Todae is not happy dae. REally tiring. Morning woke up at 10am to do pw. Went TJC first to get stuffs frm lookit n pass him some surveys. After tt went bedok mac there n met up wif rebecca n yubo. Yubo reached already. We were waiting for rebecca n she arrvied quite late. Duno y nowadaes i m less anti her already. Perhaps e camp made me grown up. N it made me understand her more? I no longer feel so irritated by her le.

She arrived at ard 12. -.-''' HaHa.. Den we start coming up wif qns to ask for our interview. Came up wif several lame qns. But decided 2 settle wif it. After tt i bought food to eat. Hungry le ma. Den lookit also haven come so gotta wait for him. Yubo went off earlier at 1+pm. Lookit still haven reach. Rebecca n i were sitting there ready to stone le. :D Coz i tink both of us oso quite tired..she got her camp while i not enuf slp. Lolz. Finally we see a blackish figurE... :D lolz.. we wave out 2 tt figure.. heNg aR.. is lookit. !!! If not sure so damn paiseh, reb n me like some idiot waving lidat :X

After lookit came we wait for rain to smaller abit before going to VJ outside to do. Actually i hate to go vj do, coz its realli realli stupid i tink. Somehow i duno y but i feel vj ppl dun like us? So i dare not ask much also. But since they wan go there i follow suit lor. It was raining n we were still stopping ppl 2 do survey for us. LAME!!!!! I feel sorry for those ppl, though reb will hold umbrella for them. -.-''' But its like.. so mean lidat. I also got bitten by mosquitos along e wae!!!!!

Finally we decide to go parkwae to do survey. But we went there n found v little ppl 2 do for us. Coz we can hardly see any ppl in uniform there~ Den we went tampines lor. Sianz!!! At there at least got more ppl.. Though not v smooth, rejected by some. Mostly is lookit asking lor.. Reb n i almost stoning le. HaHaz.. Coz realli feel v tired n den too many ppl walking. We see until eyes also blur lah. Duno lehz. Ha|X.

We went home at ard 7pm. When lookit gotta leave for his zr practice i tink. Not v sure wad instrument izzit. I was so damn tired tt i fell aslp on e bus. I was so scared i will miss my stop, coz e journey usually v fast. Dun wan miss my stop coz i m real tired n leg aching. Ha|x. Came home had a quick dinner den watched tv. Supposed 2 study but i stone at home. Juz cant bring myself to study.. unless i settle sth first..

Deleted awae tis paragraph i typed previously. Coz i juz wan 2 keep sth 2 myself. Juz replaced tis wif sth else. *I noe my dream is smashed. Everyting is juz my imagination. But i will keep those memories wif me, inside me. Coz i read it b4 frm somewhere tt no one can tk awae ur memories. Even if u do not belong to me but those sweet memories belong to me. I woken up frm my dream juz now, still not wanting to accept tings. I noe its not possible, i haf 2 grow up, i haf 2 heal. But i haf chosen 2 like u still, mayb ppl will sae i m stupid or wad, but i juz wan 2 like u.. till e dae my feelings r all gone.. Ppl sae i will 4get u v fast, mayb, mayb not. But i chose not 2 forget u yet, its not easy.. Wif so much interactions.. I only noe its gonna b more sad.. Ha|x.. But i wun disrupt ur life, i will onli admire u frm afar.. I m not hoping for a miracle, coz i noe u wun change ur mind. I juz hope u wun avoid me or hate mE..*

Todae went out wif poonie and mindy. Slept only at ard 7am in e morning. Was on e fone wif mindy. Lolz.. how tired i m! Woke up at 10+am n rushed to bathe n go out meet poonie. Met at orchard mrt there. Went eat ajisen!!! VerY vERy nicE!!! Hehez.. Their standard increase liao wor.. Really v nice. HaHax.

After eating we went toilet. Mindy came n find us there. -.-''' Haha, fancy meeting in toilet. :D REally siao siao lidat. Anywae we went take photos at cine!!!!! Long time nv take liao lor.. so dying to take lor. I tink got mths i nv take le. Until last weekend took wif yilin~ Wad to do? Not many ppl like to take wor. Den we take the photos v nice lehz.. HaHaz. I really so happy, coz it's so nice!! Not me nice but poonie n mindy nice.

We wanted 2 take another photo but we got some harry porter ride 2 catch. Kinda lame, coz i dun like harry porter. Not dun like but neutral. Den i duno much den quite of stupid coz i duno how 2 appreciate. :S Sianz.. After e 15 mins ride, we went back cine take 2nd photo!!! hehez... REally v fun leh! But den we waited for sooooooo long lor, we wait till wanna slp while standing le lAH!!! HaHax.. Heng e pic turn out quite ok, if not waste our time waiting lor!!!

