
* Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
* Likes to criticise
* Hardworking and productive
* Smart, neat and organised
* Sensitive and has deep thoughts
* Knows how to make others happy
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Rather reserved
* Highly attentive
* Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
* Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
* Loves children
* Homely person
* Loyal
* Needs to improve social abilities
* Easily jealous
Wahahaz, this is more true I suppose..
Is your birthday day 22 of the month?
>Your Life <
You have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to you for your capability and confidence although they find you quite stubborn.You should listen more to others. You are a unique and charming individual.
>Your Love <
You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone. Whom you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you won't let them get away without having hard time.
The following is a story I found in my e-mail.. Quite touching to me last time, but now.. HaHAz.. But juz decided to post it up here coz I dun wan it to stay in my inbox le. =X If u all are free, take some time to read it ba~ =)
A YEAR AGO today, I had lunch with my boyfriend and took the opportunity to complain to him.
"Today is Valentine's Day. Why didn't you give me any flowers?"
He raised his eyebrow.
"Why should I give you flowers? You are not my anyone."
"Then... you should at least give me a card!" I pouted my lips, hurt by his
tone.
"I know, I know. After lunch, I'll send you an e-card."
"E-card??"
That sounds so impersonal, but that's the way he is.
"You have? to e-mail it to me. I'll be waiting." I excitedly smiled and ran
to sneak home after lunch to check e-mail. Even though he wouldn't use any romantic words, I still looked forward to the card.
"I'm going back to work. Hurry and send me the card!"
As soon as I walked in my door, I turned on my computer and got online.
Staring at the empty inbox, I began to reminisce about how we met. Maybe no one will believe me, but my boyfriend and I were actually neighbors. Our homes were only 1 wall away. Ever since we were kids, we liked to fight with each other all day long. We were only neighbors. At that time, I hated my parents for making us live next to him.
At that time, I had a crush on a senior. After a while, I found out that the senior student had lots of girlfriends. When I cried about it, he silently passed me a handkerchief and awkwardly held me in his arms.
"I told you he wasn't any good." He roughly comforted me.
I cried in his arms the whole night, and began to see him in a different way. Things began to change between us. We still fought all the time, but he started to look at me differently. And I blushed and my heart beat faster when he was near.
We both knew: we fell in love with each other.
Even with this knowledge, neither of us said anything. Even though we would not be able to resist and kissed each other constantly. Even though we cared about each other's every moves. Both of us refused to admit our love.
Alright, we became lovers, but we still wouldn't say we loved each other. We didn't even spend Valentine's Day together until he saw me share dinner with a man one Valentine's Day. That night, he waited for me in front of my door and said that he would take me out to dinner on Valentine's Day from then on. I have to say that he was very arrogant. But I nodded and accepted his request. Since then, we spent every Valentine's Day together. On the surface, we may have left each other. But in reality, we were still together. We spent every Valentine's Day together but each year became more dreary than the next because he never told me he loved me even with all my hints.
Still facing the empty inbox, I suddenly grew very angry. He wouldn't say it and wouldn't send me a card. What did he mean? Who did he think I was? I called his cell phone.
"Hello." He picked up the phone.
"I didn't receive the card." I immediately showed my displeasure.
"You didn't receive it?" He seemed really busy.
"But I sent it." He was really busy but I didn't care.
"I didn't receive it. Send it again."
"Okay, I'll send you 100 times. Is that good enough??" He said with impatience. His tone further infuriated me. Is that how lovers speak to each other?
"Don't bother sending it to me. And you don't have to pick me up tonight. I'll eat dinner by myself."
"Don't be childish, ok? I'm really busy."
"I AM childish!" I hung up the phone and tears rolled down my cheeks.
Childish?? Why didn't he consider the situation? We've gone out for so many years and spent countless Valentine's Day together. I never received any flowers nor cards from him. Now, I just want a little e-card. Is that too much to ask for?? I nplugged the phone from the wall and turned off my cell phone. I didn't want to hear his explanations.
After I returned to the hospital, I instructed the receptionist not to forward me any phone calls. I wanted to concentrate on work.? Because there were so many emergencies today, I was sweating 1 hour later and forgot about our argument.
"Dr. Shu, please take a look at that patient."
As I was collecting my equipment, the shrill sound of an ambulance sounded outside the ER. When I stepped out the door, the emergency medics hurriedly wheeled in a gurney.
"What happened to him?" I asked the 1st medic.
Everyone else were trying to help put the patient on the gurney. He was covered with blood.
"Car accident." The medic replied.
"Very serious. He may die." I nodded and ran to the operating room with them.
When I arrived, the nurses told me that the man had already stopped breathing and also his heartbeat also stopped.
"Prepare for shock." I calmly instructed the nurses.
Saving people is our duty. We can't and shouldn't lose our calm.
But when I saw who laid on the operating table, I lost my calm. That person was my BOYFRIEND!
"NO..." I stood in shock.
"NO!!!" I grabbed the paddles and continuously shocked his body.
His body bounced up and down from the shocks. The scared nurses went to find another doctor, to tell him that I was crazy.
I didn't know if I was crazy or not. I just wanted to save my lover. Even though we fought all the time. Even though he never showed me his love. I still wanted to save him. He still owed me a card. He couldn't die! I threw away the paddles and began to press on his heart. I pressed with all my strength, hoping it would revive him, but he didn't wake up. He didn't even say "It hurts".? He just laid there with his eyes closed, punishing me with his silence.
Dr. Jian angrily pushed me away. By that time, I couldn't see clearly anymore. I cried. I wailed. I bowled until no sounds could come out of my mouth.