Anywae, after tt we went mos burger to drink milkshake. Nice but den its cold! hahaz.. I tink i drank almost everyting in 10mins. :P thirsty mah, after tt still not enuf lor. Still v thirsty. So i went buy lemon tea to share wif them. HaHa.. chatted alot.. n crapped as well lor. Wad to expect? 3 gals together = crapped!!!!! :) Enjoyed myself wif them alot lehz!!

Abt 5pm poonie gotta go.. do facial! :X So mindy n i went off lor. She went novena pay tuition fees while i go home ... Too tired le mahz.. Wan go home n slp. Juz feel so tired. Went home n slp n watch tv. Sianz..

Den come home den watch tv, den lidat lor.. sianz.. tired le lor. i jux wan 2 slp..ByEbYe.

Todae made some changes to my blog. Nth much, juz changed some "luvs" of mine. Added extra wishes on e wishlist. Most of them wun come true i noe, but juz hoping for sth? HaHaZ~

Did nth todae. Only slacked at home. Was intendin 2 go swimming wif poonie, but last min mummy called n ask me help her record 7pm show. There goes my swimming outing. DotZ!!! Ha|x. i tot can go, but den walao lor.. my mama last min call me. :S JCT is nearing, but i haven done anything. Oh woah.. Nth 2 b proud abt. But i m trying my v best to do my work.. Let me enjoy first lahz.. Den i will work hard. Yes i will, i definitely will. *GrInZ* Like i will lidat. :P

Ok le lah, todae nth much 2 talk abt. I dun tink i shld keep typing out my feelings on my blog too. I tink i haf changed. Changed since sec3. Nvm, i m not talking sense. MAyb my sec sch frenz noe me.. MAyb.. Ha|x. Dun wish 2 update. Bye

HeRe again. S|anz hor. Dun understand y i like 2 blog so much. Perhaps i m slacking la, tt's y. Recently, i tink i m lack of confidence. I dun seem 2 b able to do tings wifout worrying abt many tings. Ha|X. Yes, i noe u might tink i m referring 2 bgr matters. But no, i m not referring to bgr matters. I m referring to all aspects of my life. For example during e LEP camp, when we haf discussions i dare not voice out my opinions. I also duno y izzit lidat. But i juz dare not. When writing my compo, i also lack confidence. Ha|x. Even when wif my classmates, i also dare not sae everythin on my mind for fear of saying wrong tingz.. Lidat how to survive? All i can do is sigh. I seriously need to regain my confidence. But how to? Tt is a good qn. Haix, i tink i m hopeless liao. I need to reflect on myself again.

My frenz who knew me for a long time noe tt i m a frank person who usually speaks wad's on my mind. Poonie and Mindy noe tt once i like some1, i will tell him v soon, regardless of e consequences. But i shld try to control myself lor. If i do tt all e time i m only going to b rejected by other ppl so many times. Den its gonna b so paiseh. Ha|x.. poonie help me.. i muz control myself.. i muz not let *him* noe.. Ha|x..

Duno wad else to update.. todae din do much. now also dun feel like updating. Cya.. hope to go out wif poonie 2 take photo soon.. :D

Very sianz. woke up at ard 12+pm.. Ate brkfast n come online le. Saw rachel online.. Her nick is "missing the slopes and hills, toilet codes and blackouts". Ha|x.. made me tink also. I miss e camp too.

When i first reached there, everyting seem so foreign. Even the slopes and hills were a torture to us. We haf 2 go a long long wae before reaching e LT4 where we haf our lectures. But now tt i m back, i dun find tt distance long. Instead i miss tt route.. More imptly, i miss e laughter of everyone.. How i wish i can turn back time, gossiping wif e gals till late nite was damn fun. Even if rachel fell aslp first n scared us when she suddenly wake. :P I miss e time when i was down n rachel went for e late nite jog wif me at 1.45am. Its realli such an unforgettable trip. I miss playing daidee wif zg.. coz he alwaes look like some daidee addict. :D

I miss e toilet codes as well. Initially i had a tough time searching for e nos and letters. But as we reached e 2nd dae, i can press wifout looking. *hUrRaY* :) I also miss e times yilin and i rushed to e toilet to bathe.. coz e other gals r abit slow.. n we dun like 2 wait? :D HeHez~ I miss e times when yilin was so hyper and jumping ard on my bed.. HeHeZ~ So do i miss e blackouts.. We can scream n run out of our rooms, coz e blackouts came juz lidat..oh man.. So saddening. e camp came lidat n now its over juz lidat too..

I miss e times when e three jcs were performing their own items. I miss e nitez wif fun and laughter.. I miss e last minute item my grp put up. They were a great bunch of ppl .. Through tis camp, i learnt more abt my own classmates.. learnt abt their little habits n moods.. HeHez.. Esp e 3 galz~

I duno y i like this camp so much. Perhaps its a camp where we were totally treated like adults. We can stay up late wifout teachers checking on us. We can go to guys room to play as well wifout being chased out by teachers. Its a grt feeling tt e teachers actually trust us n treat us as adults. All e other camps i went before all restrict us to alot of stuffs.. esp our slping time. But this camp nv wor. HaHa.. or mayb is i too ignorant n went too little camps.. But i still luv tis LEP camp. During tis camp i sorted out my own tots and reflected on my life.. And i finally made up my mind on certain issues. So its a rewarding camp wor. I also learnt more on writing skills, though i still cant write out gd essays.. :P

If only i can turn back time.. i will let it stay at e camp.. even if it means i will hf 2 slp in tt warm room wif a weird smell.. even if it means i cant see my families or cant use my computer.. i misS e camp..