"It's too late, Dr. Shu. He's already dead. I'm sorry." Dr. Jian patted me on the shoulder. They knew each other and ate together once. I introduced them.
"He can't die." I shook my head.
"He can't die!!" I struggled to run to him.
"Dr. SHU, control yourself!" Dr. Jian slapped me.
"I understand what you're going through, but you're a doctor."
"Yes, I'm a doctor, but I'm also a regular person. How can Dr. Jian understand how I feel? I've loved him for so many years that it's become a habit. How can I just throw away a habit? Besides, he still owed me a card.
"I want him to live! I want him to live!" I ran to him again and tried to knock the life back into his body.
"Take her away!"
That day, I lost my control and my professionalism. And that day happened to be Valentine's Day.
Afterwards, I asked his co-workers why he left work early that day. They told me that after I hung up the phone, he tried to call me several times but couldn't reach me. Worried, he drove to the hospital to find me and got hit by a large truck on the way.
When I heard this, I froze. My tantrum killed him. Just because of an unmailed card, he died. After that, I lost my privilege to be childish. Like an abandoned cat, I couldn't even cry anymore.
After his death, I couldn't cry anymore, regardless of how touching the plot or how tear-jerking the dialogue. They didn't affect me anymore.
I turned on computer after a year later, even though I know no one will send me a mail, I still hoped that someone will remember me on this day.
GOSH....I have.... 100 emails!? Who would be bored enough to send me 100 junk mail? I was just about to delete them all when I received another mail, and this one said: "Because of system error, we could not send these until today. We apologize for the delay."
The sender was my BOYFRIEND!!! I looked at the 1st mail. It showed the send date is last year's Valentine's Day. My heart began to beat fast. Could he have sent these? With a trembling hand, I opened the mail.
The first thing that popped up was a gorgeous red rose set against green leaves. Then a beautiful melody began to play...."Only Love".? I couldn't believe it. The rose was so beautiful and the music was so dreamy.
I almost thought I was in a fantasy. Most touching of all were the words underneath the rose, because the words read like a beautiful poem.
"Only love can make a memory. Only love can make a moment last.
You were there and all the world was young and all it's songs unsung.
And I remember you then when love was all, all you were living for,
and how you gave that love to me...."
The lyrics of this song fits our love so closely. When he was alive, my world was so young. Every day, I could find a something different to fight with him about. But after he left, my life is only left with memories and coldness that will never go away. When I read these words, my tears unconsciously came, wetting the keyboard. I replied 100 times, and "Only Love" played 100 times.
In this cold Valentine's night, the line that's been broken for LAST ONE YEAR finally got RECONNECTED.
Moral of the story :
Try to express out your feeling towards each other so that both know what u are thinking!!
Thursday, March 17, 2005
Human: why do u wan to keep working part time now tt sch has reopened?
Me: simple, I need e money.
Human: but dun u think we got no time left for each other? other than seeing each other while working, we dun get e chance to get together..
Me: isn't tt more than enuf le mahz? I dun really see any prob.
Human: why do u wan so much money for? its not as if u dun haf enuf to use..
Me: I wan to buy mp3 player. my mama is v broke now so I cant expect her to buy for me le..
Human: wad kind u wan lehz? I already gave u one le also..
Me: I wan creative de zen mirco, but then its quite ex lor.. so I think maybe I can only afford muvo slim..
Human: huh? zen mirco? its freaking ex lo, $500++ leh.. wan so ex one for wad?
Me: Look nicer mah..
Human: but so damn ex lor. somemore its 4gb, wad for u wan so much space? put wad sai inside?
Me: huh? but its nice ..
Human: nice got use mehz? tt creative muvo slim also useless de lor, so small later drop le sure spoil de! (yes ppl using muvo slim, u all muz b pretty mad now, dun hit me, coz its not me who said tt.)
Me: really meh? so easy spoil de meh.. but I still like my thing to look nice leh..
Human: nice no use de..
Me: tt's my lifestyle, u dun care so much lah. not as if I am asking u to pay or forcing u to work tog with me!
Human: hai ok lor, if u really wan and need the money u can ask frm me de.. seriously, dun treat me like an outsider.. I can pay a little bit for u lah..I juz dun wan u to b so xin ku still work part-time when u got sch life also.. but I also bu she de spend so much to buy a mp3 player lor..(sounds pretty sweet doesn't it?)
Me: no need lah, I dun like to depend on others de..
Human: maybe u shld stop spending so much on ur hair le lah..
Me: again, tt's my lifestyle and I dun like ppl to sae me lo.. after all, I am spending my mum's and my own money..
Human: there's no need for u to spend so much on ur hair de lo.. why bother so much abt ur appearance and how other ppl look at u?
Me: I told u b4 I've been criticised abt my appearance b4 and I like e way I am now also.
Human: melvin aR?
Me: yes, u noe tt so dun need ask.
Human: but y bother so much? there wun b much difference whether is ur hair nice or not..
Me: yes it does matter! at least to me. I like my hair to feel soft n nice de..
Human: but u dun need to keep doing treatment?
Me: I dun keep doing! I only do treatment recently coz I got earn money and got xtra money.. tt's y. I dun do tt all e time. I dun print money!
Human: but rebonding leh?
Me: I dun do tt all e time! dotz.. I really dun print money..
Human: trust me, u will look pretty much e same with or without rebonding!
Me: yeah rite, if my hair isnt lidat will u haf noticed me in e 1st place??????? and if I dun look wad I look now will u ever notice me or like me????
Human: I may not haf noticed u but wad I like is not only tt..(yUcKs)
Several weeks later, when I showed human my secondary sch neoprint, human said one v hurtful thing: "Let's juz sae e past me wun fall for u past u and e past u wun fall for e past me." oH.... HOW SAD~
So much abt appearance isn't impt??? Wad the.. Isn't that such an irony? One moment I was told appearance isn't impt, the nxt I was told e past me was not attractive. Ok, I m not implying I am now, I still isnt attractive, but its juz sth I found pretty contradicting.
Yeah, the conversation showed how materialistic I am, but I nv once deny tt! =) Though its not sth to be proud of, but I do admit it.
And.. human has got himself a ZEN MIRCO!!!! Wahahaz, so rich rite? Its a 4GB de, sure cost at least $299 lor.. WANT SO MUCH SPACE FOR WAD? PUT SAI AR? Post tt qn back to urself ba. Self-contradicting isnt it?
Must make this clear: my ipod mini is bought with my mum's and my money. Nth to do with human wadsoever.
If human is reading this, yeah, MY MUM DOES DOTE ON ME. So pls erase tt thinking of urs tt my mum luvs my kor more than me ok.. She luvs me more than my kor, I noe tt v well. Its juz whether can she buy me wad I wan or not.. She luvs me alot de k, its juz unfair for others to keep thinking she doesn't luv me, juz coz of e things I complain abt her. =)
However, having zen mirco doesnt mean tt ur status is higher than the others nor does it mean u r COOL. So pls do not always try to show off it k? Juz a gentle reminder if u reading my blog, coz I am afraid ppl might b turned off by it. =P It wun be nice if ppl start to avoid u coz they think ur status is higher than them.. *sAD* I noe its inevitable tt one will think owning a zen mirco is a v happy thing, well, I dun deny its definitely a happy thing, but den again, do be careful not to overdo it in front of others.. =)
Decided not to blog abt my class outing, coz its pretty pathetic. Only 8 person turned up! But thanx for those who turned up, thanx alot k! Haf a fun time enjoying myself with u peepz.. I promise to organise a better and "complete" outing nxt time!!! =) Hope u all had a grt time too~ =)
If readers think tt "human" is an impt person in my life to haf my blog an entry abt him, well, he is impt. Why? Coz he showed me once again how "trustable" he is. He showed me once again tt how human beings can be such big fat liars. He showed me once again tt MOST(not all) human beings do LOVE THEMSELVES MORE THAN OTHERS (no matter wad they sae to u). So gals out there, beware guys who sweet talk TOO MUCH to u. Coz if they mean it, congratS! U really met a nice nice guy!!! =) If they dun, u might end up feeling like a dummy for trusting them. =X
Lastly, I dun usually blog such mean things. Its juz I felt v v v fed up with some ppl who are juz nth but liars.. I cant stand liars!! Tt's y I chose to let it out here coz I haf no where else to vent my anger..
Me: simple, I need e money.
Human: but dun u think we got no time left for each other? other than seeing each other while working, we dun get e chance to get together..
Me: isn't tt more than enuf le mahz? I dun really see any prob.
Human: why do u wan so much money for? its not as if u dun haf enuf to use..
Me: I wan to buy mp3 player. my mama is v broke now so I cant expect her to buy for me le..
Human: wad kind u wan lehz? I already gave u one le also..
Me: I wan creative de zen mirco, but then its quite ex lor.. so I think maybe I can only afford muvo slim..
Human: huh? zen mirco? its freaking ex lo, $500++ leh.. wan so ex one for wad?
Me: Look nicer mah..
Human: but so damn ex lor. somemore its 4gb, wad for u wan so much space? put wad sai inside?
Me: huh? but its nice ..
Human: nice got use mehz? tt creative muvo slim also useless de lor, so small later drop le sure spoil de! (yes ppl using muvo slim, u all muz b pretty mad now, dun hit me, coz its not me who said tt.)
Me: really meh? so easy spoil de meh.. but I still like my thing to look nice leh..
Human: nice no use de..
Me: tt's my lifestyle, u dun care so much lah. not as if I am asking u to pay or forcing u to work tog with me!
Human: hai ok lor, if u really wan and need the money u can ask frm me de.. seriously, dun treat me like an outsider.. I can pay a little bit for u lah..I juz dun wan u to b so xin ku still work part-time when u got sch life also.. but I also bu she de spend so much to buy a mp3 player lor..(sounds pretty sweet doesn't it?)
Me: no need lah, I dun like to depend on others de..
Human: maybe u shld stop spending so much on ur hair le lah..
Me: again, tt's my lifestyle and I dun like ppl to sae me lo.. after all, I am spending my mum's and my own money..
Human: there's no need for u to spend so much on ur hair de lo.. why bother so much abt ur appearance and how other ppl look at u?
Me: I told u b4 I've been criticised abt my appearance b4 and I like e way I am now also.
Human: melvin aR?
Me: yes, u noe tt so dun need ask.
Human: but y bother so much? there wun b much difference whether is ur hair nice or not..
Me: yes it does matter! at least to me. I like my hair to feel soft n nice de..
Human: but u dun need to keep doing treatment?
Me: I dun keep doing! I only do treatment recently coz I got earn money and got xtra money.. tt's y. I dun do tt all e time. I dun print money!
Human: but rebonding leh?
Me: I dun do tt all e time! dotz.. I really dun print money..
Human: trust me, u will look pretty much e same with or without rebonding!