SAturdae. A nice one indeed. Woke up at ard 12pm. Den i called rebecca to ask her abt PW stuffs. I told her we need another meetin before fridae coz we need 2 finish up e surveys. She agreed. Tink we gonna meet on wed lor. Hahaz, PW is such a chore. After tt i went online and saw yubo online. So i msg him inform him abt PW meeting. After tt i sms lookit. But lookit nv reply me lehz.. And i cant find rebecca also liaoz. Die le lah, all MIA. :S

Sms yilin at 1+pm asking if she still wan go out. She sae ok. We wanted to ask rachel along but den she dun wan go. So nvm lor. Yilin n me go out ourselves. We met at orchard and went mos burger to drink milkshake. I tried their new strawberry ice cream. Quite nice wor.. Somemore 3 for $1. Worth a try leh. Yilin and me got a strawberry shake each. Nice wor. Den we start 2 gossip and gossip. :S We luv doing tt, but we r not talking bad tings behind ppl's back, we r only chatting abt own stuffs wor. :)

Left mos at ard 4 lidat.. Den we shopped ard at heeren there. Wanted to buy sweets frm mini toons. But den they dun haf e sweets i want, so i din buy lor. Walked somemore and we decided to take photo. But e print club at heeren was sooo packed wif ppl. So 2 of us walked over to cineleisure to take photo. We took some machine. Den it turned out quite nice lehz!!! HaHaz.. Too bad i dun haf scanner if not can scan in. But den ppl might puke seeing my photo. :S But we haf a grt time wor.. :)

After tt went for dinner. I abit hungry le ma. Went yoshinoya. Ate ebi + tempura fish combo meal for dinner. NICE!!! :D Really nice wor. Hahaz.. But as usual din finish e rice lah. :X Coz dun like rice. :P After tt we went esplanade to see see lor. And of coz we chatted alot.. nice chatting wif tt gal ar.. :D Went home at abt 9pm. Had a grt time wor. HeHez.. tHx yILin~

Tt's abt all for todae le.. TaTaz..

Here to blog again. -.-''' I duno y also lahz. Juz feel like blogging. I realise my pw grp is lacking behind alot. We seem to b doing nth for months. As e grp leader, i tink i m lousy. I shld start to reflect and get my members 2 meet up for meeting. If not i tink my grp will nv finish pw in time also. Somemore my survey is not completed yet also. SiaNz.. I haTE pW !!!

Back to my main topic. I m bloggin at tis time coz I wan 2 sae sth here laH. There is really nth between weekim and mE. Believe it or not. We only go sch n home together. But there wun b anymore such cases happening anymore. Coz i told him clearly already. Its a fact i like some1 else already. So i juz tell him lor. Weekim, whether or not u will read tis msg but i juz wan 2 tell u tt its not ur fault at all. Neither am i betraying u, coz i din tell u i luv u anymore after we broke up, so pls dun sae i like some1 else n tt's betrayal. I m not a BITCH. ThaNx, pls dun keep tinking i betray u. Thank u for all e time and effort u spent. All came too late. Sorry

Anywae, i really like some1 else already. To protect him/her i wun reveal names. [SeE mY j0kE? :P] No lah, i m perfectly straight! I like him, not her. I tink its a one-sided ting. REally. I noe he dun like me at all. But i dun mind. I juz like him.. I duno when did this happen but i juz like him? Guess e LEP camp changed my life once again. But i wun tell him i like him tis time. I dun wan paiseh. LAter ppl dun like me how? somemore we are not really tt close or noe each other long also.. LEt nature take its course ba. :)

I duno y i m v happy now. Perhaps of wad my classmates sae earlier ba.. :P I noe they may b trying 2 b nice or tt they r wrong. But i still chose to believe them abit. I miss him ba. Wun get to see him for quite sometime. I noe nth will come out frm this. It may b a simple crush or juz admiration, but i like him. I dun expect him to like me back, but i juz like e feeling of having a new life once again. I haf been living in e past all these months.. I haf been hanging ard wif weekim all e while. Now tt i like some1 else, it symbolises tt my life is regenerating again. I alwaes wanted 2 move on wif life, but somehow i can't. But now i m moving on wif life already. If i could i wld turn back time, turn back time to the LEP camp. Its really a fun camp and there r alot alot of nice tings happening in e camp.. :) If onLY u kNeW wAD i M FeELinG n0w.. If 0nlY i cAn tUrN bAcK tImE..