Me: yeah rite, if my hair isnt lidat will u haf noticed me in e 1st place??????? and if I dun look wad I look now will u ever notice me or like me????
Human: I may not haf noticed u but wad I like is not only tt..(yUcKs)
Several weeks later, when I showed human my secondary sch neoprint, human said one v hurtful thing: "Let's juz sae e past me wun fall for u past u and e past u wun fall for e past me." oH.... HOW SAD~
So much abt appearance isn't impt??? Wad the.. Isn't that such an irony? One moment I was told appearance isn't impt, the nxt I was told e past me was not attractive. Ok, I m not implying I am now, I still isnt attractive, but its juz sth I found pretty contradicting.
Yeah, the conversation showed how materialistic I am, but I nv once deny tt! =) Though its not sth to be proud of, but I do admit it.
And.. human has got himself a ZEN MIRCO!!!! Wahahaz, so rich rite? Its a 4GB de, sure cost at least $299 lor.. WANT SO MUCH SPACE FOR WAD? PUT SAI AR? Post tt qn back to urself ba. Self-contradicting isnt it?
Must make this clear: my ipod mini is bought with my mum's and my money. Nth to do with human wadsoever.
If human is reading this, yeah, MY MUM DOES DOTE ON ME. So pls erase tt thinking of urs tt my mum luvs my kor more than me ok.. She luvs me more than my kor, I noe tt v well. Its juz whether can she buy me wad I wan or not.. She luvs me alot de k, its juz unfair for others to keep thinking she doesn't luv me, juz coz of e things I complain abt her. =)
However, having zen mirco doesnt mean tt ur status is higher than the others nor does it mean u r COOL. So pls do not always try to show off it k? Juz a gentle reminder if u reading my blog, coz I am afraid ppl might b turned off by it. =P It wun be nice if ppl start to avoid u coz they think ur status is higher than them.. *sAD* I noe its inevitable tt one will think owning a zen mirco is a v happy thing, well, I dun deny its definitely a happy thing, but den again, do be careful not to overdo it in front of others.. =)
Decided not to blog abt my class outing, coz its pretty pathetic. Only 8 person turned up! But thanx for those who turned up, thanx alot k! Haf a fun time enjoying myself with u peepz.. I promise to organise a better and "complete" outing nxt time!!! =) Hope u all had a grt time too~ =)
If readers think tt "human" is an impt person in my life to haf my blog an entry abt him, well, he is impt. Why? Coz he showed me once again how "trustable" he is. He showed me once again tt how human beings can be such big fat liars. He showed me once again tt MOST(not all) human beings do LOVE THEMSELVES MORE THAN OTHERS (no matter wad they sae to u). So gals out there, beware guys who sweet talk TOO MUCH to u. Coz if they mean it, congratS! U really met a nice nice guy!!! =) If they dun, u might end up feeling like a dummy for trusting them. =X
Lastly, I dun usually blog such mean things. Its juz I felt v v v fed up with some ppl who are juz nth but liars.. I cant stand liars!! Tt's y I chose to let it out here coz I haf no where else to vent my anger..
A joke to share here.. I actually duno how to use my ipod mini.. DotZ.. After spending a bomb on it I duno how to transfer songs to it.. *CompuTeR idIoT* =X
But mangaed to fix it last nite.. Finally got songs le!!! =)
Been slacking these few days coz I am having a bad cough + running nose. Hai, wad a bad time to sick, when I seriously need the energy to start revising my work.. And today is already thursday!!! OMG, I haf no time left.. I muz start doing work todaY..
NO MORE SLACKING!!!
But mangaed to fix it last nite.. Finally got songs le!!! =)
Been slacking these few days coz I am having a bad cough + running nose. Hai, wad a bad time to sick, when I seriously need the energy to start revising my work.. And today is already thursday!!! OMG, I haf no time left.. I muz start doing work todaY..
NO MORE SLACKING!!!
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Decided to post some pictures in my blog today. =)
Aren't these two pics of white rose prettY? They were given to me by my darling wanyi.. 2 weeks ago. HeHe, she v nice rite? I juz said I like white rose and she bought me one e nxt day~ =) Thx ALoT!
And now, some stupid pics ba. Tis is the ipod mini family..
Dun they look cute together? Lolz. And abt 3 weeks ago, on 26th Feb, xiao mei (rachel) got her ipod mini blue.. It got me green with envy.. =P Haha..
But actually, I am eyeing this..
But so eX!!! Although it dropped price liao, but still damn ex lo.. $348, my family dun print money.. Bth.
Finally, today I got my wish!!! =)
Ipod mini silver is mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hOoRaY* After much waiting, it's finally mine!!!
But wad really shocked me was that Creative Zen Mirco is going at $299 (4 GB) !!! Oh my, Creative and Apple are really fighting openly.
To think abt 2 mths ago someone was still telling me Creative Zen Mirco is priced at $500+++. And sad to sae, I really believed it. Perhaps I am really tt naive at times ba~
Anyway, think there's gonna be a Creative fair this weekend.. And the products' prices are slashed wor.. Quite a good bargain~ hEhEx..
Aren't these two pics of white rose prettY? They were given to me by my darling wanyi.. 2 weeks ago. HeHe, she v nice rite? I juz said I like white rose and she bought me one e nxt day~ =) Thx ALoT!
And now, some stupid pics ba. Tis is the ipod mini family..
Dun they look cute together? Lolz. And abt 3 weeks ago, on 26th Feb, xiao mei (rachel) got her ipod mini blue.. It got me green with envy.. =P Haha..
But actually, I am eyeing this..
But so eX!!! Although it dropped price liao, but still damn ex lo.. $348, my family dun print money.. Bth.
Finally, today I got my wish!!! =)
Ipod mini silver is mine!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hOoRaY* After much waiting, it's finally mine!!!
But wad really shocked me was that Creative Zen Mirco is going at $299 (4 GB) !!! Oh my, Creative and Apple are really fighting openly.
To think abt 2 mths ago someone was still telling me Creative Zen Mirco is priced at $500+++. And sad to sae, I really believed it. Perhaps I am really tt naive at times ba~
Anyway, think there's gonna be a Creative fair this weekend.. And the products' prices are slashed wor.. Quite a good bargain~ hEhEx..
Monday, March 14, 2005
Finally get to step out of the hse after being stuck at home for daYs..
Went out with kaicheng whom I knew during the climbing adventure thing to watch movie~ Was late as usual. =X HaHA.. Bought tix for .. BoOgEymaN~ =)
Stephen T. Kay's stylish thriller, BOOGEYMAN, takes one of horror's mythical figures and transports him into the 21st century. Though Tim Jensen (Barry Watson) is a successful magazine editor with a beautiful girlfriend (Tory Mussett), his childhood continues to haunt him. When he was only eight years old, Tim watched his father get eaten by the Boogeyman, or at least that's how he remembers it. Of course, no one believed him then--not even his mother (Lucy Lawless), who has just recently passed away. Wracked with guilt for not having been there to say goodbye, Tim decides to spend the night in his childhood home and confront the Boogeyman once and for all. But before that happens, he reunites with his old friend Kate (Emily Deschanel) and meets a young girl (Skye McCole Bartusiak) who is holding onto a dark secret of her own.
The movie was.. erm.. Duno how to say leh. I juz dun understand wad's really going on. -.-''' But the sound effect was pretty good! Made me had to cover my ears .. =X Moreover, there were alot of gals screaming in e cinema.. SiaNx.. Lolx.
After the movie we went to eat dinner. Hmm.. think I talked way too much le ba. But tt's juz me ba, always crapping. The weird thing was tt on the way home, kc asked me I got alot of things to sae ar when I asked if he's gonna b online later. ERm, tt set me thinking, m I really too talkative? Hahax, maybe I shall try to talk lesser nxt time. But if I am really too talkative, pls stop me from talking nxt time k peepZ? =)
Was chatting with xiao di last nite online.. Yah.. SorRY I didnt mean to sae all those harsh words, do take care xiao di.. Although it is hard to control ur mind to stop thinking, but sometimes no point thinking tt much either.. Only make ur life sad only~ Life shld b filled with happiness wor~ =) But no matter wad, I will alwaes lend a listening ear to u ~ =)
Went out with kaicheng whom I knew during the climbing adventure thing to watch movie~ Was late as usual. =X HaHA.. Bought tix for .. BoOgEymaN~ =)
Stephen T. Kay's stylish thriller, BOOGEYMAN, takes one of horror's mythical figures and transports him into the 21st century. Though Tim Jensen (Barry Watson) is a successful magazine editor with a beautiful girlfriend (Tory Mussett), his childhood continues to haunt him. When he was only eight years old, Tim watched his father get eaten by the Boogeyman, or at least that's how he remembers it. Of course, no one believed him then--not even his mother (Lucy Lawless), who has just recently passed away. Wracked with guilt for not having been there to say goodbye, Tim decides to spend the night in his childhood home and confront the Boogeyman once and for all. But before that happens, he reunites with his old friend Kate (Emily Deschanel) and meets a young girl (Skye McCole Bartusiak) who is holding onto a dark secret of her own.
The movie was.. erm.. Duno how to say leh. I juz dun understand wad's really going on. -.-''' But the sound effect was pretty good! Made me had to cover my ears .. =X Moreover, there were alot of gals screaming in e cinema.. SiaNx.. Lolx.
After the movie we went to eat dinner. Hmm.. think I talked way too much le ba. But tt's juz me ba, always crapping. The weird thing was tt on the way home, kc asked me I got alot of things to sae ar when I asked if he's gonna b online later. ERm, tt set me thinking, m I really too talkative? Hahax, maybe I shall try to talk lesser nxt time. But if I am really too talkative, pls stop me from talking nxt time k peepZ? =)
Was chatting with xiao di last nite online.. Yah.. SorRY I didnt mean to sae all those harsh words, do take care xiao di.. Although it is hard to control ur mind to stop thinking, but sometimes no point thinking tt much either.. Only make ur life sad only~ Life shld b filled with happiness wor~ =) But no matter wad, I will alwaes lend a listening ear to u ~ =)
Saturday, March 12, 2005
Still running a fever plus bad headache n body aching. =X But I dun wan see doctor!! Coz I cant stand docs, they will most probably try to gif me an injection. T_T And docs are nv gentle ppl, unlike nurses. =) Tt's y I'm glad my mama is not at home, at least there wun b anyone forcing me to go see doc~ Lolx.
Was resting on bed juz now after eating panadol again. Well, many things flashed thru my mind.. I saw my babysitter, I saw her husband, I saw those happy times we spent tog when I was young. Everything seems to be a happy sight. Was it juz thoughts tt ran thru my mind? Or was it juz dreams? I m not too sure, it juz seem too real to me.
For a moment I thought I saw my babysitter waving to me.. Was it real? Or was it juz a dream? I wanted to follow, but den I heard my hp got sms and when I open my eyes, everything was gone. Its juz a very very very weird feeling. It seems too real. But it seems to be like a dream? Does it imply I am dying? Wad will happen if I followed her? Is she trying to lessen my pain for me? Was she trying to let me be happy again?
Maybe its only my imagination, but I am much better after tt rest juz now. At least my head is less pain, at least I dun feel like my head is bursting and I feel less hot. =) Hope I will get well soon. Its juz not the rite time to fall sick.
Didnt step out of hse for e whole day. Paiseh xiao di n xiao mei for ps-ing u all. I wanted to go nus open hse de, but I was sick so my mama dun let me go out.. Moreover I dun haf any energy to move at all.. =X PAisEh!!!
Anyway, anyone watched "Boogeyman" already? If anyone watch le, pls tag and tell me if its nice can? As expected I am thinking of watching it! Lolx.. Although I shld stay home and mug.. But after slping for one whole day at home I m v sianz le.. =X
Was resting on bed juz now after eating panadol again. Well, many things flashed thru my mind.. I saw my babysitter, I saw her husband, I saw those happy times we spent tog when I was young. Everything seems to be a happy sight. Was it juz thoughts tt ran thru my mind? Or was it juz dreams? I m not too sure, it juz seem too real to me.
For a moment I thought I saw my babysitter waving to me.. Was it real? Or was it juz a dream? I wanted to follow, but den I heard my hp got sms and when I open my eyes, everything was gone. Its juz a very very very weird feeling. It seems too real. But it seems to be like a dream? Does it imply I am dying? Wad will happen if I followed her? Is she trying to lessen my pain for me? Was she trying to let me be happy again?
Maybe its only my imagination, but I am much better after tt rest juz now. At least my head is less pain, at least I dun feel like my head is bursting and I feel less hot. =) Hope I will get well soon. Its juz not the rite time to fall sick.
Didnt step out of hse for e whole day. Paiseh xiao di n xiao mei for ps-ing u all. I wanted to go nus open hse de, but I was sick so my mama dun let me go out.. Moreover I dun haf any energy to move at all.. =X PAisEh!!!
Anyway, anyone watched "Boogeyman" already? If anyone watch le, pls tag and tell me if its nice can? As expected I am thinking of watching it! Lolx.. Although I shld stay home and mug.. But after slping for one whole day at home I m v sianz le.. =X
Reached home quite early on friday. Was feeling sleepy. So I went slp. Time is 6pm.
Woke up at 11.30pm. LoLx. How come I can slp for so many hrs? Duno leh, by the time I woke up, I am having a bad headache. My whole body is feeling v hot n aching. *SiGhx* Wad's wrong with me? Dun wan to blog also le. Coz my head is hurting, shall go take panadol and try to get some rest.
Woke up at 11.30pm. LoLx. How come I can slp for so many hrs? Duno leh, by the time I woke up, I am having a bad headache. My whole body is feeling v hot n aching. *SiGhx* Wad's wrong with me? Dun wan to blog also le. Coz my head is hurting, shall go take panadol and try to get some rest.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
Today can be said to be quite a long daY. Coz haf chem spa + physics talk. sianX~ =X
Got 3 free periods todaY. Hahaz, intended to study for chem SPA. But in e end I think I ended up disturbing zhen gang and xiao mei. Lolx. PaiseH ppLx.. Didnt mean to talk SOOOO much. =X We still played 3 rounds of daidee in between our studying. Lolx. We really v bad lo, study can still think of daidee.
The chem spa was quite ok I suppose. Coz I think I managed to get some crystals! Ok la, initially I was still whispering to wanyi darling tt I cant get any crystals out. PaisEh.. =) The chem spa passed pretty fast. I still forgot some points. Die le lor. =X
After sch got phy talk. Lol, its a pretty good slping session. Lol. I was tired I supposed. Hmmm, yilin and wanyi nv go for the talk coz wanyi darling lost her "red chamber" book. HaHa, lazy to type hanyu pinyin so type out in eng. =X Lost touch with chinese after so many mths nv do chinese lE~ =)
The talk finish in an hr's time. Went to meet poonie darling at TM. =) Sth really really qiao happened.. Wad should I say? Its juz fate lah. Saw joyce and benson too! Benson still so cute, he kept talking alot of lame things. Made me v happy wor~
Anyway, today quite alot of happy things happening to ppl ard me? HeHe.. I juz feel v happy too that they r happy. =) Although my day wasn't really tt great, but my frenz' happy faces made mY dAy~ =)
Got 3 free periods todaY. Hahaz, intended to study for chem SPA. But in e end I think I ended up disturbing zhen gang and xiao mei. Lolx. PaiseH ppLx.. Didnt mean to talk SOOOO much. =X We still played 3 rounds of daidee in between our studying. Lolx. We really v bad lo, study can still think of daidee.
The chem spa was quite ok I suppose. Coz I think I managed to get some crystals! Ok la, initially I was still whispering to wanyi darling tt I cant get any crystals out. PaisEh.. =) The chem spa passed pretty fast. I still forgot some points. Die le lor. =X
After sch got phy talk. Lol, its a pretty good slping session. Lol. I was tired I supposed. Hmmm, yilin and wanyi nv go for the talk coz wanyi darling lost her "red chamber" book. HaHa, lazy to type hanyu pinyin so type out in eng. =X Lost touch with chinese after so many mths nv do chinese lE~ =)
The talk finish in an hr's time. Went to meet poonie darling at TM. =) Sth really really qiao happened.. Wad should I say? Its juz fate lah. Saw joyce and benson too! Benson still so cute, he kept talking alot of lame things. Made me v happy wor~
Anyway, today quite alot of happy things happening to ppl ard me? HeHe.. I juz feel v happy too that they r happy. =) Although my day wasn't really tt great, but my frenz' happy faces made mY dAy~ =)
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Wanted to blog yesterday but didn't. Coz I too lazy le. =X Anyway changed my blog song, thanx to pooniE daRLing.. =) But also thanx to zhengang mei mei for sending me tt song.. Quite meaningful ba the lyrics. =X Nono, that song is not dedicated to anyone, or maybe it is juz dedicated to all those in luv now. =)
Oh ya, have been meeting poonie darling for almost everyday after school for several days. The only dae we didnt meet was last sat and sun. HeHe.. =) Time spent with her is really v happy, even slacking is much more fun with her arD~ =)
Today went for learning journey with 20/04. It was quite a fun trip, although it was spent listening to a presentation by officers from Central Nacotics Bureau. Haha, there was even snacks for us too~ Not bad rite? But as usual I nearly fell aslp while listening. Coz last nite slp too late, tt's y today abit tireD. =X
But after the learning journey there's no school transport to send us back to school!!! OMG, we haf to make our way back home ourselves from outram park~ Lol. Intended to meet poonie darling but later decided against it coz abit far to go to pasir ris. =X sorrY daRLing!!!
Ok le, shall not blog so much. Tml is chem SPA. Wish me luck, I need lots of it. =)
Oh ya, have been meeting poonie darling for almost everyday after school for several days. The only dae we didnt meet was last sat and sun. HeHe.. =) Time spent with her is really v happy, even slacking is much more fun with her arD~ =)
Today went for learning journey with 20/04. It was quite a fun trip, although it was spent listening to a presentation by officers from Central Nacotics Bureau. Haha, there was even snacks for us too~ Not bad rite? But as usual I nearly fell aslp while listening. Coz last nite slp too late, tt's y today abit tireD. =X
But after the learning journey there's no school transport to send us back to school!!! OMG, we haf to make our way back home ourselves from outram park~ Lol. Intended to meet poonie darling but later decided against it coz abit far to go to pasir ris. =X sorrY daRLing!!!
Ok le, shall not blog so much. Tml is chem SPA. Wish me luck, I need lots of it. =)
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Woke up late for mentoring forum at SP. so I had to rush out to take train down. Luckily I wasn't exactly VERY late.. =x
The forum was pretty boring.. started out with talks, well as expected I fell aslp! sorry lah, I noe its rude to do tt when other ppl is talking, but then I cant help it either? I also tried my best to stay awake, but juz cant help it lo..
After talks came games, the game still quite ok lor. Although quite of lame plus the rules not v clear. There wasn't much teamwork either. Only a few leaders and followers like me. =) Lolx, but still ok lah. I m not a leader. So I be follower.
Lunch was quite tasty, or is it I too hungry liaox?
During one of the breaks, I received some shocking news ba. Duno how to comment. Was trying hard to hold back my tears during the forum. Haix, looks like I did succeed. Its juz not the rite time nor the rite place to tear at all!!!!!!!! =x Hai, wad went wrong?? I duno lah, I juz wan to be strong.
The rest of the forum was juz bad. Coz I mood no good. So dun haf e heart to do anything at all. *sIgHx* Juz wanted to leave the forum and go home. Though I am surrounded with ppl at the forum, but then all I can do is think and think and think. That is making my life worse lor.
I intend to keep myself busy tml. So that I wont haf the energy to think abt anything at all. =) I juz wished I haf the courage to cry.
The forum was pretty boring.. started out with talks, well as expected I fell aslp! sorry lah, I noe its rude to do tt when other ppl is talking, but then I cant help it either? I also tried my best to stay awake, but juz cant help it lo..
After talks came games, the game still quite ok lor. Although quite of lame plus the rules not v clear. There wasn't much teamwork either. Only a few leaders and followers like me. =) Lolx, but still ok lah. I m not a leader. So I be follower.
Lunch was quite tasty, or is it I too hungry liaox?
During one of the breaks, I received some shocking news ba. Duno how to comment. Was trying hard to hold back my tears during the forum. Haix, looks like I did succeed. Its juz not the rite time nor the rite place to tear at all!!!!!!!! =x Hai, wad went wrong?? I duno lah, I juz wan to be strong.
The rest of the forum was juz bad. Coz I mood no good. So dun haf e heart to do anything at all. *sIgHx* Juz wanted to leave the forum and go home. Though I am surrounded with ppl at the forum, but then all I can do is think and think and think. That is making my life worse lor.
I intend to keep myself busy tml. So that I wont haf the energy to think abt anything at all. =) I juz wished I haf the courage to cry.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Had 2.4km trial run today. Its supposed to be a mock test. The most dreaded event of the yr I suppose? Coz one haf to run BUT its not the real test. To me I'm numb to it. After the road run which consist of 3.6km, wad's 2.4km? =X I better not sound too arrogant. Managed to finish e run with a timing I am quite satisfied with. But wanyi darling was having a bad time after e run.. Hope she's better now le~
After PE I suffered a bad tummy ache. KAox, BTH!! Duno y so pain lo.. Hai
School ended at 345 sharp today. Miss Wong finally decided to release us on e dot.
Went bedok interchange to meet poonie and joyce after school. We went to eat japan food. Its not bad wor, plus e price is quite ok. =) After eating, we went mac to study. went home at 8pm lidat.. Tt's abt all for today.
The following part is gonna be sth personal.
Things are going juz the way I expected them to be, although they are not wad I wanted at all. Perhaps I should juz gif up the hope that things will turn out the way I want them to, coz its juz gonna be silly to hope for sth impossible. WAKE UP! Stop trying to hope for sth impossible. I noe very well wad will happen if I continue to be silly, but maybe its the path I want to take. I do not want to haf any regrets in future.
I suppose all these are juz retribution? Haha, or juz fate? When one has nth to blame for things tt are going wrong, one juz blame fate. I am definitely one of those. My brain is driving me crazy, why can't those thoughts get out of my mind. Why can't my brain stop thinking of all those things? No matter how hard I try to stop thinking, my brain still doesn't listen to me. Damn it! I must find ways to occupy myself with other things so that I wun haf energy to think abt it anymore. So I shall make myself real busy this coming weekend.
Its juz a wrong time for my brain to function this way. I must regain my self-discipline over my actions. I can't afford to waste anytime. I juz wan my brain to listen to me.
After PE I suffered a bad tummy ache. KAox, BTH!! Duno y so pain lo.. Hai
School ended at 345 sharp today. Miss Wong finally decided to release us on e dot.
Went bedok interchange to meet poonie and joyce after school. We went to eat japan food. Its not bad wor, plus e price is quite ok. =) After eating, we went mac to study. went home at 8pm lidat.. Tt's abt all for today.
The following part is gonna be sth personal.
Things are going juz the way I expected them to be, although they are not wad I wanted at all. Perhaps I should juz gif up the hope that things will turn out the way I want them to, coz its juz gonna be silly to hope for sth impossible. WAKE UP! Stop trying to hope for sth impossible. I noe very well wad will happen if I continue to be silly, but maybe its the path I want to take. I do not want to haf any regrets in future.
I suppose all these are juz retribution? Haha, or juz fate? When one has nth to blame for things tt are going wrong, one juz blame fate. I am definitely one of those. My brain is driving me crazy, why can't those thoughts get out of my mind. Why can't my brain stop thinking of all those things? No matter how hard I try to stop thinking, my brain still doesn't listen to me. Damn it! I must find ways to occupy myself with other things so that I wun haf energy to think abt it anymore. So I shall make myself real busy this coming weekend.
Its juz a wrong time for my brain to function this way. I must regain my self-discipline over my actions. I can't afford to waste anytime. I juz wan my brain to listen to me.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Wanyi darLing gave me a v nice white rose yesterdaY!! But I duno why when I tried to post the pic in my blog, it doesnt show!!! hMPh! Muz be my computer is jelaous of my rose, coz too nice le tt's y it chose not to show my rose. =X Lolz, crap. But thanx alot wor~! =) I juz said I wished to see how a white rose looked like and she bought me one~ REally v v v nice wor.. Xie Xie
Yesterdae was v hectic. The climbing adventure was pretty nice. haha, finally got the chance to climb the rock wall!! =P But then its quite tiring for me ba.. Got home v tired and still haf to study for physics. sigHx.. Tt's y I didnt blog yesterday..
Today after sch went tm meet poonie darLing.. we got tix for..
hItCh
HeHe.. its really a funny show.. Recommended for others to go watch~ But then hor, there's this gal sitting beside me sobbing towards the end of the movie.. Franly speaking I also feel abit sad over e plot. Lucky I din cry. =X Juz wondering wad is love again..
Recently I've realised there's this problem with me. U noe, I am really v v v tired nowadays. I can fall aslp almost anywhere. In classes, in the sch canteen during free period, outside, on buses, everywhere.. Haix, last time I wasn't lidat. I will choose a nice spot to slp wan. I dun usually slp in sch canteen nor outside. Dun usually fall into deep slp on the bus too, but now.. Ha|x..
I think I am really deprived of sleep. I myself noe v well wad resulted in this. I noe its juz my own fault tt I dun haf enuf slp. And it doesnt happen overnite either. =X Think its coz I sometimes nv slp for whole nite earlier this yr, tt's y I am so tired now. I am almost going to die soon le.. Hai, pls.. I need some slp, seriously I need to slp earlier. I intend to slp before midnite everyday. I dun care wad work is not done, I jux need the energy to function in school.
Yesterdae was v hectic. The climbing adventure was pretty nice. haha, finally got the chance to climb the rock wall!! =P But then its quite tiring for me ba.. Got home v tired and still haf to study for physics. sigHx.. Tt's y I didnt blog yesterday..
Today after sch went tm meet poonie darLing.. we got tix for..
hItCh
HeHe.. its really a funny show.. Recommended for others to go watch~ But then hor, there's this gal sitting beside me sobbing towards the end of the movie.. Franly speaking I also feel abit sad over e plot. Lucky I din cry. =X Juz wondering wad is love again..
Recently I've realised there's this problem with me. U noe, I am really v v v tired nowadays. I can fall aslp almost anywhere. In classes, in the sch canteen during free period, outside, on buses, everywhere.. Haix, last time I wasn't lidat. I will choose a nice spot to slp wan. I dun usually slp in sch canteen nor outside. Dun usually fall into deep slp on the bus too, but now.. Ha|x..
I think I am really deprived of sleep. I myself noe v well wad resulted in this. I noe its juz my own fault tt I dun haf enuf slp. And it doesnt happen overnite either. =X Think its coz I sometimes nv slp for whole nite earlier this yr, tt's y I am so tired now. I am almost going to die soon le.. Hai, pls.. I need some slp, seriously I need to slp earlier. I intend to slp before midnite everyday. I dun care wad work is not done, I jux need the energy to function in school.